Age nineteen.
I made the fatal mistake of checking Oliverâs Instagram page. On the bench, between classes, beneath the blistering Texas heat, with a sandwich clamped between my teeth.
He finally updated his Instagram again, after a twenty-month hiatus, following that airport picture.
I ignored the notification for a blissful second, approved my scholarships and grants offers for next school year, and moved back to Insta like it had some sort of magnet pulling me in.
âOh, fuck it.â
I clicked on the app, pulling up his profile and clicking on the picture.
A sprawling mansion with black iron wrought gates.
The caption read: Forget the imposters. Thereâs a new (dark) prince in town. This one is actual royalty. Time to spend Spring Break throwing some rad ass parties on DPR. Great things to come.
Was reverse image searching the mansion on Google a stalker move? Of course. Did I care? Absolutely not. Hear me out â maybe Oliver deserved a stalker for everything heâd done to me.
The result came in embarrassingly fast. I had the address pulled up in less than ten seconds. Potomac, Maryland. 88 Dark Prince Road. What happened to Oliverâs common sense, and did he leave it at that lake house with Lindsey? The Oliver I knew would never make such a dumb move.
I could get there cheap enough with a low-cost flight.
I could.
I had the stipend for it and a bit of savings.
A year had passed since our breakup, and yet, it felt like just yesterday when he carried me on his shoulder from a Parisian bar, broken and sobbing, and watched me sleep in a hotel room, even as his entire family pressured him to return home.
A wave of emotions crashed into me, drowning all logic in my head. I was sad, elated, angry, scared, desperate, and anxious all at the same time. More than anything, I knew I couldnât leave us like this.
It was time to get some answers.
Exactly a week later, I stood in front of Oliverâs gate.
The sky rained down on me nonstop, as if Potomac hadnât gotten the memo that we were deep into spring.
âYouâre doing the right thing, Briar. That hundred bucks on that flight is a necessary expense. Itâs necessary that you find out what happened between you and Ollie.â
Facts. For a year now, Iâd told myself the searing, overwhelming pain he left in his wake would dull with time. It hadnât at all. I just got better at pain management. I still lived, operated, existed for the sole purpose of meeting him again someday.
My peptalk worked. Kind of. My hand was just a little shaky when it jabbed the intercom. No answer. I waited for a few minutes before slapping it again, my teeth chattering in the rain.
This would not go down in history as one of my better ideas.
I hadnât even come up with a plan, my backpack only held a few granola bars and a change of clothes, and I didnât know where I would spend the night. It wasnât like heâd open up, suddenly give me the time of day after an entire year and a half without contact, and beg for my forgiveness.
I just ⦠needed to be here. Regardless of how it turned out.
The quiet intercom gave me all the answers Iâd get. I knew it was working, too, because the touch screen flared to life each time I pressed it.
I tried calling his number, though I suspected heâd blocked me sometime early last year. Iâd spent a lot of all-nighters leaving messages informing him how much I hated him for ruining my life.
The call went straight to voicemail, like I knew it would. I typed out a quick text message.
Briar Auer: Itâs Briar. I am outside your gate. Itâs raining. Open up.
It was just Briar now. I omitted the Rose from my name last summer, when Oliver had failed to show up with a blue rose. Iâd hoped that if I took that part of my name off, Iâd stop thinking about him.
Stupid, stupid, stupid.
The rain, which had started as a drizzle when I rented the piece of junk they called a car at the airport, intensified in the span of five seconds. It pounded on my face, body, and backpack. I growled, tipping my head back. Sweet raindrops slid into my mouth. A scream ripped past my lips.
When I straightened my head, I caught a flash of movement behind a glass window on the second floor. Someone was watching me from the shadows.
I held my breath and waited, but the curtain didnât twitch again.
What a coward. What a goddamn wimp.
All the anger Iâd bottled up in the last eighteen months exploded, gushing out of me in the form of an ear-piercing scream that even drowned out the pounding rain.
âOliver.â I fisted the iron bars and shook them. âWhy did you do it? Why did you disappear on me?â
My clothes clung to my body. It was cold, and wet, and miserable. I kept shaking the gate between yells, knowing I looked unhinged, knowing I was unhinged. I didnât deserve this. Especially from him.
I donât know how long I stood there, shaking the gate, demanding to be seen, getting pneumonia, probably. But at some point, maybe an hour after Iâd showed up, two burly men dressed head-to-toe in black suits and matching dress shirts filed out of the main doors.
A bitter laugh shook my spine as they approached me.
âOh, terrific.â I kept my fists around the bars. âHe brought security to usher me out.â
One of them adjusted his earpiece. âYouâre trespassing.â
âNo, Iâm not. Iâm on the other side of the gate.â
âYouâre touching this gate that belongs to Mr. von Bismarck.â He unlocked the gate and stepped forward, a human shield against me.
I backed up on instinct. Both men folded their arms over their chests and glared at me with expressions that screamed, or else.
âNow youâre sending big men to intimidate me?â I yelled past their shoulders, toward that window, knowing I had an audience. That he was listening. âHow the mighty have fallen. Iâm not sure what made you go from the best person I knew to a little bitch, but suffice to say, the transformation is complete.â
I imagined Oliver flinching, even though it was absurd to think he still cared after the past year and a half. But somehow, I knew he did.
âYou ruined my life, you know.â I ignored the burly men and straightened my spine, standing taller, staring at that vacant window. A poisonous chuckle pushed out of my throat. âItâs amazing how I grew up thinking you would be in my epilogue when it turns out youâre nothing but a badly written prologue.â
âMiss.â The other security guard edged closer, not even an inch from me. âTime to go home.â
At least he was gentle about it. Even he, I suspected, knew his boss was a prick.
âIâm going, Iâm going.â I waved a dismissive hand in his face, still laser-focused on that detail. âI just want to say one last thing, because I know heâs listening. You got what you wanted, Oliver. You are officially dead to me. I am never going to forgive you. I am never going to accept your apology, should you issue one. You ruined everything. Congratulations. You became as bad as Seb.â