You know it won't be always rainbows and sunshine when you start to date somebody.
I believed we were the exception. Rookie mistake. Let me start from the beginning.
It was going very well with me cooking breakfast and dinner and us taking turns to stay at each other's houses.
We had fallen into a perfect routine. He came up with creative nickname for me everyday and I struggled with coming up with anything other than the obvious 'angel'. He didn't seem to mind.
But lately Dean have been busy with some works the details of which he didn't want to bore me with. His words, not mine.
As I got used to the attention, I craved it when I got it so little. I was alone before I met him but that guy ruined me with all his nicknames.
Still, I decided to give him some space and didn't want to sound like a clingy boyfriend desperate for attention even when I was one.
So that day, I was leaving town for a week for a seminar and I asked Dean to drive me to the airport in the morning.
He said he had a small work but he still came and dropped me at the airport. When I was away, he barely texted me. He didn't call at all.
I complained to Rose but she asked me if I trusted Dean and the answer was "always". So she asked me specifically not to over-think and complicate the situation.
You know what is my kryptonite? Doing exactly what I am told not to do.
So I went ahead and created all these possible scenarios in my head and became anxious to return home.
Once I reached home, I called Dean and asked him to come to my house. He came and he looked a lot tired and disheveled and not in a sexy way.
In all the time we dated, I have never seen him like that and I started to panic. Was he dying? I don't think so. He had angel grace, right?
"Are you ok, Dean? You look, uh, tired".
"Baby, sit down. I want to tell you something".
I started freaking out. "What is it? Are you dying? Are we breaking up? Did you meet someone else?"
"Alex, calm down. I am not dying. It's nothing like that. Listen to me. I am not leaving you. Not now. Not ever. Do you understand?"
I nodded, feeling a bit ashamed of my outburst.
"That day, when I drove you to the airport, I had to make sure someone was safe, you know, as a part of my job". I nodded again, encouraging him to continue. He held my hands.
"But I left them for some time to drive you to the airport. I asked my friend to take over for sometime but he had another emergency and I didn't pick his call because I was driving. That person had a minor accident and my father was not happy. So I couldn't talk to you properly. At least not over the text. I'm sorry, baby".
I was not prepared for this. "Oh God! I am really sorry. I shouldn't have asked you to drive me. I behaved like a clingy boyfriend when you had some important work".
"What? No, baby. Don't blame yourself. You have every right to act however you want. I should have been more careful. Don't worry. It was nothing serious and father understands me".
"What if it was serious? Did you get punished? Did your father scold you?"
"No, baby. He was a bit disappointed. But these things happen. We can not protect everyone 24/7. Right? Anyway, I told my father that I was quitting".
"You told what? Dean, don't tell me it was because of me".
"I want to spend time with you, baby. And take care of you properly. Don't worry. Father is ok with my decision".
Then I let my stupid over-thinking brain take over.
"Stop, Dean. You are making a mistake and I wouldn't allow it. I know how much important your job is to you. I can not let you give up on your dream. How long have you known me? 6 months? Your dream have been with you longer than that. I don't want to stand in your way. Let's break up. It's easy to do it now rather than later regretting it".
"What? Baby, calm down. You don't mean that, do you?"
"Yes, Dean. God! Stop treating me like I am a kid. I can make decisions and I don't want to be with you anymore. Do you understand?"
When I saw his face, I wanted to apologize and kiss him to make it all feel better. But I couldn't. I shouldn't. He might be able to give up his job now but he will later regret it. That's how life works.
"Baby, hear me out. Please don't do this".
"No, Dean. I am serious. Please leave, now". I was afraid if I let him stay few more seconds, my resolve would crumble.
He stood up and left without any words. He was such a gentleman at the very end too. He was right. I was the baby as I was always acting like one.
A/N: I knew Alex would want to be a hero and do the sacrifices. Ugh. Can't believe it. Haven't I taught you enough about communication?
And what was Dean thinking by leaving like that? Everyone wants to be a hero. Sigh.
What do you think would happen? Will they clear it up? Who do you will reach out first?
Anyway, here's something for YOU to think about.