âIâm glad I donât share a bathroom with you. You are, and always will be, a shit aim.â Sebastian squinted at the sky, leveling his shotgun at a circular clay disk before taking the shot.
It exploded in the air, floating to the grass like confetti. My temples throbbed from my hangover. If I hadnât seen the texts on my phone when I woke up, I wouldâve believed that Iâd hallucinated finding Briar in my bed. And definitely vowing to make her fall in love with me again.
The booze wore off.
The sentiment didnât.
I still wanted her, but I was too chicken shit to talk to Seb about it.
Weâd decided to go clay shooting in the woods, as if nothing had happened last night. As if he hadnât almost drowned me, and I hadnât dished out some hard truths he refused to swallow.
Thursday, every other week, marked the only time Seb got out of the house during daylight. He knew how important it was to me. Iâd drag him out the backdoor, kicking and screaming, if I had to.
It lined up well. No one would see him. I always made sure of it. My house manager fixed up the schedule so none of the staff would be here, and the security team kept a wider perimeter. Zach and Farrow shared fencing lessons until late into the evening, Romeo would be at work, and Dallas and Luca attended a Mommy-and-Me swim class for babies. Coast crystal clear.
Seb forced me into making it an entire procedure, too. I had to maneuver the eight-seater golf cart into the woods while Sebastian, swathed in dark clothes, laid on the floor of the back bench.
In the end, it was worth it.
I wanted the sun on his skin and the fresh air in his lungs.
The clay pigeon trap spat more orange discs into the air. They swirled round and round across the blue sky.
âIâm a great aim, and you know it.â I adjusted my noise cancelling headphones, aiming at one and missing it by at least three inches.
Sebastian snorted next to me, shaking his head. We both wore classic hunting attire in various shades of shit brown.
âProve it,â he challenged. âYou havenât had one bullâs eye all morning.â
Actually, I hadnât lied.
I could shoot as well as he could â and he never missed.
But this morning, my head wasnât in the game. It was with Briar, back at home. Questions I had no business thinking swarmed my brain: what she was doing, how she was settling in, how I could make her stay.
She still hated me â or at least, she convinced herself she hated me â but I was determined to change that.
Another orange disc flew in the air. Sebâs turn. A clean shot. The disc snapped into two and landed on the ground with a thud. Another disc flew in the air, this time for me.
I missed again.
âAlright. Whatâs going on?â He turned to me. âYou suck, but not this badly. Did you tire yourself out through masturbation? Everyone knows you have to switch hands every now and then. Rookie mistake.â
Hmm ⦠A theory I hadnât considered. Certainly a possibility. Iâd relieved myself after texting with Briar. A few times after that, too. Basically, I hadnât slept all night.
âBriar came back to live here for three more months.â I reloaded the shotgun with shells. âI hope you donât mind.â
âWhy would I mind? I never leave my wing, anyway,â he said flatly. Too quickly. Sebastian always minded. He wouldnât even let our parents see him. âWhat made her come back?â
âProbably the fact that I canceled her lease and sold her car, and she saw an in to try to drive me nuts.â I palmed the back of my neck, still perplexed about it, but not enough to push the subject. I wanted her here. It gave me a weird sense of peace. âI like her, Seb.â
I held my breath, waiting for him to bring up the vow from fifteen years ago.
âSo, win her back.â
I sagged forward, slumping against a tree trunk. âShe doesnât want to be won.â
âThat would make winning her so much sweeter.â
It wasnât that simple, though.
I changed the subject. âHey, have you spoken to Mom and Dad?â
Mom called Sebastian every day. Dad did every week. They sent food and treats. Their dream was to see him escape his wing and go out and about again. It only added to the already debilitating guilt I felt every time I thought about it.
âYeah.â Seb yawned. âMom said sheâll drop off some of her blueberry scones sometime today.â
I didnât know whether to laugh or cry. Blueberry scones were Sebâs favorite. I couldnât remember the last time sheâd made my favorite pastry. My parents maintained that they werenât mad at me for what happened, but their behavior told a different story.
âThatâs nice. Iâm going there next week for dinner. Wanna come?â I elbowed his rib, chuckling. âYou can hide in the trunk of the Escalade. It can probably house three more people.â
It wasnât like my parents hadnât seen Sebastianâs current face. They had. Seb just didnât like it. Mom always ended up crying over her favorite sonâs tainted face, and Dad couldnât maintain eye contact with him. I hated them for that. Hated that they couldnât be strong for him like I was.
Sebastian walked over to one of the clay pigeon traps. âI think Iâll sit this one out.â
âYou sit everything out,â I growled.
âYeah, well.â He squatted down and reloaded it with dozens of clay discs. âCardio sucks, and I love resting.â
My jaw ticked. âYouâre going to have to face the world at some point.â
Seb just laughed. It was almost worse. The way he didnât even acknowledge my statement with words.
âFocus on our game, big brother.â He restarted the clay trap. âAnd shut up.â