Kai
"W- What? Are you joking?" I asked. My forehead was giving out excessive sweat that I never knew I could produce. A boy has never been involved in too many sports before. I do get into sports but... ah fuck it. Yeah, okay, fine, I never even join any sports at school. Satisfied?
But what's important here... what was at stake here... was that this guy... this handsome buffoon here just ask me if I would believe him for real this time if he'd say he wants me. What do you say? Should I say 'yes'? Or should I pay back his fucking teasing games with a hell 'no'? To both way, get the fuck off from my brain because I... had chosen to stutter and stay quiet. Relevant to this situation? Of course, it does, dude, being silence means so many things. So, I want him to figure it out himself. We ought to make a stupid brain think sometimes, do we? It was what intellectual does.
Stan continues his smile, the gorgeous smile that I seem to be seeing now actually. It was a new sight and honestly, I like this sight of him. "What? Do you think I'm joking?" He chuckled, running his hand through his dark hair which messes up his hair into a hotter look. I had options if I could just date his hair instead because I think the hair makes the boy. Or was it the face? Because I could also just date his face. Attitude and personality? We... can pretend that never exist.
I kept quiet, not knowing what to say to the male. Well, I have tons of responses that were ready to go, but they are too 'gay' to be spoken out in front of someone that you don't know is okay with the idea of it.
"Oh come on, Kai. I was just testing ya, you know how I am, right?" He asked, now his smile are a much wider than it was before. Why the sudden friendliness? After all the teasing, the imitating, the chocolate that he stole, and... after that bump, why would he be so friendly to me anyway?
I sighed, looking down to my feet with zero enthusiasm with that question. "I don't know Stan, I really don't know you. We're just strangers who accidentally bumped onto each other. How is that making me know you?" His smile now was beginning to fade away from his handsome complexion, giving me a facade that shows sadness but at the same time, regret. But then something just sparks in his eyes, an emotion that gives out a meaning of not giving up in a sense of how I would never give up for my chocolates.
"Well... let's get to know each other then. Um... we could hang out after school, I mean... if you want to," said the male as he had his hands intertwining each other. Was he nervous or something? Yet again, he was asking me to hang out with him. That was... sweet... of him.
"You wouldn't mind hanging out... with me?" I asked, feeling the insecurity kick in if anyone ever saw a hot guy like him hanging out with a normal guy like me.
He smiles softly. "Why would I? It would be fun,"
"I... well, I...,"
"Just hang out with me, we're not gonna do it here Chico," He chuckled, then walks away from me with his hands both in the pocket of his dark jeans. I was stunned by the fact that his sentence had a double meaning to me. One that just relishes the dream that I had about him this morning. You know... doing it... the way he spoke it so subtly is just so hot too. Can I ever get away from that?
I wave a small goodbye to him as he walks with his back facing me. I know he couldn't see it but I just wanted to do it. If he's not seeing it then maybe other people would, and that would be weird to see someone waving to absolutely no one. After that, I go back to where Charlie and Liara were at. Both of them took notice of my presence and a cheeky smile grew on Liara's face.
"So... what took you so long?" Asked the girl as she faces me. I glance at both of them and let out an awkward smile of how the attention just randomly being thrown at me.
I let out an inelegant laugh, uncomfortable by the stares. "Why? Is there something wrong?" I asked her back, my eyes were searching for any answer on the open air to figure out what was going on.
"I don't know, Kai. Is there something wrong?" She chuckled, then goes to mind her own business as she continues giggling like a child who just saw something funny. Should I be worried that my friend here is acting like a mental patient? Or was I getting mental?
I turn to look at Charlie, his face shows confusion as well... meaning that he didn't pay attention to anything while I was away. I raise a brow towards him, asking him silently about what Liara was referring to. "What? How should I know?" He spoke, then goes back to face his phone, playing his game. I scratch my head at both of these weirdos, having no clue of how much confusion the vibe was on this table.
In the end, I just let it slide as I hear Liara giggling here and there and Charlie grunting at how many he died in that game of his.
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Walking out of the school's main door, I rush to get to Charlie's car to wait for him but then, out of nowhere, I was being blocked by Stan when he suddenly appears in front of me like Batman always does when he suddenly disappears during a conversation. Very dramatic, I know.
I realize that he said he wants to hand out with me but I didn't take it for real. But now that he was in front of me, I knew it was now, and boy does he look great as always. I just wanna eat what he eats to look that good too.
"Where're you going? My motorcycle is over there, come," He chuckled, then pursuing to take my arm with him as he drags me to his motorcycle. Ah, how sensational and wondrous it is to just run away with your crush. Take me away, my dear high school sweetheart! I couldn't take this suffering from society's mentality no more! The way his hand just grasp onto my arm just makes me flutter like how any butterfly would but here I am, still a caterpillar that just waits to change when I have the courage to go out of that closet.
I blushed at how serious he was on this 'hang out'. "Well, um, where are we going?" I asked when he let go of my arm and goes on to take two helmets and gave one to me. I made sure to text my mom that I would be late if we're to be going out with him and also Charlie that I couldn't have a ride home with him because... I was busy. I didn't want to tell him that Stan would be taking me home later on because that would be causing up questions, yet, Charlie isn't the one to ask many questions. I think Liara would be that one.
"Somewhere, it's a place where I get to know people better," He chuckled then hops onto his Harley. I had no other thing to say or to do than just follow what he does. But then I stop. I was riding on a motorcycle with him. What's more, is that it was his. And I was riding him... wait oh my god, no, what I meant what I was riding WITH him. You pervert twat.
My face was burning red of the thought of riding him. With him laying down underneath me as I move up and down as we go into a bumpy road. With how the grunts and the groans would erupt from both of our mouth with how much pressure it was inside. There was this heat in my chest that just made me hard to breathe properly because of that imagination and how subliminal it was.
"Come on, hop on. Or... do you wanna hop on me?" He smirked that just totally blew my mind in shattered pieces of rocks. The explosion of my conscious was not making my face redder than it was before. Without any further thoughts, I get on his motorcycle with my hands having nowhere to put itself. Without warning, his hands crept to grab mine and rest both of my hands on his stomach. The contagious blushing that I had was just exposing itself and my hands were trembling because of how nervous I was as well. He treats me so soft and so delicate. The way he grabs my hands just shows how fragile I was but I wasn't. I was a guy, but he made me feel like I could break down into fracture pieces of glasses.
He put on his black glasses and turn back to look at me. "Ready?"
"Y- yeah...,"
"Hope you like the journey," He smiled and off we go, going to someplace where he would take me.
In that wrinkle of time, I could just feel myself be free as the wind was blowing against us with how fast he was going. Now that I was here with him and enjoying the wonder of nature as the orange was mixing with the blue of the sky, with how the trees were fading from the sides... I could finally just feel how does it feel to be in love, well in my perspective that is.
There was just something different with how he was treating me now in comparison to how we started off a few days ago. My heart was telling me things that my brain could not take. That he was something that I expected when I first saw him back in front of my house. My feelings were growing stronger and stronger towards the male. It's just that he was just so young, so carefree, and just adventurous and ways I like myself to be as well.
My journey for this year was supposed to be just myself, going through the difficulties of life and the endless process of studying and trying to get the best of the best for my future. When he entered, it seems like he was putting himself into my journey and yet, I had no reason to say no. I want him to be on my journey.
We continue the ride for another twenty minutes until we arrive at a dock that shows the sun setting slowly into the water. I got off from the motorcycle, taking my helmet off as I walk towards the edge of the dock and see the ethereal scenery in front of us. Stan's footsteps were heard in my ears as he got closer to where I was, I could feel that he was smiling at my reaction.
"Beautiful, isn't it? I used to come here a lot before when I met someone new. Come... sit down," He spoke, sitting down at the edge of the dock. I follow suit after, sitting next to him but leaving the right amount of space between us. I didn't want to fill up his space.
I glance at him, the way the sun was shining over his face, that shows how his eyes were a very dark shade of brown instead of the dark eyes I assumed he had. His features just show a different light now when we're this close. He looks at me, smiling. "What do you want to know about me?" He suddenly asked, breaking the silence.
"You do remember right that we go here to get to know each other? So... shoot," He continues, making a big lump in my throat. It was just strengthening by how impaired I was to just speak out. Nevertheless, I tried to come out with something. "What you s-said earlier... you come here when you meet... someone new? What does that mean?"
He stares ahead into the sunset, taking a moment to answer my question. I was scared if I triggered something traumatic. I was known to be very poking. But instead, he looks at me with a dreamy smile.
"Whenever I like someone, I will always take them here... it's a spot to just let loose and get to know each other...," My breathing just stops. Whenever he likes someone? Does he like me?! He likes me?! "-And... it's just a place to throw away any nervousness," He's nervous? This was new to me, it's something that makes me wants to jump at the edge of the cliff. The way he was feeling now just makes me melt into perfect liquid. How can he be this sweet?
Yet something was off. "But...?" I know there was a but in there someone, his face just shows clearly that something was being hidden deep down in his heart. Now he was scrunching his face. "I- I mean, I understand if you don't wanna talk about it... it's not like it's important for me to know about-"
"I stop liking people," He cuts me off, having me silenced from my ramble. "that's all,"
Then, he looks back at me. The lyrical smile of his just came back to his face, it hurts to see him after telling me something sensitive for him. "So... what about you, Kai? What do I need to know about you?"
Then I smile, as well.
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