Amongst the sprawling field of corpses and wounded, there was one body I wanted to bury.
Only Nesta, Elain, and I returned to that clearing, once Azriel had given the all-clear that the battle was well and truly over.
Letting Rhys out of my sight to wrangle our scattered armies, sort through the living and dead, and figure out some semblance of order was an effort in self-control.
I nearly begged Rhys to come with us, so I didnât have to let go of his hand, which I had not stopped clutching since those moments Iâd heard his beautiful, solid heartbeat echoing into his body once more.
But this task, this farewell ⦠I knew, deep down, that it was only for my sisters and me.
So I released Rhysâs hand, kissing him once, twice, and left him in the war-camp to help Mor haul a barely standing Cassian to the nearest healer.
Nesta was watching them when I reached her and Elain at the tree-lined outskirts. Had she done some healing, somehow, in those moments after sheâd severed the kingâs head? Or had it been Cassianâs immortal blood and Azrielâs battlefield patching that had already healed him enough to manage to stand, even with the wing and leg? I didnât ask my sister, and she supplied no answer as she took the water bucket dangling from Elainâs still-bloody hands, and I followed them both through the trees.
The King of Hybernâs corpse lay in the clearing, crows already picking at it.
Nesta spat on it before we approached our father. The crows barely scattered in time.
The screams and moaning of the wounded was a distant wall of soundâanother world away from the sun-dappled clearing. From the blood still fresh on the moss and grass. I blocked out the coppery tang of itâCassianâs blood, the kingâs blood, Nestaâs blood.
Only our father had not bled. He hadnât been given the chance to. And through whatever small mercy of the Mother, the crows hadnât started on him.
Elain quietly washed his face. Combed out his hair and beard. Straightened his clothes.
She found flowersâsomewhere. She laid them at his head, on his chest.
We stared down at him in silence.
âI love you,â Elain whispered, voice breaking.
Nesta said nothing, face unreadable. There were such shadows in her eyes. I had not told her what Iâd seenâhad let them tell me what they wanted.
Elain breathed, âShould weâsay a prayer?â
We did not have such things in the human world, I remembered. My sisters had no prayers to offer him. But in Prythian â¦
âMother hold you,â I whispered, reciting words I had not heard since that day Under the Mountain. âMay you pass through the gates; may you smell that immortal land of milk and honey.â Flame ignited at my fingertips. All I could muster. All that was left. âFear no evil. Feel no pain.â My mouth trembled as I breathed, âMay you enter eternity.â
Tears slid down Elainâs pallid cheeks as she adjusted an errant flower on our fatherâs chest, white-petaled and delicate, and then backed away to my side with a nod.
Nestaâs face did not shift as I sent that fire to ignite our fatherâs body.
He was ash on the wind in a matter of moments.
We stared at the burned slab of earth for long minutes, the sun shifting overhead.
Steps crunched on the grass behind us.
Nesta whirled, butâ
Lucien. It was Lucien.
Lucien, haggard and bloody, panting for breath. As if heâd run from the shore.
His gaze settled on Elain, and he sagged a little. But Elain only wrapped her arms around herself and remained at my side.
âAre you hurt?â he asked, coming toward us. Spying the blood speckling Elainâs hands.
He halted short as he noticed the King of Hybernâs decapitated head on the other side of the clearing. Nesta was still showered with his blood.
âIâm fine,â Elain said quietly. And then asked, noticing the gore on him, the torn clothes and still-bloody weapons, âAre youââ
âWell, I never want to fight in another battle as long as I live, but ⦠yes, Iâm in one piece.â
A faint smile bloomed on Elainâs lips. But Lucien noticed that scorched patch of grass behind us and said, âI heardâwhat happened. Iâm sorry for your loss. All of you.â
I just strode to him and threw my arms around his neck, even if it wasnât the embrace he was hoping for. âThank youâfor coming. With the battle, I mean.â
âIâve got one hell of a story to tell you,â he said, squeezing me tightly. âAnd donât be surprised if Vassa corners you as soon as the ships are sorted. And the sun sets.â
âIs she reallyââ
âYes. But your father, ever the negotiator â¦â A sad, small smile toward that burnt grass. âHe managed to cut a deal with Vassaâs keeper to come here. Temporarily, but ⦠better than nothing. But yesâqueen by night, firebird by day.â He blew out a breath. âNasty curse.â
âThe human queens are still out there,â I said. Maybe Iâd hunt them down.
âNot for longânot if Vassa has anything to do with it.â
âYou sound like an acolyte.â
Lucien blushed, glancing at Elain. âSheâs got a foul temper and a fouler mouth.â He cut me a wry look. âYouâll get along just fine.â
I nudged him in the ribs.
But Lucien again looked at that singed grass, and his blood-splattered face turned solemn. âHe was a good man,â he said. âHe loved you all very much.â
I nodded, unable to form the words. The thoughts. Nesta didnât so much as blink to indicate sheâd heard. Elain just wrapped her arms tighter around herself, a few more tears streaking free.
I spared Lucien the torment of debating whether to touch her, and linked my arm through his as I began to walk away, letting my sisters decide to follow or remainâif they wanted a moment alone with that burnt grass.
Elain came.
Nesta stayed.
Elain fell into step beside me, peering at Lucien. He noticed it. âI heard you made the killing blow,â he said.
Elain studied the trees ahead. âNesta did. I just stabbed him.â
Lucien seemed to fumble for a response, but I said to him, âSo where now? Off with Vassa?â I wondered if heâd heard of Tamlinâs roleâthe help heâd given us. A look at my friend showed me he had. Someone, perhaps my mate, had informed him.
Lucien shrugged. âFirstâhere. To help. Then â¦â Another glance at Elain. âWho knows?â
I nudged Elain, who blinked at me, then blurted, âYou could come to Velaris.â
He saw all of it, but nodded graciously. âIt would be my pleasure.â
As we strode back to the camp, Lucien told us of his time awayâhow heâd hunted for Vassa, how heâd found her already with my father, an army marching westward. How Miryam and Drakon had found them on their own journey to help us.
I was still mulling over all he said when I slipped into my tent to finally change out of my leathers, leaving him and Elain to go find a place to wash up. And talkâperhaps.
But as I strode through the flaps, sound greeted me withinâtalking. Many voices, one of them belonging to my mate.
I got one step inside and knew I wouldnât be changing my clothes anytime soon.
For seated in a chair before the brazier was Prince Drakon, Rhys sprawled and still bloody on the cushions across from him. And on the pillows beside Rhys sat a lovely female, her dark hair tumbling down her back in luscious curls, already smiling at me.
Miryam.