Iâve never been more stunned than as I am at this moment.
The scene happens in slow motion, yet itâs so fast that I canât keep up.
Itâs like staring at the world through blurry lenses while riding a roller coaster.
Landon grunt, groans, then rolls onto his back, sporting a bloodied lip and a red jaw. However, he has the happiest, most genuine grin Iâve ever seen.
âHi, mouse. Miss me?â
Mia continues glaring at him, and it looks anything but menacing, in view of her poufy dress, the ribbons intertwined in her hair like snakes, and her generally regal presence.
However, her kick was definitely painful considering the echoing sound. She flips him off and signs something to Jeremy. I donât understand what sheâs saying, but thereâs a lot of energy behind it.
Mia strikes me as the type of person who simply canât be defined by her disability, fashion sense, or spiky personality. Itâs like she flows and flows, unable to put a halt to the flood of whatâs inside her.
While she talks to the man whoâs grabbing me from behind, a violent chill covers my skin as I glance back.
Iâve seen Jeremy exactly two times since he cruelly and indefinitely removed me from his life. Once when I drove by the cottage and saw him going inside.
The other time was when I allowed Ava to drag me to the fight club and watched him nearly be beaten to death by Killian.
It was one of those off-championship fights that happens every night, and it looked like he had a death wish.
I left before the fight was over.
Now, I regret looking at him, because nothing couldâve prepared me for being this close to him.
In a way, he hasnât changed. He still has sharp, masculine features that drip with savage intensity and the build of a warlord who gets off on conquering lands and people.
His broad shoulders eat up the horizon, filling my vision with the dazzling strength of his presence.
The black T-shirt tightens around his biceps, and the tattoos ripple with each flex of his muscles. As if, like him, theyâre on the edge.
My gaze flicks to where heâs touching me. My elbow.
Thatâs what he always grabs when he wants to put distance between us, when he treats me like nothing more than the object of his dirty fucks.
In fact, heâs only held my hand about twice.
The place where his flesh meets mine burns, flares, and gains a life of its own. And that has less to do with how his fingers dig into my skin and more to do with the fact that heâs touching me.
Those ash, cold-blooded eyes that should be mass-produced as weapons are concentrated on Miaâs signing. Not once has he looked at me or acknowledged me, but the weight of their attention can be felt through the absence of it.
Mia has finished signing and is now waiting for Jeremyâs reply with a hand on her hip.
âHeâs all yours,â he tells her, obviously having understood her.
âOh?â Landon jumps up to a standing position and straps his mask around his neck, appearing as cool as ever, short of the bruising and blood. âIâm going have to decline whatever deal you two have.â
He grabs my other hand. âCecy and I have a date.â
But before I can say that, merciless fingers dig further into the flesh surrounding my elbow and I wince.
âThe only date youâll have is for a funeral.â Jeremy tugs hard, wrenching me from Landon, or more like, my childhood friend lets go at the last second.
âNecrophilia. Yum.â He grins with a suggestive lick of his lips. Mia lifts her leg to kick his crotch again, but he blocks her with a hand on her head, effectively immobilizing her in place. âJesus fucking Christ, calm down, and stop acting like a rabid dog.â
That only makes her want to grab at him more as she struggles, punches, and kicksâmostly the air.
Lan effortlessly escapes her attempts at violence and stares at Jeremy with his provocative smile. âLet go of Cecily.â
âNo.â
I pull my elbow free. âYou have no right to touch me.â
He finally slides his gaze to me in the form of a glare. I glare right back.
Why does he get to act this way when heâs the one who ended us?
âWhat she said.â Lan tsks and shakes his head while Mia continues to struggle and exert herself for nothing. âHow does it feel to be the second choice to me? In fact, you wouldnât have even been on her list if you hadnât stalked her.â
Jeremy strides over to him, but I jump between them. I know precisely what Landon is doing by making him jealous. He wants Jeremy to be with me again, but I wonât stand by and watch him claim ownership he doesnât have.
I stare at Jeremy, even as my heart beats in my throat. âStop it.â
âStep away.â
âI said, stop it.â
âAnd I said to step the fuck away.â
My whole body shivers at the lash of his words. I havenât heard the gruff timbre of his voice for so long, and now that I do, itâs fills me with a myriad of chaotic colors and twisted emotions.
âWeâre out of here.â Lan is dragging a struggling and obviously angry Mia out of the storeroom. âRemember, Ces. You loved me first.â
I can sense the destructive energy in Jeremy before he acts on it. If heâs stroking his fingers, that stops. And he usually stops breathing for one fraction of a second before he chooses violence.
Despite being scared shitless of this part of him, I donât think about it as I block his path again.
Jeremy slams into me, my head bumps into his chest, and he steps on my foot, but he swiftly pulls back and actually stops.
That destructive energy that Iâm sure is always thirsty for blood slowly lulls, tucking itself beneath the surface of his apparent calm.
He flexes his palm and remains still, probably realizing that Landon is already out of reach.
When he speaks, his voice shimmers with thick tension and unveiled anger. âAre you hurt?â
I touch my forehead as if that will somehow camouflage the trembling in my chin. Why does he have to ask that when he was the one who ripped my heart open.
âNo thanks to you.â
His hand reaches for me, and I go still for a second, waiting, imagining the impact of his flesh on mine.
He drops it back down as another presence appears at the doorway. Zayn. My colleague whoâs also been volunteering at the shelter.
âI heard a commotion. Is everything okay?â he asks in a careful tone.
Jeremyâs savage attention slides to him and I can see that unbounded violent energy rearing its head. If I donât defuse this situation, heâll probably use poor Zayn as a punching bag and brutalize him. After all, heâs still on a high from the whole Landon encounter.
âItâs all good, Zayn,â I say calmly.
His gaze flits between me and Jeremy, a frown etched between his brows. âAre you sureââ
âFuck off.â Jeremyâs lethal tone booms around us.
Zayn straightens and I nod with an awkward smile in a desperate attempt to defuse the situation.
âLet me know if you need anything,â my colleague says, then swiftly disappears out of sight.
I donât blame him. No one wants to be in Jeremyâs orbit, especially when heâs enraged.
His harsh eyes fall back on me. âAnd who the fuck was that?â
âNone of your business.â
âCecilyâ¦donât piss me off any further.â
âThat statement should be directed at ! Why are you bothering me?â
âWhy the fuck are you always in my way?â
âWhy are you?â
âYouâre fucking infuriating.â
âAnd youâre like a wild animal.â
âYou didnât seem to mind when I fucked you like an animal. In fact, you screamed and begged to be taken like my filthy little whore. But now that my mark has vanished from your flesh, you think you can let another man touch you?â
My starved body heats, but I force myself to remain calm. âWhether I let another man touch me, fuck me, take me like a filthy whore, or dirty me all up is none of your damn business. In fact, I might be tempted to take Lan up on his offer of taking me on a tour through the sex club.â
I wonât, and I really donât know whatâs come over me to speak like that, but I want revenge.
I want to hurt him for all the time heâs left me hanging.
He made me addicted to him and then forced me into the worst withdrawal.
And the best way to piss off a possessive man like Jeremy? Bring up other men. Especially Landon. He clearly has a beef with him.
âWhat did you just say?â he asks slowly, menacingly, and with enough tension to crumble a mountain.
âI said Iâll go to the club with Lan. Experiment a little and see what other men feel like. Iâm sure they donât all come with so much drama.â
One moment Iâm standing there, and the next, heâs slamming me against the nearest wall with a tight grip on my neck.
The breath is knocked from my lungs for an entirely different reason.
Iâm in a position where Iâm overwhelmed by Jeremyâs power until itâs the only thing I inhale.
Until itâs the only beat thatâs seeping into my lungs âThat was a rhetorical question, Cecily. Youâre not supposed to fucking answer.â
My glare meets his fierce eyes.
I want to provoke him, anger him. I want him to feel an ounce of the pain heâs exerted on me.
âWhy?â I strain. âYou donât like to imagine another man peeling my clothes off and sinking inside me while I moan for him?â
âStop.â
âIâll beg him to go faster, harder. Iâll say his name, too. Actually, Iâll it.â
âShut the fuck up.â He pulls me forward by his grip on my neck, then slams me back again. âYou donât seem to understand this, so let me clarify it for you. Any dick that comes near you will be cut off and youâll bathe in its blood. I might have given you space, but I still own your ass. And cunt. And mouth. Everything about you belongs to me.
belong to me. But if youâre in the mood to test that, by all means, do. I will maim as many motherfuckers in front of you as you wish until you have your fill.â
He means it.
I know he does.
Jeremy has never made a promise and not kept it.
And this helplessness, the feeling of being too caught in his web while he only has a sense of ownership over me makes me feel like a trapped animal.
âIs that why you sent those guys to the hospital, shipped my professor to another country, and even dealt with Jonah? Because Iâm yours? An extension of your stupid ego and a projection of your twisted desires?â
âI did all that because no one gets to hurt you.â
âOnly can?â
He tightens his grip. âOnly I can.â
My eyes burn, but I refuse to let the tears loose. I refuse to show him just how much of an effect his words have on me.
âWhat do you want from me, Jeremy? You already let me go.â
âBut you didnât go.â
âHuh?â
He releases me, but only after he strokes the spot where his fingers pressed.
âAnnika disappeared.â
My chest constricts, more about the topic than the abrupt subject change.
âWhat?â
He gives me a side-eye that could bring the devil to his knees. âDonât fuck with me, Cecily. You were the last person she saw after your impromptu visit to New York. At first, I wanted to believe the two incidents were unrelated, but it turns out, you went on a private jet and returned on a commercial flight. Which means my sister left with your companion on that private jet. You all but shot yourself in the foot when you had Glyndon slip me that note today. Because A, Killian nearly killed me for it, thinking she was passing me notes; and B, sheâs a shit spy and confessed everything when Kill started turning into an insufferable being. My question is, why would you let me know that?â
I shouldâve considered Glynâs personality and her tight bond with Killian.
Releasing a sigh, I tell him the truth. âI didnât want you or your parents worried or thinking she ran away or something.â
âWhy do you not want us worried?â
âUnlike what you said about me, Iâm not heartless. I donât want to hurt anyone.â
âI wouldnât be so sure about that.â A somber shadow covers his face before he tucks it away and asks in a colder tone, âWhere is she? Where did he take her?â
I shake my head. âI donât know.â
âYou donât know or you donât want to say?â
âI really donât.â But I have a hunch. Thereâs only one faraway place where Creighton could remain off everyoneâs radar and use his grandfatherâs jet for it.
âYouâre a terrible liar, Cecily. You never look me in the eye when you tell a lie.â
My gaze snaps to his when I realize Iâve been staring at my feet.
Instead of anger or blame, I find dejection. Disappointment, maybe.
And I donât know why that tugs on my heartstrings until they bleed and overflow in my chest.
âI thought you didnât want to hurt anyone,â he says with masked anger. âDo you have any idea how much this is hurting my parents? My mother thinks Annika did something to herself.â
âYouâ¦can set their minds at ease.â
âThat will only happen if they see her again.â
âI canât. If I do, you or your dad will hurt Creigh.â
âThat ââ He stops and inhales deeply. âThat slimy fucker has dug his own grave. Donât make it deeper.â
âThatâs not very encouraging.â I grab his hand thatâs balled in a fist. Itâs the first time Iâve done it, despite wanting to for a long time.
I slowly peel it open, and only after some tension leaves his body do I speak softly. âI know you think badly of Creigh because of what heâs done, and I understand that. I understand that Anni is your only sibling and someone you consider to be under your protection. You love her, and have cared for her since she was born, so you feel the need to shield her whenever someone comes close, but you need to understand that sheâs old enough to make her own decisions now. You also need to understand that Creigh and I were raised together. Heâs like my brother, and I also feel the need to protect him.â
âDo you share a parent?â
âUh, no?â
âThen heâs not your fucking brother.â He purses his lips. âIâm asking you nicely for the last time, Cecily. Where did he take her?â
I shake my head.
âVery well. You leave me no choice but to use the not-so-nice way.â
I shriek as he picks me up and carries me in his arms.