They ambushed me.
Of course, they did. Respecting my boundaries would require acknowledging they existed, and that would require acknowledging I existed, which they only seemed to do when they wanted something from me.
If they wanted a rise from me, they wouldnât get it. Briar Roseâs knees would buckle. Mine, however, locked right up. I tipped my chin up, staring down at Jason as he rose beside Philomena. While Felix and Agnes had aged with grace, time hadnât been kind to my so-called parents.
Roads of wrinkles formed a weathered map on Jasonâs face. His hair, once dark, streaked with silver. Philomenaâs eyes, cold and calculated as ever, peered out from beneath drooping lids, assessing the proximity between me and Oliver.
âDarling.â Philomena recovered first, marching to me and flinging her arms over my shoulders. âItâs been too long since weâve seen each other.â She reeked of desperation and Chanel No.5, a scent I once craved but could now barely stomach.
âFunny how that works.â I kept my arms at my sides, stepping back from her embrace, careful to keep my voice too low for Ollieâs parents to hear. âWho knew that abandoning a child would mean abandoning a child? Revolutionary, right?â
Philomena accepted my words in stride, returning to her seat with her fake designer purse clutched over her chest like a shield. âItâs so good to see you, Briar Rose.â
Jason patted my shoulder, as if I were an old golf friend. âSweetheart, you look good.â
âHmm. Youâve aged poorly.â I mock-frowned, no longer scared of his ruthless gazes and sharp tongue. âNot getting tangled in legal troubles and bankruptcy does wonders to the skin. You should really try it.â
âSorry, honey.â Agnes von Bismarck rose with the grace of a seasoned royal and hugged me. âWhen the Auers called and said they wanted to surprise you with a mini engagement party, we simply couldnât deny them.â She pulled back to tap the tip of my nose. âYou get more and more beautiful each time I see you, my Love Bug.â
She used to call me that after sheâd heard Oliverâs nickname for me. I would sit in her kitchen as she sorted through art catalogs, teaching me the history of each piece she considered collecting, and wonder if that was what it felt like to be loved by a mother. Like being wrapped in a quiet, unbreakable promise.
Oliver kissed her cheek, his fingers still laced with mine. âAnd what a surprise it is, Mother.â
It dawned on me that, since weâd arrived, he hadnât once let go of me. Like an anchor, keeping me up on my feet. I didnât need it, but I appreciated it all the same. It shocked me that I didnât stutter. Didnât cry, beg, or wallow. Iâd grown up. Iâd found worth in myself and accepted that my parentsâ rejection meant nothing.
Felix trailed behind his wife, engulfing me in a bear hug that required Oliver to reluctantly let me go. âBriar Rose, it is a pleasure to finally meet you again.â
âOh, itâs just Briar now.â Philomena tittered into her champagne flute. âShe changed her name.â
The audacity this woman had to pretend to know things about me. To care. Iâd laugh, but I didnât want Felix and Agnes to think less of me.
I drew back from Felix, studying his face. Whereas his wife remained youthful, her hair yellow as the sun, Felixâs eye sockets had hollowed into two dark craters. His mouth locked into a permanent downturn, like he spent most of his time depressed.
The pieces clicked into place. This man â still grieving the loss of a son alive â no longer belonged in a boardroom. No wonder heâd stepped down as CEO sooner than planned. But with Oliverâs reputation, he couldnât officially retire. Not before Ollie commanded the respect he deserved.
And Oliver, eager to atone for his sin, shouldered all the responsibility himself. The company. Sebastianâs health. It made sense. I didnât like it, but I understood it. Some people carry the weight of their mistakes longer than anyone asks them to.
âBriar.â Felix smiled, almost shyly. âSorry. Iâm out of the loop. Havenât been myself recently.â
âYouâre okay.â I squeezed his arm, glancing between him and Agnes â and only him and Agnes. âIâm so happy to see the two of you again.â
âHoney.â Philomena planted her hand on my shoulder. âWe need to discuss the seating arrangements. Are you thinking something big or small? Probably big. Daddy and I have a lot of friends â¦â
It took everything in my power not to recoil. Not because she rattled me, but because the woman had her acrylic claws wedged deep into my skin. She ushered me away from Agnes and Felix. Ollieâs eyes tracked our movements, narrowing in on where her nails left little dents in my cardigan. I shook my head to let him know Iâd handle this myself.
The second we separated from the group, I jerked my shoulder away from the woman who gave birth to me and crossed my arms.
âMother.â I dripped sarcasm, refusing to play along with her. âNo one said youâd be invited, let alone your friends.â
âPlease, Briar.â Philomena dropped the cheesy act with an obnoxious snort, her voice still low in case anyone entered ear shot. âStop with this charade. Youâre our daughter.â
âYours, maybe. Even that is up for debate.â I stopped in the corridor, just shy of the dining hall. âThough Jason isnât.â
The blood drained from her face. Nearby, a dozen servers fussed over table placements, rearranging fine china, tulips, and candles, oblivious to Philomenaâs impending heart attack.
Agnes, Felix, Oliver, and Jason joined us just then, piling into the room.
âThe starters are almost served.â Agnes claimed the seat at the head of the table, opposite her husband. âPlease join us inside.â
Philomena and I stayed in the hallway, nodding with fake smiles plastered on our faces. We waited for everyone to huddle into the dining room before she returned her attention to me.
âWhat are you talking about?â she hissed, baring her teeth.
âI heard you that night at the ball.â I folded my arms. âYour conversation with Cooper. Jason isnât my dad.â
âHe is in all the ways that matter. He gave you everything. Always treated you as if youâre hisââ
âDid he, though? If this is all heâs capable of as a father, Iâm glad Iâm an only child.â
âWhat is wrong with you?â Tears glazed her eyeballs. She would never let them fall. Ruining her perfect makeup just for me was beneath her. âWe paid your way through life until you turned eighteen.â
âYou dropped me like a hot potato as soon as I celebrated my birthday,â I countered. âAnd not everything is about money. You literally left me in Switzerland and moved away.â
âIt was a reputable school.â
âYou never once called.â
âYes, well, you did enough calling for both of us.â
I shook my head, exasperated. âYou are not invited to the wedding.â
âLetâs not be hasty here.â She raised her hands up in surrender. âWe made a mistake. But weâd like to reconnect. How can we do it?â
âYou canât.â As if Iâd ever let them dip their toes into Oliverâs world â his wealth, his status, his parents. Everything that came with this fake wedding. âBut it would be nice if you told me who Cooper is and where I can find him.â
Not that I would, necessarily. But I liked the idea of having the option.
Philomena rocked back on her heels, gnawing on her inner cheek. âThis is not a conversation for right now.â
I threw my head back and laughed. It mustâve looked like we were sharing a lovely exchange. âYou have no right to decide where and when I speak to you. Iâm not a child anymore. I donât need to ask for permission to broach a subject. Either answer me and Iâll consider inviting you to my wedding, or donât and bear the consequences.â
I was a woman of my word. Sure, Iâd invite her if she fessed up. And place her at a table with Oliverâs accountants, far away from us. Worse still, Iâd pair them with Dallas and Farrow, whom I knew would taunt them to oblivion and back.
Philomena opened her mouth, no doubt armed with a snarky response, but Oliver stuck his head from the dining room.
âSweetheart?â He offered me his palm. âMy father would like to make a toast, and frankly, I miss you too much to share you with the Wicked Witch of the West.â
Philomena gasped but didnât confront him. He was way above her station. She needed to worm her way back into his good graces.
I beamed at my fake fiancé, accepting his hand. âOf course.â
For the first time in my life, I left my mother behind and not vice versa.