Nkosiyabo Pov
It's been two months since I last saw Hlelo. The last time I saw her was when they took islwane out of me. The process left me very traumatized.We did many rituals to get rid of the bad energies that were fighting against Hlelo and I being together but somehow we still not together. I have also went back to therapy just so that I can learn how to love someone without hurting that person and today might be my last session of my healing.
Everything seems to be picking up. We got a sponsor to assist us with rebuilding our village and we have been blessed with rain even though only special people can call for it including my sister and baby girl. I don't understand why this gift thing is always given mostly to girls there's a few males that are selected to be sangomas.
I took a shower and wore my powder blue Brentwood with my uzzi t-shirt along with my blue carvela. I topped it off with my K -way hat and my watch looking like a typical bhinca or Zulu guy. I prayed and left for my appointment.
I played umaskandi on the way just to calm down because I was getting impatient due to traffic. I arrived right on time and I was paid for my session before I went to my therapists office.
" Good day your Majesty" Dr Vilakazi said
Dr Vilakazi aka Dumisani is my therapist. The guy who worked on my stubborn ass and became my friend . He is also one of the people who went through rape during their childhood hence it was easy for me to try to open up.
" Sure John" I said knowing very well how much he hates the name.
" Masimba akho Nkosiyabo ( your sh*t) " he said
I laughed. Our session's always start this way.
Dumisani : " Back to work ndoda , how do you really feel since it is your last session ? "
It's funny how we were laughing a minute ago but became serious same time.
Me : " free I guess and very happy. "
Dumisani : " please elaborate"
Me : " I am free from all the baggage that I carried with me and I am happy that I can finally be a better person to everyone around me. "
Dumisani : " I get that you are free but are you really free ? Did you open up to your family? "
Me : " Eish I haven't spoken to them. I am planning on telling them tomorrow afternoon, I have already scheduled a meeting for us and I'm not really free but I know that my family will never change how they see me. "
Dumisani : " Are you really sure because from the look of your eyes I can see that you are not certain but how would you feel if they react in a way that you didn't expect ? "
Me : " I really don't know but mostly I would be hurt. "
Dumisani : " Did you do my assignment that I gave you? "
Me : " Nope I couldn't. To be honest with you, I am very scared of her reaction. The last time I saw her was when I allegedly strangled her when they were trying to exorce my demons. I didn't know how that thing was going to react but I feel like it's unfair that I am being punished for something that I supposedly did unwillingly "
Dumisani : " Try reaching out to her. You might find out that she is waiting for you to heal. She knows about your journey to recovery right so try reaching out to her I believe you guys love each other and I would really appreciate it if you could bring her with you on your next appointment. "
Me : " Whoa kanti isn't today my last session. I mean that's what you said the last. Wena kahle kahle ufuna ukungidla imali yokugcina. ( You actually want to finish my last money. "
Dumisani: " Nkosiyabo you still have unresolved issues that you haven't resolved and as your doctor I don't think you are ready to walk this journey alone. "
Me : " Yoh "
Dumisani : " trust me on this one. Let me help you walk this journey of becoming a better man. You are very lucky that I'm not admitting you but treating you like an outpatient. Time is up I have a meeting in few minutes time. "
I thought I was finally done with therapy. Yes it is very helpful but I didn't want to be stuck there forever, I am a Zulu man. People cannot know that I am attending therapy.
I drove to KFC, I was very hungry since I skipped breakfast. When I got there I ordered 9 piece bucket for my family, streetwise 3 and all star box. The 9 piece was for my sister and my baby girl.
My order came and just as I was about to leave, I saw Hlelo with this guy walking together, they are both wearing their scrubs. The guy is even holding her hand . I could feel my anger building up but I remembered what my therapist said " never act on your anger. "
" Sthandwa sam ( my love ) " I said kissing her cheek's.
Hlelolwenkosi pov
I have finally found the balance between my work and my gift. Yes I do help people both traditionally and medically. Today I had a patient who has an abusive partner and she only found out today that her boyfriend infected her with HIV. The lady was distraught. I ended up getting emotional too but I quickly went to my office before anyone could see me.
Luckily the lady was my last patient that I had to check before my lunch. I packed my stuff and went to my car only to find Dr Mlangeni waiting for me. Yoh the guy is a pain , he just doesn't get the picture. Just because his father is the mayor, he thinks everyone owns him.
" Dr Mlangeni how can I help you? " I said feeling very annoyed.
" Babe don't call me that I am on lunch and I figured I could take you out for lunch. " He said all smiles
The guy has my ex's characteristics not Makhosonke but you know who.
Me : " Firstly I am not your babe secondly I am very unavailable for lunch. Can you please move out of my car "
Him : " Well I am not so sure about that. Please if you don't enjoy your lunch break I promise I will leave you alone. "
Me : " Ok only if you are going to leave me alone. "
I don't know why I agreed but maybe this is what I need to get over my sombre mood.
We drove with his BMW M3 while he played hip hop songs. Red flag number one. I couldn't even hold a conversation with him.
We went to KFC that is just a few minutes away from the hospital. Apparently he still needs to polish me to be the kind of girl that is fit to be his mind you I am not the one running after him.
We went inside and I saw Nkosiyabo looking me and this idiot decided to hold my hand like we are a couple. I could see his anger from his eyes but he quickly controlled himself. All of a sudden the dude walked towards us.
" Sthandwa sam ( my love) " he said kissing my cheeks
I couldn't be more happier. It's like he knows I need to be rescued.
" Babe I'm so happy to see you " I said hugging him
I know I last spoke to him two months ago but that's because I was still fixing my stuff that needed my undivided attention.
Nkosiyabo: " Babe who is this ? "
I thought that Dr Mlangeni would get the idea that I don't want him but no uguy just has to be dramatic.
" I am her current rich boyfriend. " The guy said
Nkosiyabo looked at me and I knew that I have to assure him that the guy is lying. I'm sure he was going to beat the so called rich boyfriend.
Nkosiyabo: " Babe uthini lo ( what is he saying ) "
I did the unexpected and kissed Nkosiyabo right in front of people and wow I didn't think my first kiss with him would be so magical. I was still enjoying the kiss but was disturbed by people cheering.
" Ashambe " Nkosiyabo said in smiles
I smiled at him and we both left. I didn't even see when my so called boyfriend left.