The sound of tearing cloth fills the air as buttons fly everywhere, scattering around us.
For a second, just a moment in time, Iâm too stunned to react.
For a second, I stare at him with wild eyes, as if that will make this situation a bit more understandable.
It doesnât.
A second is all it takes for him to yank my jacket and shirt away, leaving me in my bra and uniformâs skirt.
A gust of air envelops my skin, and my heart resurrects back to life as if it had an attack â or rather an arrest.
The clothes fall to the ground with a soft whoosh, thrusting me back to reality.
I cross both arms over my chest â trembling arms, tingling fucking arms all covered in goosebumps and the promise of the unknown.
âWhat the fuck are you doing?â My voice is merely a whisper, not attempting to sound angry.
I should be; deep in my heart, I know I should be, but I canât even muster up the courage to do it. Thereâs something about the way he ripped my clothes thatâs making me weak in the legs; Iâm surprised Iâm able to remain standing.
âMaking the fantasy come true.â He grabs my arms and shoves them both to either side of me.
His force is havoc-wreaking â itâs the type you canât escape even if you try. Itâs the type that shakes my thighs and turns me into that marionette I canât push out of my head. Only this time, itâs the good type. The pleasurable type.
Ronan wraps a hand around my wrists and imprisons them behind my back. My breasts are thrust in his face, praying for attention.
âYou have beautiful tits â did you know that?â He licks his lips like heâs about to dive into a meal as he unclasps the strap of my bra. My breasts spill free with a gentle bounce, and the look in his eyes darkens as if heâs about to devour me.
Own me.
No, no.
This is Ronan â he canât do that.
âStop it.â I choke on the words, my voice so weak itâs pathetic.
âAnother one of your fantasies.â He wraps a finger around a nipple and twists so hard I gasp and moan at the same time. âStop means more, doesnât it, ma belle?â
Oh, God. Why the fuck did I write that? Why the hell does he remember it?
If Iâm sick and heâs attuned to my sickness, what does that make us?
I donât want to think about the answer. Something tells me itâd be a lot worse than the situation Iâve gotten myself into.
âYou knowâ¦â He trails off, twisting my nipple again and making me fidget with the need to keep in the sounds clawing to escape. âThis is the first time Iâve wanted to break someone.â He pauses, pinching again, until the searing pain takes over my entire body and my nerve endings tremble with the need for more. âNo, thatâs a lie. This is the second time. The first was when you knelt in front of me and moaned like a good girl. Youâre not a good girl, but you turn into one when I corner you.â
âRonanâ¦â My voice is choppy, fragmented, and I have no idea what I want to say. His name feels foreign on my lips, newer, maddening.
âDo you want to come, belle?â
I swallow past the thickness in my throat, unable to stop feeling the sensations heâs eliciting in my nipple, the ones going straight to my aching core.
I donât stop to think about the fact that heâs trapping me and blocking any exit I might have.
Perhaps thatâs what I want, isnât it? The lack of damn escape.
This is so fucked up, especially with everything thatâs happened in the past, but I nod slightly.
A week or so ago, I didnât know what it meant to come, but now, I canât stop thinking about it, about him â his hands, his skinâ¦the whole damn thing.
âIâm going to need words,â he muses.
I stare up at him with a pleading look, or thatâs what I hope for anyway; Iâm pretty sure Iâm glaring at him. âDonât make me say it.â
âBut I want to hear it. You have your fantasies, and I have mine.â He pinches again and I collapse against his chest, biting my lip. âThe words, Teal, or I can continue doing this all day. Iâll edge you close but never give you release.â
He can do that?
I peek at him, testing to see if heâs for real or playing with me. Judging by the dip in his brows, he seems dead serious.
âJust do it.â
He crushes my nipple between his thumb and forefinger. I cry out as the pain takes over me.
I wish it was only the pain, but no, the pain brings something else â something that ends with arousal between my shaking thighs.
âThatâs not the tone. Say it right.â
âM-Make meâ¦â
âWhat?â
âCome,â I breathe the word. âMake me come.â
The word is barely out of my mouth when he pushes me back. I yelp as I fall against the bed. The shock of it leaves me speechless, unable to utter a word.
âManhandled.â He raises an eyebrow. âRemember that in your pretty little list?â
âScrew you.â I stare at the wall, at his stupid football uniform peeking out of the closet â basically anywhere but at him.
I try to remind myself that those fantasies werenât supposed to happen with him. They were meant for my very older and experienced men.
Besides, they were just that â fantasies. Aside from the club, I never thought I would experience them, especially not with someone who doesnât fit any of my criteria.
How come he was completely off my radar and now heâs the only one on it? How come I see his face when I close my eyes at night and even dream about him?
I never dream about men. I only have nightmares about monsters â or rather one monster in particular.
âDo you realise how beautiful you look right now, belle? Youâre all splayed out and ready for the taking.â
My cheeks heat, but itâs not out of embarrassment about my position.
He called me beautiful.
He thinks Iâm beautiful.
Why the hell is my heart skipping a beat for that? I donât want Ronan to think Iâm beautiful. I couldnât care less about it.
â¦right?
He kneels in front of the bed and parts my legs. I gasp as my skirt rides up to my waist, exposing my cotton underwear.
âOh, look at that.â He runs his middle finger through my folds over the cloth. I try to clench my thighs, but he slaps them apart, making me yelp.
âYouâre wet and soaked and ready for some fucking.â
âStop saying things like that,â I murmur.
âLike what?â He teases my entrance through the cloth and I arch my back. âLike how hard Iâm going to fuck you until everyone hears you beg for more? How loud Iâm going to make you scream as you come?â
If my cheeks were red before, they mustâve turned to crimson by now. Never in my life did I think I would be brought to the edge this brutally or that I would be so turned on by dirty talk.
Ronan hooks his fingers in either side of my underwear and slips them down in one go.
âKeep your hands on the sheet.â He speaks so commandingly it causes a tremor to shoot down my spine. âIf you donât, Iâll stop.â
Before I can ask what heâll stop, his face disappears between my legs and he swipes his tongue from my clit down. My back arches off the bed at the mere contact.
âJesus fucking Christ,â I pant.
âNot him.â He emerges, licking his lips like a lion about to start his meal. âMe.â
And then heâs back to lapping against my folds fast and hard. As if that isnât enough to drive me insane, his tongue thrusts in and out of my opening suggestively, fucking me, devouring me.
âYouâre so delicious, belle. I could eat you all day long.â
A thousand shivers explode on my spine. I reach for his hair, needing the contact, needing to torment him as much as heâs owning me. Iâm close, so close to that wave I felt when he was torturing my nipples at the club.
The wave only he can bring.
No orgasm Iâve brought to myself has been as satisfying as that time â not even when I picture him doing it.
The moment I grab a handful of his hair, his tongue leaves my folds.
I whimper at the loss of contact. âW-What? Whyâ¦?â
I canât even speak like a normal human being.
âTold you Iâll stop if you donât keep your hands on the sheets.â
I let go of his mane of hair and slam my hands back on either side of me, panting as if Iâve been running up a hill. âIâll be good.â
His eyes darken with indecipherable emotions. Itâs like the rich brown wants to become black, potent, and wild with fury.
I might not understand the emotion behind the change, but I know something tickled him in some way.
âRepeat that.â He speaks low against my core, and I feel the vibrations on my sensitive skin.
âI-Iâll be good,â I whisper.
Thatâs all it takes.
He curls his tongue against my hypersensitive clit, and itâs like he never stopped.
Itâs like heâs able to throw me over the edge without even trying. Itâs my fantasy, and yet heâs smashing it, ruining it, moulding it so itâs almost his, not mine.
And in some way, itâs even better than my original one.
My back snaps upright as he wrenches a strong orgasm from me. Tiny shivers crawl up my spine then explode all over my skin. Itâs not my first orgasm, but it feels like it is; itâs stronger and owns me whole.
Just like the one who brought it out of me.
I hide my face in the pillow to erase the sound. It comes out like a muffled shriek, something youâd hear in dark alleys late at night.
Iâm still riding my orgasm when a sharp slap hits my pussy. I shriek, my eyes fluttering open. I stare, incredulous, as Ronanâs face emerges from between my legs.
âWhyâ¦why did you do that?â I pant through my pain mixed with agonising pleasure.
âDonât hide your screams again or it wonât just be my palm against your cunt. Letâs try again, and this time, scream.â
He yanks my legs apart, stretching me wide before his lips go back to my swollen clit. He doesnât even bother with taking it slow. It could be because Iâve never been so turned on in my life, or it could be because of his maddeningly fast pace.
It could be both.
This time, the wave hits me harder and much quicker.
I scream, my head rolling back and my eyes fluttering closed. âRonanâ¦oh, Ronanâ¦â
âThatâs right. Me.â He nips on my tortured clit. âJust me.â
I writhe on the bed, my nails digging into the sheet, unable to keep quiet or still. Heâs turning me into someone even I donât recognise.
âRonanâ¦â
âWhat do you want, belle?â He speaks against me, the vibration of his voice turning me delirious. âMaybe youâll get inspiration after another orgasm.â He licks me from the top to the bottom of my slit, and I shiver. âI still canât get my fill of you.â
âI-Iâmâ¦Iâmâ¦â
âWhat?â
âS-sore.â
âSo?â He emerges from between my legs and suggestively licks his lips.
The fact that heâs licking me off him should be repulsive, but it isnât.
Shit, why isnât it?
âYou know, it should stop me. It did in the past. I donât make girls sore â I make fucking love to them, but not with you, belle. I want to fuck you like a dirty little whore.â
The words should offend me, but theyâre making me wet. Why do I love the sound of that on his lips.
âYou like being mine to use.â He grips my thigh tighter. âDonât you?â
He climbs on top of me, flicking my tormented nipple on the way before he grabs me, pulls me up so Iâm sitting up halfway, and slams his lips to mine.
Unlike the other time, he doesnât stop to take it slow. He invades me, conquers me, and most of all, he tastes of me: slightly sweet, a lot dirty.
I never kissed before. I liked to get it over with, and kissing got in the way of that. Any form of intimacy did.
The fact that I canât get enough of Ronanâs kiss should be alarming â and it is. I just canât seem to get enough.
Thereâs not enough kissing, not enough touching.
Thereâs simply not enough.
Iâm starved for more.
So much more.
âYou taste like fucking sin.â He breathes against me. âBut do you know what will taste better?â
I shake my head, barely able to focus.
âMy cum down your throat.â