Sweet Addiction
Chapter 20; Enough is enough!
"We are going shopping, bishes!" Elena yells, running towards where we are standing in the parking lot.
Shopping? Hell yes
"Took you long enough." Lyndsey mumbles, rolling her eyes at Elena's tardiness.
"Anyways, lets hit the road." Elena says, getting into the back seat of Trina's car. I follow along taking a seat beside her.
"I havent been shopping in months." I say, fixing my seat belt.
"Same, feels like centuries." Trina says and i roll my eyes at her sarcasm.
She starts the car and loud ear bursting rock music flows through the car. I wince covering my ears,
"WHAT THE FUCK, DUDE!?" Lyndsey yells from the front seat, her ears also covered.
Trina, the hippie makes no move to reduce the volume but just taps her fingers on the steering wheel bopping her head to the music.
"TRINA!!" We all yell loudly in a scolding tone. She rolls her eyes turning it down but still loud enough for the students in the parking lot to hear.
"What the hell, Trina?" Elena says, massaging her ears.
"Guys, chill. Its rock music, its supposed to rock your world." She states, her head swinging to the music as she drives out of the parking lot.
"Yeah, but not when its killing your ears." I say.
"Oh please, its not like any of you have never been clubbing or something." Trina says.
"We are underage, dumbass!" Lyndsey says,
"Whatever, you have all been to parties!" Trina says and my breath catches in my throat and i wince.
I hate parties,
Parties remind me of how i lost the two most important people in my life
Elena notices and narrows her eyes at me but i just wave it off looking outside the car window.
I take deep breaths to try to calm myself down but memories from that day start replaying in my head, like a slide show. I look down and my hands are shaking so i fold them in front of my chest so that no one notices.
My head starts spinning and the oxygen supply to my lungs is cut short and i feel like someone is squishing my lungs. My heart rate speeding up with all the noises around me cut out.
God help me please.
I close my eyes and try to imagine something or someone that makes me happy,
My friends.
Kyle
Ian Somerhaulder
Clear skies and beautiful beaches
The trip to Thailand
I take one last breath as my heart beat goes to normal and my breathing calms down, grateful to God that i made it.
I turn to my side and Elena has a questioning concerned look on her face. She must have noticed that. I send her a reassuring smile and turn to look out the window.
We arrive at the shopping mall and trek towards tye clothing area. We all go to different parts of the clothing store; clothes, lingerie and shoes.
I move towards the clothing store to get some clothes i will dress for the trip thats in five days,
A dark blue sleeveless dress a lace design around the waist, with silver bright dots around it, attracts my attention.
Its gorgeous
I take it off from the rack and hold onto it as i search for other clothes to try on and buy.
"Hey V?" I hear and Elena's voice and i hum in response turning to her,
"Yeah. What's up?"
"What was that all about?" She asks, referring to what happened earlier in the car.
I sigh running a hand across my forehead, "I hate parties because of what happened." I briefly explain
Elena raises her brows in realisation, her mouth forming an 'o'
"So you still blame yourself, hmm?"
"Yes, i still do. Who wouldn't?" I ask, my eyes starting to water. I look up at the ceiling to contain my tears as my hand goes up to cover my mouth to stop a sob. Elena notices and walks to me, wrapping her arms around me in a hug which i reprocate.
Its my fault.
I shouldnt have been a selfish little brat that night. I would still have my brother and my best friend. My mam would still be my mommy. We would be a happy family and i would not have regrets.
"We can go home if you want." Elena says after pulling away, smiling sadly and i shake my head, no.
"No, i dont want to ruin this time with you guys. Besides, i also wanna do some shopping." I state, forcing out myself.
"Are you sure?" She raises her brow, her face twisted with concern and worry.
"Of course. Now lets continue shopping." I smile, a small one and she sighs following behind me as i get lost in my thoughts,
I miss my brother and my best friend so so much. I would literally do anything for them to come back, for me to see them again and embrace them.
I would do anything, just anything.....
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"You are not going anywhere, you hear me?" Mam sneers, hitting me with her belt across my arms one last time and i nod, sniffling.
She exits my bedroom and i sob into my arms, shaking and wincing from all the pain.
After the girls and i went shopping for five hours, we decided to leave and go home. It was late so i had to climb into my bedroom door like monkey Kyle and enter.
But when i entered, i literally froze. Mam was in my bedroom, drunk as usual, throwing my things everywhere in the mess i am currently sitting in.
She somehow found out about the trip to Thailand with Kyle and she did not like the idea at all. She was furious then she started to hit me and told me not to go.
What hurts the most is that she didn't even acknowlege that it was my birthday. She just reacted to the trip.
I cry into my arms that are resting on my knees, for what feels like hours until i hear my dad's car drive into the driveway.
I pull out my phone from the charger by my bedside and text him,
Me; Dad, i need you!
Not less than five minutes, Dad comes into my room. I dont look up at him. I feel him take a seat on the floor next to me and he pulls me into a hug, knowing exactly what happened.
Some times, Dad is always there to stop mam from punishing me but ever since we moved to Memphis, he has been so busy with work that he is never here for me.
Its Kyle that is, he locks my door and makes sure i fall asleep comfortably and well but he wasnt here today because i didnt let him and also because he had so many things to do at his work.
"I am so sorry, sweetie. I am sorry i wasn't there for you." Dad apologises, sincerity in his voice as he tries to calm me down, running a hand across my hair.
"W-why does she hate m-me?" I stutter in tears and then hiccup, as a sob escapes my mouth.
"Shh, honey. Its going to be okay." Dad coos into my hair, kissing the top of it.
"How, dad?" I pull away looking at him incredulously as more tears run down my cheek, "It's never going to be okay. She is going to continue doing this to me. Blaming me for my brother's death and emitting any form of happiness in my life."
I dont think i deserve this. As Kyle once said, i deserve happiness too. Yes, i did murder my brother but i dont think i also deserve physical pain along emotional pain too. Mam's form of punishment is not right and i have seemed to learn it through Kyle and Elena. Its not right and i have to do something about it.
Enough is enough!
I shouldn't be expecting protection from dad or from Kyle against my own mother. I need to do something about it. I need to stand up for myself because i have the rights to.
Dad looks at me, a small sad smile across his face, "Because I'm filing for a divorce."
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