I felt Rhysâs attention on me while we dressed the next morning, and throughout our hearty breakfast. Yet he didnât push, didnât demand to know what had dragged me into that screaming hell.
It had been a long while since those nightmares had hauled either of us from sleep. Blurred the lines.
It was only when we stood in the foyer, waiting for Cassian before we winnowed to the Prison, that Rhys asked from where he leaned against the stair banister, âDo you need to talk about it?â
My Illyrian leathers groaned as I turned toward him.
Rhys clarified, âWith meâor anyone.â
I answered him truthfully, tugging at the end of my braid. âWith everything bearing down on us, everything at stake â¦â I let my braid drop. âI donât know. I think itâs torn open some ⦠part of me that was slowly repairing.â Repairing thanks to both of us.
He nodded, no fear or reproach in his eyes.
So I told him. All of it. Stumbling over the parts that still made me ill. He only listened.
And when I was done, that shakiness remained, but ⦠Speaking it, voicing it aloud to him â¦
The savage grip of those terrors lightened. Cleared away like dew in the sun. I freed a long breath, as if blowing those fears from me, letting my body loosen in its wake.
Rhys silently pushed off the banister and kissed me. Once. Twice.
Cassian stalked through the front door a heartbeat later and groaned that it was too early to stomach the sight of us kissing. My mate only snarled at him before he took us both by the hand and winnowed us to the Prison.
Rhys gripped my fingers tighter than usual as the wind ripped around us, Cassian now wisely keeping silent. And as we emerged from that black, tumbling wind, Rhys leaned over to kiss me a third time, sweet and soft, before the gray light and roaring wind greeted us.
Apparently, the Prison was cold and misty no matter the time of year.
Standing at the base of the mossy, rocky mountain under which the Prison was built, Cassian and I frowned up the slope.
Despite the Illyrian leathers, the chill seeped into my bones. I rubbed at my arms, lifting my brows at Rhys, who had remained in his usual attire, so out of place in this damp, windy speck of green in the middle of a gray sea.
The wind ruffled his black hair as he surveyed us, Cassian already sizing up the mountain like some opponent. Twin Illyrian blades were crossed over the generalâs muscled back. âWhen youâre in there,â Rhys said, the words barely audible over the wind and silver streams running down the mountainside, âyou wonât be able to reach me.â
âWhy?â I rubbed my already-freezing hands together before puffing a hot breath into the cradle of my palms.
âWards and spells far older than Prythian,â was all Rhys said. He jerked his chin to Cassian. âDonât let each other out of your sight.â
It was the dead seriousness with which Rhys spoke that kept me from retorting.
Indeed, my mateâs eyes were hardâunflinching. While we were here, he and Azriel were to discuss what heâd found out about Autumnâs leanings in this war. And then adjust their strategy for the meeting with the High Lords. But I could sense it, the urge to request he join us. Watch over us.
âShout down the bond when youâre out again,â Rhys said with a mildness that didnât reach his gaze.
Cassian looked back over a shoulder. âGet back to Velaris, you mother hen. Weâll be fine.â
Rhys leveled another uncharacteristically hard stare at him. âRemember who you put in here, Cassian.â
Cassian just tucked in his wings, as if every muscle shifted toward battle. Steady and solid as the mountain we were about to climb.
With a wink at me, Rhys vanished.
Cassian checked the buckles on his swords and motioned me to start the long trek up the hill. My gut tightened at the climb ahead. The shrieking hollowness of this place.
âWho did you put in here?â The mossy earth cushioned my steps.
Cassian put a scar-flecked finger to his lips. âBest left for another time.â
Right. I fell into step beside him, my thighs burning with the steep hike. Mist chilled my face. Conserving his strengthâCassian wasnât wasting a drop of energy on shielding us from the elements.
âYou really think unleashing the Carver will do the trick against Hybern?â
âYouâre the general,â I panted, âyou tell me.â
He considered, the wind tossing his dark hair over his tan face. âEven if you promise to find a way to send him back to his own world with the Book, or give him whatever unholy thing he wants,â Cassian mused, âI think youâd better find a way to control him in this world, or else weâll be fighting enemies on all fronts. And I know which one will hand our asses to us.â
âThe Carverâs that bad.â
âYouâre asking this right before weâre to meet with him?â
I hissed, âI assumed Rhys would have put his foot down if it was that risky.â
âRhys has been known to hatch plans that make my heart stop dead,â Cassian grumbled. âSo, I wouldnât count on him to be the voice of reason.â
I scowled at Cassian, earning a wolfish grin in return.
But Cassian scanned the heavy gray sky, as if hunting for spying eyes. Then the moss and grass and rocks beneath our boots for listening ears below. âThere was life here,â he said, answering my question at last, âbefore the High Lords took Prythian. Old gods, we call them. They ruled the forests and the rivers and the mountainsâsome were those things. Then the magic shifted to the High Fae, who brought the Cauldron and Mother along with them, and though the old gods were still worshipped by a select few, most people forgot them.â
I grappled onto a large gray rock as I climbed over it. âThe Bone Carver was an old god?â
He dragged a hand through his hair, the Siphon gleaming in the watery light. âThatâs what legend says. Along with whispers of being able to fell hundreds of soldiers with one breath.â
A chill rippled down my skin that had nothing to do with the brisk wind. âUseful on a battlefield.â
Cassianâs golden-brown skin paled while his eyes churned with the thought. âNot without the proper precautions. Not without him being bound to obey us within an inch of his life.â Which Iâd have to figure out as well, I supposed.
âHow did he wind up hereâin the Prison?â
âI donât know. No one does.â Cassian helped me over a boulder, his hand gripping mine tightly. âBut how do you plan on freeing him from the Prison?â
I winced. âI suppose our friend would know, since she got out.â Carefulâwe had to be careful when mentioning Amrenâs name here.
Cassianâs face grew solemn. âShe doesnât talk about how she did it, Feyre. Iâd be careful how you push her.â Since we still had not told Amren where we were today. What we were doing.
I thought about saying more, but ahead, far up the slope, the massive bone gates opened.
Iâd forgotten itâthe weight of the air inside the Prison. Like wading through the unstirred air of a tomb. Like stealing a breath from the open mouth of a skull.
We both bore an Illyrian blade in one hand, the faelight bobbing ahead to show the way, occasionally dancing and sliding along the shining metal. Our other hands ⦠Cassian clenched my fingers as tightly as I clutched his while we descended into the eternal blackness of the Prison, our steps crunching on the dry ground. There were no doorsânone that we could see.
But behind that solid, black rock, I could still feel them. Could have sworn a faint scratching sound filled the passage. From the other side of that rock.
As if someone were running their nails down it. Something hugeâand old. And quiet as the wind through a field of wheat.
Cassian kept utterly silent, tracking somethingâcounting something.
âThis could be ⦠a very bad idea,â I admitted, my grip tightening on his hand.
âOh, it most certainly is,â Cassian said with a faint smile as we continued down and down into the heavy black and thrumming silence. âBut this is war. We donât have the luxury of good ideasâonly picking between the bad ones.â
The Bone Carverâs cell door swung open the moment I laid my palm to it.
âWorth the misery of being Rhysâs mate,â Cassian quipped as the white bone swung away into darkness.
A light chuckle within.
The amusement faded from Cassianâs face at the soundâas we walked into the cell, still hand in hand.
The orb of faelight bobbed ahead, illuminating the stone-hewn cell.
Cassian growled at what it revealed. Who it revealed.
Wholly different, no doubt, from the same young boy who now smiled at me.
Dark-haired, with eyes of crushing blue.
I started at the childâs faceâwhat I had not noticed that first time. What I had not understood.
It was Rhysandâs face. The coloring, the eyes ⦠it was my mateâs face.
But the Carverâs full, wide mouth, curled into that hideous smile ⦠That was my mouth. My fatherâs mouth.
The hair on my arms rose. The Carver inclined his head in greetingâin greeting and in confirmation, as if he knew precisely what I realized. Who I had seen and was still seeing.
The High Lordâs son. My son. Our son. Should we survive long enough to bear him.
Should I not fail in my task to recruit the Carver. Should we not fail to unify the High Lords and the Court of Nightmares. And keep that wall intact.
It was an effort to keep my knees from buckling. Cassianâs face was pale enough that I knew whatever he was seeing ⦠it wasnât a beautiful young boy.
âI was wondering when youâd return,â the Carver said, that boyâs voice sweet and yet dreadfulâfrom the ancient creature that lurked beneath it. âHigh Lady,â he added to me. âPlease accept my congratulations on your union.â A glance at Cassian. âI can smell the wind on you.â Another little smile. âHave you brought me a gift?â
I reached into the pocket of my jacket and chucked a small shard of bone, no bigger than my hand, at the Carverâs feet.
âThis is all thatâs left of the Attor after I splattered him on the streets of Velaris.â
Those blue eyes flared with unholy delight. I hadnât even known weâd kept this fragment. It had been stored until nowâprecisely for this sort of thing.
âSo bloodthirsty, my new High Lady,â the Carver purred, picking up the cracked bone and turning it over in those small, delicate hands. And then the Carver said, âI smell my sister on you, Cursebreaker.â
My mouth went dry. His sisterâ
âDid you steal from her? Did she weave a thread of your life into her loom?â
The Weaver of the Wood. My heart thundered. No breathing could steady it. Cassianâs hand tightened around mine.
The Carver purred to Cassian, âIf I tell you a secret, warrior-heart, what will you give me?â
Neither of us spoke. Carefullyâweâd have to phrase and do this so carefully.
The Carver stroked the shard of bone in his palm, attention fixed upon a stone-faced Cassian. âWhat if I tell you what the rock and darkness and sea beyond whispered to me, Lord of Bloodshed? How they shuddered in fear, on that island across the sea. How they trembled when she emerged. She took somethingâsomething precious. She ripped it out with her teeth.â
Cassianâs golden-brown face had drained of color, his wings tucking in tight.
âWhat did you wake that day in Hybern, Prince of Bastards?â
My blood went cold.
âWhat came out was not what went in.â A rasping laugh as the Carver laid the shard of bone on the ground beside him. âHow lovely she isânew as a fawn and yet ancient as the sea. How she calls to you. A queen, as my sister once was. Terrible and proud; beautiful as a winter sunrise.â
Rhys had warned me of the inmatesâ capacity to lie, to sell anything, to get free.
âNesta,â the Bone Carver murmured. âNes-ta.â
I squeezed Cassianâs hand. Enough. It was enough of this teasing and taunting. But he didnât look at me.
âHow the wind moans her name. Can you hear it, too? Nesta. Nesta. Nesta.â
I wasnât sure Cassian was breathing.
âWhat did she do, drowning in the ageless dark? What did she take?â
It was the bite in the last word that snapped my tether of restraint. âIf you wish to find out, perhaps you should stop talking long enough for us to explain.â
My voice seemed to shake Cassian free of whatever trance heâd been in. His breathing surged, tight and fast, and he scanned my faceâapology in his eyes.
The Carver chuckled. âI so rarely get company. Forgive me for wanting to make idle talk.â He crossed an ankle over a foot. âAnd why have you sought my services?â
âWe attained the Book of Breathings,â I said casually. âThere are ⦠interesting spells inside. Codes within codes within codes. Someone we know cracked most of them. She is still looking for others. Spells that could ⦠send someone like her home. Others like her, too.â
The Carverâs violet eyes flared bright as flame. âIâm listening.â