The next day, Song Yan went to school early in the morning, because he didn't sleep well all night, he still had two thick dark circles on his face.
When he arrived in the classroom, he really saw Xia Linduan sitting in the seat by the window, like every morning, with his head down and intently meditating English words.
The morning sun of the spring was scattered on half of his face through the edge of the window, alternating light and dark, the curvature of the face is clearly visible, making his skin white and delicate.
Song Yan was in a trance for a moment. He wondered how he had never associated Xia Lin with the word "good-looking" before.
Since childhood, Xia Lin has been inseparable from him. They played truant, played pranks together, and even took off their clothes and went to splash in the water together... In his concept, Xia Lin is almost like another self, they are almost indifferent. each other.
But since when did Xia Lin begin to alienate him? Was it after he came back from Australia, or when Xia Lin no longer wanted to take a bath with him a few years ago?
Perhaps it was distance that produced beauty. When Xia Lin pushed him farther and farther, he suddenly realized that Xia Linâs appearance was no longer what he remembered. He was taller and thinner than before. , And more attractive.
Song Yan just stood at the door of the classroom and stared at Xia Lin, until after the other party had memorized a set of words, Chang Shu raised his head in a sigh and looked at each other, a subtle awkward atmosphere filled the air.
Xia Lin looked at him in silence for a moment, then lowered his head like a stranger, and continued to recite the next set of words.
Song Yan suddenly came back to his senses, remembering the purpose of his trip, took a deep breath, strode to the desk of Xia Lin, and said in an awkward tone of being strong in the outside world: "Xia Lin, let's talk."
Xia Linfu lifted up again. Starting to look at him, neither said good nor bad.
Zhou Shuo consciously got up from his seat, walked to another girl who had arrived early in the classroom, and said blankly, "Can you come out with me?" The
girl suddenly raised her head, her face sullen. It went red.
Zhou Shuo looked at her strangely, and repeated: "Classmate, can you come out with me?"
"Okay... OK." The girl seemed a little nervous, subconsciously pulled the hem of her school uniform, and then twisted. Pinch to follow Zhou Shuo out.
After the busy people and others were all gone, Song Yan stammered and said, "As for what happened the night before...the night before, Zhou Shuo told...tell me, actually..."
"I know," Xia Lin said coldly. Cut off his words, "You are drunk, why would I care about a drunkard."
Song Yan was stunned for a moment, and suddenly felt aggrieved: "Since you don't care about it, why did you blacklist me?"
Xia Lin looked at him: "I don't care, it doesn't mean I don't want to blacklist you."
"Fuck, how can you be so unreasonable."
"Why should I reason with you?" Xia Lin tilted his head. Looking at him provocatively, "The phone belongs to me. It's my freedom to block who I love to block. Do I have to get your consent beforehand?"
Song Yan was dumbfounded when he was asked, but he was speechless for a while.
Xia Lin's simple and rude way of breaking off friendship has refreshed his worldview.
The two stood in a stalemate in silence for a while, and in the end Song Yan gave up first: "Xia Lin, can we speak well? You have to give me a reason."
"Because I am gay and you are not."
"What's wrong with homosexuality?" I don't mind, you still..."
"Things gather by kind, and people are divided into groups. We are not the same kind of people, and we don't walk the same way."
Song Yan was about to burst with anger and began to say nothing. "Okay, Xia Lin , If you have to divide it like this, then, from today, I am also gay, and I like men too. Are you satisfied with this?!"
Xia Lin looked at him with a smile but a smile, as if watching an unreasonable kid, but what he said was cold and cold: "Do you think homosexuality is a kid playing home? Have you ever known this group? Have you experienced it? Is the hardship of this road? Can you imagine how much harm your family will endure after knowing your sexuality?"
"No homosexual would take the initiative to harm his family. They are all forced to be helpless, they People who are marginalized by this society, they also want to integrate into society, but they are not allowed or accepted, Song Yan, if you are still straight, then cherish your current self, there is no need to push yourself there. Go to a dead end, otherwise you will regret it one day."