Six weeks before the ceremony
She shows up at the start-up where I work on an early Thursday evening, when the sun has already set and the entire bullpen is contemplating grievous bodily harm.
Against me.
I doubt I deserve this level of hatred, but I do understand it. And thatâs why I donât make a fuss when I return to my desk following a brief meeting with my manager and notice the state of my stapler. Honestly, itâs fine. I work from home 90 percent of the time and rarely print anything. Who cares if someone smeared bird shit on it?
âDonât take it personally, Missy.â Pierce leans against our cubicle divider. His smile is less concerned friend, more smarmy used car salesman; even his blood smells oily.
âI wonât.â Other peopleâs approval is a powerful drug. Lucky me, I never got the chance to develop an addiction. If thereâs something Iâm good at, itâs rationalizing my peersâ contempt toward me. Iâve been training like piano prodigies: tirelessly and since early childhood.
âNo need to sweat it.â
âIâm not.â Literally. I barely own the necessary glands.
âAnd donât listen to Walker. He didnât say what you think he did.â
Pretty sure it was ânasty bitchâ and not âtasty peachâ that he yelled across the conference room, but who knows?
âIt comes with the territory. Youâd be mad, too, if someone did a penetration test against a firewall youâve been working on for weeks and breached it in what, one hour?â
It was maybe a third of that, even counting the break I took in the middle after realizing how quickly I was blowing through the system. I spent it online shopping for a new hamper, since Serenaâs damn cat seems to be asleep in my old one whenever I need to do laundry. I texted her a picture of the receipt, followed by You and your cat owe me sixteen dollars. Then I sat and waited for a reply, like I always do.
It didnât come. Nor had I expected it would.
âPeople will get over it,â he Pierces on. âAnd hey, you never bring lunch, so no need to worry someoneâll spit in your Tupperware.â He bursts into laughter. I turn to my computer monitor, hoping heâll peace out. Boy, am I wrong. âAnd to be honest, itâs kind of on you. If you tried to mingle more . . . Personally, I get your loner, mysterious, quiet vibe. But some read you as aloof, like you think youâre better than us. If you made an effort toââ
âMisery.â
When I hear my name calledâthe real oneâfor a split, exceptionally dumb second, I experience relief that this conversation is going to be over. Then I crane my neck and notice the woman standing on the other side of the divider. Her face is distantly familiar, and so is the black hair, but itâs not until I focus on her heartbeat that I manage to place her. Itâs slow like only a Vampyreâs can be, and . . .
Well.
Shit.
âVania?â
âYouâre hard to find,â she tells me, voice melodic and low. I briefly contemplate slamming my head against the keyboard. Then settle for replying calmly:
âThatâs by design.â
âI figured.â
I massage my temple. What a day. What a fucking day. âAnd yet, here you are.â
âAnd yet, here I am.â
âWhy, hello.â Pierceâs smile gets a notch slimier as he turns to leer at Vania. His eyes start at her high heels, travel up the straight lines of her dark pantsuit, stop on her full breasts. I donât read minds, but heâs thinking MILF so hard, I can practically hear it. âAre you a friend of Missyâs?â
âYou could say that, yes. Since she was a child.â
âOh my God. Do tell, how was baby Missy?â
The corner of Vaniaâs lips twitches. âShe was . . . odd, and difficult. If often useful.â
âWaitâare you two related?â
âNo. Iâm her fatherâs Right Hand, Head of his Guard,â she says, looking at me. âAnd she has been summoned.â
I straighten in my chair. âWhere?â
âThe Nest.â
This is not rareâitâs unprecedented. Excluding sporadic phone calls and even more sporadic meetings with Owen, I havenât spoken with another Vampyre in years. Because no one has reached out.
I should tell Vania to fuck off. Iâm no longer a child stuck on a foolâs errand: going back to my father with any expectations that he and the rest of my people wonât be total assholes is an exercise in futility, and Iâm well aware of it. But apparently this half-assed overture is making me forget, because I hear myself asking, âWhy?â
âYouâll have to come and find out.â Vaniaâs smile doesnât reach her eyes. I squint, like the answer is tattooed on her face. Meanwhile, Pierce reminds us of his unfortunate existence.
âLadies. Right hand? Summon?â He laughs, loud and grating. I want to flick his forehead and make him hurt, but Iâm starting to feel a frisson of worry for this fool. âAre you guys into LARPing or . . .â
He finally shuts up. Because when Vania turns to him, no trick of the light could hide the purple hue of her eyes. Nor her long, perfectly white fangs, gleaming under the electric lights.
âY-you . . .â Pierce looks between us for several seconds, muttering something incoherent.
And thatâs when Vania decides to ruin my life and snap her teeth at him.
I sigh, pinching the bridge of my nose.
Pierce spins on his heels and sprints past my cubicle, running over a potted benjamin fig. âVampyre! Vampyreâthereâs aâ A Vampyre is attacking us, someone call the Bureau, someone call theââ
Vania takes out a laminated card with the Human-Vampyre Relations Bureau logo, one that grants her diplomatic immunity in Human territory. But thereâs no one to look at it: the bullpen has erupted into a small panic, and most of my coworkers are screaming, already halfway down the emergency stairs. People trample each other to get to the nearest exit. I see Walker dart out of the bathroom, a strip of toilet paper dangling from his khakis, and feel my shoulders slump.
âI liked this job,â I tell Vania, grabbing the framed Polaroid of me and Serena and resignedly stuffing it into my bag. âIt was easy. They bought my circadian rhythm disorder excuse and let me come in at night.â
âMy apologies,â she says. Unapologetic. âCome with me.â
I should tell her to fuck off, and I will. In the meantime, I give in to my curiosity and follow her, straightening the poor benjamin fig on my way out.
The Nest is still the tallest building in the north of The City, and perhaps the most distinctive: a bloodred podium that stretches underground for hundreds of feet, topped by a mirror skyscraper that comes alive around sunset and slides back to sleep in the early hours of the morning.
I brought Serena here once, when she asked to see what the heart of the Vampyre territory was like, and she stared open-mouthed, jarred by the sleek lines and ultramodern design. Sheâd been expecting candelabras, and heavy velvet drapes to block the murderous sun, and the corpses of our enemies hanging from the ceiling, blood milked from their veins to the very last drop. Bat artwork, in honor of our winged, chiropterous forefathers. Coffins, just because.
âItâs nice. I just thought itâd be more . . . metal?â she mused, not at all intimidated at the idea of being the only Human in an elevator full of Vampyres. The memory still makes me smile years later.
Flexible spaces, automated systems, integrated toolsâthatâs what the Nest is. Not just the crown jewel of our territory, but also the center of our community. A place for shops and offices and errands, where anything one of us could need, from nonurgent healthcare to a zoning permit to five liters of AB positive, can be easily obtained. And then, in the uppermost floors, the builders made room for some private quarters, some of which have been purchased by the most influential families in our society.
Mostly my family.
âFollow me,â Vania says when the doors swish open, and I do, flanked by two uniformed council guards who are most definitely not here to protect me. A bit offensive, that Iâm being treated like an intruder in the place where I was born, especially as we walk parallel to a wall thatâs plastered with portraits of my ancestors. They morph over the centuries, from oils to acrylics to photographs, gray to Kodachrome to digital. What stays the same are the expressions: distant, arrogant, and frankly, unhappy. Not a healthy thing, power.
The only Lark I recognize from personal experience is the one closest to Fatherâs office. My grandfather was already old and a little demented by the time Owen and I were born, and my most vivid memory of him is from that one time I woke up in the middle of the night to find him in my bedroom, pointing at me with trembling hands and yelling in the Tongue, something about me being destined for a grisly death.
In fairness, he wasnât wrong.
âIn here,â Vania says with a soft knock to the door. âThe councilman is waiting for you.â
I scan her face. Vampyres are not immortal; we grow old the same as every other species, but . . . damn. She looks like she hasnât aged a day since she escorted me to the Collateral exchange ceremony. Seventeen years ago.
âIs there something you need?â
âNo.â I turn and reach for the doorknob. Hesitate. âIs he sick?â
Vania seems amused. âYou think heâd call you here for that?â
I shrug. I canât think of a single other reason heâd want to see me.
âFor what? To commiserate? Or find solace in your filial affection? You have been among the Humans far too long.â
âI was thinking more along the lines of him needing a kidney.â
âWe are Vampyres, Misery. We act for the good of the most, or not at all.â
Sheâs gone before I can roll my eyes, or serve her that âfuck offâ Iâve been meaning to. I sigh, glance at the stone-faced guards she left behind, and then walk into my fatherâs office.
The first things I notice are the two walls of windows, which is exactly what Father wants. Every Human Iâve talked with assumes that Vampyres hate light and relish darkness, but they couldnât be more wrong. The sun may be forbidden to us, toxic always and deathly in large quantities, but thatâs precisely why we covet it with such intensity. Windows are a luxury, because they need to be treated with absurdly expensive materials that filter everything that might harm us. And windows this large are the most bombastic of status symbols, in a full display of dynastic power and obscene wealth. And beyond them . . .
The river that slices The City into North and Southâus, and them. Only a few hundred feet separate the Nest from Were territory, but the riverbank is littered with outlook towers, checkpoints, and guard posts, heavily monitored twenty-four seven. A single bridge exists, but access to it is closely surveilled in both directions, and as far as I know, no vehicle has traveled across it since well before I was born. Past that, there are a few Were security areas, and the deep green of an oak forest that stretches south for miles.
I always thought it smart of them not to build civilian settlements next to one of the most sanguinary borders in the Southwest. When Owen and I were children, before I was sent away, Father walked in on us wondering why the Vampyre headquarters had been placed so close to our most lethal enemies. âTo remember,â he explained. âAnd to remind.â
I donât know. Twenty years later, it still seems pretty fucked up to me.
âMisery.â Father finishes tapping at the touch screen monitor and stands from his luxury mahogany desk, unsmiling but not cold. âItâs good to see you here again.â
âIt sure is something.â The past few years have been kind to Henry Lark. I examine his tall frame, triangular face, and wide-set eyes, and Iâm reminded of how much I take after him. His blond hair is a little grayer, but still perfectly slicked back. Iâve never seen it anything butânever seen Father less than impeccably put together. Tonight the sleeves of his white button-down may be rolled back, but meticulously so. If theyâre meant to trick me into thinking that this is a casual meeting, theyâve failed.
And thatâs why, when he points at the leather chair in front of his desk and says, âSit,â I decide to lean back against the door.
âVania says youâre not dying.â Iâm aiming for rude. Unfortunately, I think I just sound curious.
âI trust that youâre healthy, too.â He smiles faintly. âHow have the last seven years treated you?â
There is a beautiful vintage clock behind his head. I watch it tick eight seconds before saying, âJust peachy.â
âYes?â He gives me a once-over. âYouâd better remove them, Misery. Someone might mistake you for a Human.â
Heâs referring to my brown contacts. Which I considered taking out in the car, before deciding not to bother. The problem is, there are many other signs that Iâve been living among the Humans, most not so quickly reversible. The fangs I shave to dull points every week, for instance, are unlikely to escape his notice. âI was at work.â
âAh, yes. Vania mentioned you have a job. Something with computers, knowing you?â
âSomething like that.â
He nods. âAnd how is your little friend? Once again safe and sound, I trust.â
I stiffen. âHow do you know sheââ
âOh, Misery. You didnât really think that your communications with Owen went unmonitored, did you?â
I clench my fists behind my back and seriously debate slamming the door behind me and returning home. But there must be a reason he brought me here, and I need to know it. So I take my phone out of my pocket, and once Iâm sitting across from Father, I lay it face up on his desk.
I tap on the timer app, set it for exactly ten minutes, and turn it toward him. Then I lean back in the chair. âWhy am I here?â
âItâs been years since I last saw my only daughter.â He presses his lips together. âIs that not enough reason?â
âNine minutes and forty-three seconds left.â
âMisery. My child.â The Tongue. âWhy are you angry at me?â
I lift my eyebrow.
âYou should not feel anger, but pride. The right choice is the one that ensures happiness for the largest number of people. And you were the means to that choice.â
I study him calmly. Iâm positive that he really does believe this bullshit. That he thinks heâs a good guy. âNine minutes and twenty-two seconds.â
He looks briefly, genuinely sad. Then he says, âThere is to be a wedding.â
I jerk my head back. âA wedding? As in . . . like the Humans do?â
âA marriage ceremony. Like the Vampyres used to have.â
âWhose? Yours? Are you going to . . .â I donât bother finishing the sentenceâthe sheer thought is ludicrous. Itâs not just weddings that have gone out of fashion hundreds of years ago, but the entire idea of long-term relationships. As it turns out, when your species sucks at producing children, encouraging sexual walkabouts and the search for reproductively compatible partners takes precedence over romance. I doubt Vampyres were ever particularly romantic, anyway. âWhose?â
Father sighs. âYet to be decided.â
I donât like this, not any of it, but Iâm not sure why yet. Something prickles in my ear, a whisper that I should get the hell out now, but as Iâm about to stand, Father says, âSince you chose to live among the Humans, you must have been following their news.â
âSome of it,â I lie. We could be at war with Eurasia and on the verge of cloning unicorns, and Iâd have no clue. Iâve been busy. Searching. Scouring. âWhy?â
âThe Humans recently had an election.â
I had no idea, but I nod. âWonder what thatâs like.â A leadership structure thatâs not an unattainable council whose membership is restricted to a handful of families, passed down from generation to generation like a chipped china set.
âNot ideal. As Arthur Davenport was not reelected.â
âGovernor Davenport?â The City is divided between the local Were pack and the Vampyres, but the rest of the Southwest region is almost exclusively Human. And for the last few decades, theyâve chosen Arthur Davenport to represent themâas far as I can recall, with little hesitation. That jerk. âWhoâs the new guy?â
âA woman. Maddie Garcia is the governor-elect, and her term will start in a few months.â
âAnd your take on her . . . ?â He must have one. Fatherâs collaboration with Governor Davenport is the driving force behind the amicable relationship between our two people.
Well. Amicable might be too strong of a word. The average Human still thinks that weâre gagging to suck their cattle dry and mind-scramble their loved ones; the average Vampyre still thinks that Humans are cunning but feckless, and that their main talent is for procreating and filling the universe with more Humans. Itâs not like our species hang out, aside from very limited, highly artificial diplomatic events. But we havenât been overtly murdering each other in cold blood for a while, and weâre allies against the Weres. A win is a win, right?
âI have no opinion,â he tells me, impassible. âNor will I have the opportunity to form one soon, as Ms. Garcia has refused all my requests for meetings.â
âAh.â Ms. Garcia must be wiser than I am.
âHowever, I am still tasked with guaranteeing the safety of my people. And once Governor Davenport is gone, in addition to the Were threat that we constantly face at the southern border, there might be one at the north. From the Humans.â
âI doubt she wants trouble, Father.â I pick at my nail polish. âSheâll probably just leave the current alliance as it is and cut down on the ceremonial bullshitââ
âHer team has informed us that as soon as she takes office, the Collateral program will be no more.â
I freeze. And then slowly look up. âWhat?â
âWe have been formally asked to return the Human Collateral. And they will send back the girl whoâs currently serving as the Vampyre Collateralââ
âBoy,â I correct him automatically. My fingertips feel numb. âThe current Vampyre Collateral is a boy.â I met him once. He had dark hair and a constant frown and said âNo, thank youâ when I asked if he needed help carrying a stack of books. By now he might very well be as tall as me.
âWhatever it might be, the return will happen next week. The Humans have decided not to wait for Maddie Garcia to take office.â
âI donât see . . .â I swallow. Gather myself. âItâs for the best. Itâs a stupid practice.â
âIt has been ensuring peace between the Vampyres and the Humans for over one hundred years.â
âSeems a little cruel to me,â I counter calmly. âAsking an eight-year-old to relocate alone inside enemy territory to play hostage.â
âââHostageâ is such a crude, simplistic word.â
âYou hold a Human child as a deterrent for ten years, with the mutual understanding that if the Humans violate the terms of our alliance, the Vampyres will instantly murder the child. That seems crude and simplistic, too.â
Fatherâs eyes narrow. âItâs not unilateral.â His voice grows harder. âThe Humans hold a Vampyre child for the same reasonââ
âI know, Father.â I lean forward. âI was the previous Vampyre Collateral, in case you have forgotten.â
I wouldnât put it past himâbut no. He might not recall the way I tried to hold his hand as the armored sedan drove us north, or me trying to hide behind Vaniaâs thigh when I first got a glimpse of the Humansâ oddly colored eyes. He might not know how it felt, growing up with the knowledge that if the ceasefire between us and the Humans broke down, the same caregivers whoâd taught me how to ride a bike would come into my room and drive a knife through my heart. He might not dwell on the fact that he sent his daughter to be the eleventh Collateral, ten years a prisoner among people who hated her kind.
But he does remember. Because the first rule of the Collateral, of course, is that they have to be closely tied to those in power. Those who make decisions concerning peace and war. And if Maddie Garcia doesnât want to throw a member of her family under the bus in the name of public safety, that only makes me respect her more. The boy who took over when I turned eighteen is the grandson of Councilwoman Ewing. And when I served as the Vampyre Collateral, my Human counterpart was the grandson of Governor Davenport. I used to wonder if he felt like I didâsometimes angry, sometimes resigned. Mostly expendable. Iâd sure love to know if, now that years have passed, he gets along with his family better than I do with mine.
âAlexandra Boden. Do you remember her?â Fatherâs tone is back to conversational. âYou were born the same year.â
I sit back in my chair, unsurprised by the abrupt change of topic. âRed hair?â
He nods. âA little more than a week ago, her little brother, Abel, turned fifteen. That night, he and three friends were out partying, and found themselves near the river. Emboldened by their youth and feeble-mindedness, they challenged each other to swim across it, touch the riverbank that belongs to Were territory, and then swim back. A show of bravery, if you will.â
Iâm not invested in the fate of Alexandra Bodenâs bratty brother, but my body goes icy cold nonetheless. All Vampyre children are taught about the danger of the southern border. We all learn where our territory ends and the Weresâ begins before we can speak. And we all know not to mess with anything Were.
Except for these four idiots, clearly.
âTheyâre dead,â I murmur.
Fatherâs lips curl up in something that looks very little like compassion, and a lot like annoyance. âItâs what they deserved, in my frank opinion. Of course, when the boys couldnât be found, the worst was assumed. Ansel Boden, the boyâs father, has strong ties to several council families, and petitioned for a retaliatory act. He argued that their disappearance would justify it. He was reminded that the good of our people as a whole comes before the good of the oneâthe basic principle Vampyre society relies on. Birth rates are at our lowest, and we are facing extinction. This is not the time to stoke conflict. And yet, in an unbecoming display of weakness, he continued to beg.â
âDisgusting. How dare he grieve for his son.â
Father gives me a scathing look. âBecause of his relationship to the council, he came close to having his way. Just last week, while you were busy pretending to be Human, we were closer to an interspecies war than weâve been in a century. And then, two days after their dull-witted stunt . . .â Father stands. He walks around the desk and then leans back against its edge, the picture of relaxation. âThe boys reappeared. Intact.â
I blink, a habit I picked up while pretending to be Human. âTheir corpses?â
âThey are alive. Shaken, of course. They were interrogated by Were guardsâtreated as spies, at first, and then as unruly nuisances. But they were eventually returned home, whole and healthy.â
âHow?â I can think of half a dozen incidents in the past twenty years in which borders were breached and whatever was left of the offenders got sent back in pieces. It mostly happens outside city limits, in the demilitarized woodlands. Regardless, Weres have been merciless to our people, and we have been merciless toward Weres. Which means that . . . âWhat changed?â
âAn intelligent question. You see, most of the council assumed that Roscoe was growing tender in his old age.â Roscoe. The Alpha of the Southwest pack. Iâve heard Father talk about him ever since I was a child. âBut Iâve met Roscoe once. Just onceâhe was always clear about his disinterest in diplomacy, and people like him are like skull bones. They only harden with time.â He turns toward the window. âThe Weres are as secretive as ever about their society. But we do have some ways to obtain intel, and after sending over some inquiriesââ
âThere was a change in their leadership structure.â
âVery good.â He seems pleased, as though Iâm a student who mastered the transitive property well ahead of expectations. âMaybe I should have chosen you as my successor. Owen has shown little commitment to the role. He appears to be more interested in socializing.â
I wave my hand. âIâm sure that when you announce your retirement heâll stop carousing around with his councilman heir friends and become the perfect Vampyre politician you always dreamt heâd be.â Not. âThe Weres. What kind of change?â
âIt appears that a few months ago, someone . . . challenged Roscoe.â
âChallenged?â
âTheir succession of power is not particularly sophisticated. Weres are most closely related to dogs, after all. Suffice to say, Roscoe is dead.â
I refrain from pointing out that our dynastic, hereditary oligarchies seem even more primitive, and that dogs are universally beloved. âHave you met them? The new Alpha?â
âAfter the boys were returned safely, I requested a meeting with him. To my surprise, he accepted.â
âHe did?â I hate that Iâm invested. âAnd?â
âI was curious, you see. Mercy isnât always a sign of weakness, but it can be.â His eyes take a sudden faraway bent, then slide to a piece of art on the eastern wallâa simple canvas painted a deep purple, to commemorate the blood spilled during the Aster. Similar art can be found in most public spaces. âAnd betrayal is born of weakness, Misery.â
âIs it, now?â Always thought betrayal was just betrayal, but what do I know?
âHe is not weak, the new Alpha. On the contrary. He is . . .â Father pulls back into himself. âSomething else. Something new.â His eyes settle on me, waiting, patient, and I shake my head, because I cannot imagine what reason he might have to tell me all of this. Where I could possibly come into play.
Until something worms its way through the back of my head. âWhy did you mention a wedding?â I ask, without bothering to hide the suspicion in my voice.
Father nods. I think I must have asked the right question, especially because he doesnât answer it. âYou grew up among the Humans, and did not have the advantage of a Vampyre education, so you may not know the full history of our conflict with the Weres. Yes, we have been at odds for centuries, but attempts at dialogue were made. There have been five interspecies marriages between us and the Weres, during which no border skirmishes were recorded, nor Vampyre deaths at the hands of Weres. The last was two hundred years agoâa fifteen-year marriage between a Vampyre and his Were bride. When she died, another union was arranged, one that did not end well.â
âThe Aster.â
âThe Aster, yes.â The sixth wedding ceremony ended in carnage when the Weres attacked the Vampyres, who, after decades of peace, had become a little too trusting, and made the mistake of showing up to a wedding mostly unarmed. Between the Weresâ superior strength and the element of surprise, it was a bloodbathâmostly ours. Purple, with a sprinkling of green. Just like an aster. âWe donât know why the Weres decided to turn on us, but ever since our relationship with them irreparably broke down, there has been one constant: we had an alliance with the Humans, and the Weres did not. There are ten Weres for every Vampyre, and hundreds of Humans for both our species combined. Yes, Humans may lack Vampyresâ talents, or Weresâ speed and strength, but there is power in numbers. Having them on our side was . . . reassuring.â Fatherâs jaw clenches. Then, after a long time, relaxes. âCertainly, you can see why Maddie Garciaâs refusal to meet with me is a concern. Even more so because of her relative warmth toward the Weres.â
My eyes widen. I may be a bit checked out of the Human cultural landscape, but I didnât think diplomatic relationships with the Weres would be on their statecraft bucket list for the year. As far as I know, theyâve always ignored each otherânot too difficult, since they donât share important borders. âThe Humans and the Weres. In diplomatic talks.â
âCorrect.â
I remain skeptical. âDid the Alpha tell you this when you met?â
âNo. This is intel we obtained separately. The Alpha told me other things.â
âSuch as?â
âHe is young, you see. Around your age and built of a different stock. As savage as Roscoe, perhaps, but more open-minded. He believes that peace in the region is possible. That alliances among all three species should be cultivated.â
I snort out a laugh. âGood luck with that.â
Fatherâs head tilts to the side, and his eyes zero in on me, assessing. âYou know why I chose you to be the Collateral? And not your brother?â
Oh, no. Not this conversation. âTossed a coin?â
âYou were such a peculiar child, Misery. Always uninterested in what went on around you, locked in a vault inside your head, hard to reach. Withdrawn. The other children would try to become your friends, and youâd stubbornly leave them hangingââ
âThe other children knew that Iâd be the one sent to the Humans, and they started calling me fangless traitor as soon as they could form full sentences. Or have you forgotten when I was seven, and the sons and daughters of your fellow councilmen stole my clothes and pushed me out in the sun right before midday? And those same people spat on me and mocked me when I returned from ten years serving as their Collateral, so Iâm notââ I exhale slowly, and remind myself that this is fine. I am fine. Untouchable. Iâm twenty-five and I have my fake Human IDs, my apartment, my cat (fuck you, Serena), my . . . Okay, I probably donât have a job right now, but Iâll find another soon, with 100 percent fewer Pierces. I have friendsâa friend. Probably.
Above all, Iâve taught myself not to care. About anything.
âThe wedding you mentioned. Whose is it?â
Father presses his lips together. Several moments tick by before he speaks again. âWhen a Were and a Vampyre stand in front of each other, all they see isââ
âThe Aster.â I glance down at my phone, impatient. âThree minutes and forty-seven secondsââ
âThey see a wedding between a Vampyre and an Alpha that was supposed to broker peace, but ended in death. The Weres are animals, and always will be, but we are on the road to extinction, and the good of the most must be considered. If we let the Humans and Weres form an alliance that excludes us, they could completely wipe us outââ
âOh my God.â It suddenly dawns on me, the crazy, ridiculous place where heâs heading, and I cover my eyes. âYou are joking, right?â
âMisery.â
âNo.â I let out a laugh. âYou . . . Father, we cannot marry our way out of this war.â I donât know why Iâve switched to the Tongue, but it takes him aback. And maybe thatâs good, maybe this is what he needs. A moment to think this madness through. âWho would agree to this?â
Father looks at me so pointedly, I know. I just know.
And I burst into laughter.
I only ever laughed out loud with Serena, which means that it must have been well over a month since I last did it. My brain nearly hiccups, startled at these newfangled, mysterious sounds my voice box is producing. âDid you drink rotten blood? Because youâre unhinged.â
âWhat I am is charged with ensuring the good of the most, and the good of the most is the furthering of our people.â He seems somewhat offended by my reaction, but I cannot help the laughter bubbling in my throat. âIt would be a job, Misery. Compensated.â
This isâ God, this is funny. And mental. âNo amount of legal tender would convince me toâ Is it ten billion dollars?â
âNo.â
âWell, no lower amount of legal tender would convince me to marry a Were.â
âFinancially, you will be set for life. You know the councilâs pockets are deep. And there is no expectation of a real marriage. Youâd be with him in name only. Youâll be in Were territory for a single year, which will send the message that Vampyres can be safe with Weresââ
âVampyres cannot.â I shoot to my feet and begin pacing away from him, massaging my temple. âWhy are you asking me? I cannot be your first choice.â
âYou arenât,â he says flatly. He has plenty of faults, but lack of honesty was never among them. âNor our second. The council is in agreement that we must act, and several members have offered their relatives. Originally, Councilman Essenâs daughter agreed. But she had a change of heartââ
âOh, God.â I stop pacing. âYouâre treating this as a Collateral exchange.â
âOf course. And so are the Weres. The Alpha will send a Were to us. Someone important to him. She will be with us for as long as you are with him. Ensuring your reciprocal safety.â
Bonkers. This is absolutely bonkers.
I take a grounding breath. âWell, I . . .â Think everyone involved has lost their mind, and whoever shows up to that wedding is going to get slaughtered, and I cannot believe your sheer presumption in asking this of me. â. . . am honored that you eventually thought of me, but no. Thanks.â
âMisery.â
I walk to the desk to pick up my phoneâone minute, thirteen seconds leftâand for a brief moment, Iâm so close to Father, I feel the rhythm of his blood in my bones. Slow, steady, painfully familiar.
Heartbeats are like fingerprints, one of a kind, distinctive, the easiest way to tell people apart. Fatherâs was pressed into my flesh on the day I was born, when he was the first person to hold me, the first person to care for me, the first person to know me.
And then he washed his hands of me.
âNo,â I say. To him. To myself.
âRoscoeâs death is an opportunity.â
âRoscoeâs death was murder,â I point out evenly. âBy the hand of the man youâd have me marry.â
âYou know how many Vampyre children were born this year in the Southwest?â
âI donât care.â
âFewer than three hundred. If the Weres and the Humans join forces to take our land from us, they will wipe us out. Completely. The good of the mostââ
ââis a cause Iâve already donated to, and no one is showing me much gratitude.â I meet his eyes squarely. Slide my phone into my pocket with determination. âIâve done enough. I have a life and Iâm going back to it.â
âDo you?â
I stop halfway through turning around. âExcuse me?â
âDo you have a life, Misery?â He looks at me when he says it, pointed, careful, like heâs pushing a sharp weapon a mere millimeter into my neck.
I need you to care about one single fucking thing, Misery, one thing thatâs not me.
I push the memory away and swallow. âGood luck finding someone else.â
âYou feel unwelcome among your people. This could rehabilitate you in their eyes.â
A frisson of anger runs through my spine. âI think Iâll hold off on that, Father. At least until they have rehabilitated themselves in mine.â I take a few steps backward, cheerfully waving my hand. âIâm leaving.â
âMy ten minutes arenât up yet.â
My phone chooses that very moment to beep. âExquisite timing.â I flash him a smile. If my blunt fangs bother him, thatâs his problem. âI can safely say that no amount of time will change the outcome of this conversation.â
âMisery.â A pleading edge is creeping into his tone, which is almost entertaining.
Too bad. So sad. âSee you in . . . seven years? Or when you decide that the key to peace is a joint Were-Vampyre MLM scheme and try to sell me dietary supplements. Do have Vania fetch me at home, though. I do not look forward to reorganizing my résumé.â I turn around to find the doorknob.
âThere wonât be another opportunity in seven years, Misery.â
I roll my eyes and open the door. âGoodbye, Father.â
âMoreland is the first Alpha whoââ
I slam the door shut, without first walking out of the office, and turn around, back toward Father. My heart slows to a crawl and thuds in my chest. âWhat did you just say?â
He straightens up from the desk, full of confusion and something that could be hope. âNo other Were Alphaââ
âThe name. You said a name. Who . . . ?â
âMoreland?â he repeats.
âHis full nameâwhatâs his first name?â
Fatherâs eyes narrow suspiciously, but after a few seconds, he says, âLowe. Lowe Moreland.â
I look down at the floor, which appears to be shaking. Then at the ceiling. I take a series of deep breaths, each one slower than the other, and then run a trembling hand through my hair, even though my arm weighs a thousand pounds.
I wonder if the blue dress I wore at Serenaâs college graduation would be too casual for an interspecies wedding ceremony. Because, yeah.
I guess Iâm getting married.