Shi Ning received the news that her grandmother was seriously ill in the hospital during a language class.
She remembered that the teacher was talking about a literary text, and she was making annotations in her book when the class teacher suddenly walked into the classroom and interrupted the language teacher.
âMr. Li, excuse me, I need to see a student in my class.â
The language teacher nodded.
Lao Liu beckoned to Shi Ning.
âShi Ning, you come out with me.â
Shi Ning put down the pen in her hand and went out of the classroom.
It was the first time she had seen Lao Liuâs face so grave, so she asked tentatively.
âTeacher, whatâs wrong?â
Lao Liu patted her on the shoulder and sighed.
âJust now your family called the office. Your grandmother had a heart attack this afternoon and is now being rescued in the hospital. The situation should be very serious. Your family asked you to go back and have a look.â
Shi Ning ran as fast as she could and stopped the car, got out, and raced to the hospital.
Outside the operating room, Shi Pingzhan and Lin Xuemuo were already waiting outside the operating room. Shi Ning walked up to her parents and asked in a trembling voice.
âGrandma, how is she?â
âThe surgery has been going on for more than two hours, and the doctor has just given two critical notices.â
Her father who has always been calm and collected in whatever situations has now a trembling voice as he said these.
The closed door of the operating room was lit up with the words âin surgeryâ in bright red.
A door that hinders patients and relatives.
There was nothing they could do but stand outside the gate and wait anxiously.
Shi Ning saw his fatherâs reddened eyes, hanging head as he covered his face with his hands, teardrops fell between his fingers while her mother paced around back and forth praying to heaven with her hands folded.
âBodhisattva bless, Bodhisattva bless.â
At this time, in addition to putting all their hopes on the doctors in the operating room, they could only believe in ghosts and gods.
The operation took a long time and their family waited outside the ward for five hours.
During these few hours, Shi Ning wanted to rush in countless times but also knew she mustnât and she couldnât.
All she could do was wait outside and pray for her grandmother.
At eight oâclock in the evening, the door of the operating room opened. Shi Ning and her family rushed up. Shi Pingzhan grabbed the doctorâs scrubs and asked with red eyes.
âHowâs it going? My mother, is she okay?â
The doctor who was used to seeing life and death would always still feel sorry and sad seeing the moment he sees the family and tell them the unfortunate news.
âIâm sorry, we tried our best.â
âThe surgery was not unsuccessful, the patient has not regained consciousness yet and could â¦â¦ be at any time.â
The doctor didnât point out the rest, but the meaning was clear.
This person, they could no longer be saved. She was only hanging on to one breath and may go at any time.
The doctor patted the back of Shi Pingzhanâs hand.
âThereâs not much time left. Please say goodbye to the patient.â
âHow long does my mother have?â Shi Pingzhan asked.
Doctor: âWe donât necessarily know but short if less than three days, long if it may be a month.â
A six-foot-tall man was momentarily unsteady on his feet, the doctor helped him to sit on a bench outside the operating room with a compassionate gaze.
âIâm sorry and condolence.â
When the grandmother was pushed out, the old womanâs face was bloodless but extraordinarily peaceful.
This scene was familiar, in her last life, she was also in the hospital when her grandmother died suddenly because of heart disease, and even after resuscitation she still died.
Why do people die?
When death comes to human beings, was there nothing they could do except grit their teeth and accept the pain that they cannot bear?
Shi Ning quietly looked at her grandmother in the hospital bed, and when she saw that there was still fog on the oxygen mask, Shi Ning rushed to the doctor.
âDoctor, my grandmother is not dead yet, sheâs still alive, look, sheâs still breathing, she can still be saved. Arenât you doctors, arenât you doctors the ones who save peopleâs lives? How can you guys let her, let her wait to die.â
âWaiting for deathâ these two words came out from Shi Ningâs shaking lips as her emotions were finally taut and cried out.
The doctor let her vent and handed her a tissue.
âThere are times when doctors canât do anything, little girl, so mourn.â
Shi Ning cried and shook her head.
âThen you canât let my grandmother die like this without doing anything. You can do something, even if there is only a glimmer of hope, try it.â
This time the doctor shook his head.
âLittle girl, the patientâs condition is naturally clearer to us as doctors than to you. With your grandmotherâs current condition, there is only one possibility if further surgery is performed.â
âDying on the operating table.â
That night, Shi Ning stayed up all night, squatting in front of her grandmotherâs ward guarding it.
The next day, she had to go to school.
Perhaps because Old Madam Shi was old and has been in poor health in recent years, the adults were prepared for this result today.
Shi Ning saw her father kneeling in front of her grandmotherâs bed and crying all night, but today he has been able to comfort her in turn.
âNing Ning, itâs not a good idea for you to keep watch here, why donât you just go back to school, you still have to attend classes.â
âMom and Dad will be here.â
Shi Ning smiled bitterly.
âGrandma in this situation, how can I still have the heart to attend classes.â
âOr you can go home and get some sleep.â Shi Pingzhan said.
âI canât sleep.â
She was afraid that if she slept, she wouldnât see her grandmother one last time.
âThen go to school, your grandmother hasnât left yet, thereâs me and your mother here, and the doctor. You go to school first, and daddy will let you know if anything happens.â
In the end, Shi Ning was driven to school by her father.
Shi Ning knew that her father didnât want her to keep dwelling on that sad atmosphere, so he forced her to come to school.
But even when she arrived at school, all she could think about was the hospital, the ward, and her grandmother.