Nkosiyabo's Pov
7 years ago
" Ungiphoxile mntanam kodwa kakhulu ngidiniwe. Lesiqumo osithathile asithembe uzosimela. ( You have disappointed me my child but I am mostly angry at you. Let's hope that you will be able to live with your decision ) "
"Mama ukhuluma ngani ? ( Mommy what are you talking about?"
" Unyoko uzama ukuk'tshela ukuthi abaphansi bakudinelwe. UNdlunkulu wabo osebashile ngenxa yakho. Isigodi sonke ayi ngenke iphinda ibenempilo engakuxolelanga UNdlunkulu. ( Your mother is trying to tell you that our ancestors are angry. Their queen has left because of you. The village will never ever have life until the queen forgives you. )"
" Kodwa baba umzala wakhe uthe uHlelolwenkosi ungidlisile beno mndeni wakhe angazi ngikholweni ( but father her cousin told me that Hlelolwenkosi and her family fed me a love potion. ) "
[Slap ]
" Mama ungishayeleni ngempama ngoba nginitshela iqiniso. Ushilo umzala wakhe wathi uHlelolwenkosi unamandla amakhulu uzokwenza ukuthi nani ningaboni ukuthi wenzani (Mama why did you slap me because I'm telling you the truth. Her cousin said Hlelolwenkosi has very powerful powers that can make you guys not to see what she is doing. ) "
" Mkami kulungile , ndodana ngicela ungabuyi uzofuna usizo lendlela le oyithathayo asithembe ozoyimela. Yonkinto ezoyenzeka Manje wazi ukuthi kungenxa yakho thina sigeza izandla kuwe ( It's okay my wife, son please don't come back to us and ask for help, let's hope you will be able to stand the journey that you are starting. Everything that will from now on is on you we wash our hands on you. ) "
End of flashback
I'm sitting in my room remembering the words that my parents told me. You know I was very stupid for listening to the biggest witch. My sister left me alone , when she came back from her initiation which took a month, she told me that she cannot leave with someone who decided to destroy people's lives. At first I didn't understand but now I do looking at the way everything is falling apart. People are dying, livestock and crops are dying like everything is in shambles. I tried looking for her but I was told to leave her alone.
" Daddy aunt Sihle is here. " My daughter said
I found out that I have a daughter with Zandile my ex at. She came a few years back to drop off the child apparently our child was standing in her way of happiness so I must take my brat , her words not mine mind you the child was only 6 months, she needed her mom but her mom didn't care. When I first held her, I saw my mom's eyes and decided to call her Buhlebemvelo because I believe she is the nature's beauty. Ever since then I became ubaba ka Buhle.
" Ok baby tell her I'm coming. " I said
I packed my stuff I ended not doing the work that I was supposed to do because of my thoughts.
" Mntaka ma " I said
It hurts me that everyone turned their backs on me including my family.
" Bhuti ngize la ngoba isikhathi sokuthi ulungise izinto sesifikile ( Brother I am here because the time for you to fix things has arrived. ) " she said
Me : " What am I supposed to do now ? How will I fix things when I don't even know how to get Hlelo to forgive and besides that I was warned not to go near her until she is ready to talk to me. "
Siphosihle : " Inkinga yakho ukuthi awukwazi ukusebenzisa inqondo. Not only did you hurt Hlelo but you also insulted the people who brought you guys together because you guys are still going to be together. Kwamele uxolise emadlozini akwa Mthethwa nasemadlozini akwa Zulu. Wonile bhuti wam angeke ngikukhohlise kodwa yonkinto ikuwe. ( Your problem is you don't know how to use your brain. )( You have to apologize to the Mthethwa's ancestors and the Zulu ancestors. You have wronged I won't lie but everything is up to you. ) "
She is right if I want everything to go back to normal then I have to fix things.
Me : " Ngiyabonga sis ngiyazi ngizoxolisa kanjani bengicela uzile nam ngoba indlela yenu angiyazi kahle ukuthi isebenza kanjani. Ngifuna ukuya emfuleni wase Empangeni ngiyoxolisa kodwa kwamele ngazi ukuthi ngiphatheni uma ngiya ( Thanks sis I know how I am going to apologize. Can you please fast with me as I do not really know how your journey works like. I want to go to the Empangeni river to apologize but I need to know what should I bring when I go. )
Siphosihle : " IÂ will help to fast but everything is on you. You will have to go next week and make sure that you return before umemulo ka Hlelo ( 21st birthday party). "
Me : Thanks sis and I am really sorry for the mess that we are in had it not been for me we wouldn't be here.
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The day for me to answer for my actions has arrived. I was told to bring a chicken and not a full chicken but a wing , a goat and also not a live one but the leg , a full white cow that is still a virgin , whiskey ( Gordon and Three ships ) and lastly coins that made a thousand and two 5 cents. It was a challenging task to do especially finding 5 cents.
I left early in the morning to the river and I saw someone who has Hlelo ' s physique walking past while I was driving towards the river but I didn't pay attention to it since I'm focused on my own nerves.
I got to the river and took everything out with the help of my guards and surprisingly the cow did not exactly give us any problems. Nerves are shooting sky high , I am trying by all means to calm myself down but I didn't expect to see umnumzane wamanzi ( water guardian).
I know I'm not supposed to say it's a snake but yoh this is one hell of a snake. I want to keep going but I'm not strong enough to keep going. I immediately went down on my knees and pleaded that umnumzane wamanzi to go back as he is scaring me.
Me : " Emakhosini ngegama ngingu Nkosiyabo wakwa Zulu. Ngize la ngizo cela ushwele futhi nokuxolisa ngokuphikisana nani. Kakhulu ngicela ukuxolisa ngokuphula indodakazi yenu inhliziyo. Iqiniso ukuthi ngiyamuthanda kodwa ngiyasaba ukuthi ngizomhlukumeza yingakho ngenze isenzo engisenzile. Ngiphethe konke enikufunile ngiyathemba ukuthi ngakho ningakwazi ukungixolela. (Greetings my name is Nkosiyabo Zulu I am here to ask for mercy and apologize for going against your word but mostly I would like to apologize for breaking your child's heart. The truth is I love her but I'm scared I am going to abuse her that's why I did what I did. I have everything that you have requested and I hope with it that you guys will be able to forgive. ) "
" Khuluma konke ukwezekile kuwe kusukela ngekathi umcane ( Say everything they did to you from when you were young. )" A voice suddenly said
I looked around trying to see where the voice came from but there is no one here. I could feel myself sweating Talking about my experience is not something that I am comfortable with no one knows about it besides my father.
"Â Â I was raped by my au pair and her boyfriend when I was 6 years old. At that time my parents were always working and hardly had time for me. My au pair would do it every night while the boyfriend would do it during the day when he fetches me from school. I was their submissive and I would get punished everytime I disobeyed. [ Wiping tears ]Â I ended up getting used to it and enjoying it but being raped resulted in me messing on my self. My anus could no longer hold faeces. That thing went on for two years until my father caught them red handed which was a miracle because they had planned to kill me that night. My father had returned from his business trip but came back earlier than expected. I'm sorry but I can't continue. " I said leaving everything as is.
I couldn't continue continue. I ran to the car. Luckily I told the guard to wait at Hlelo's house while I am here.
Hlelolwenkosi pov
I was first angry when they told me that Nkosiyabo is coming but when I listened to him my heart broke. It's been a week since I have been in the water and I am the one who came up with the ridiculous demands. I told them that I am not going forgive him unless we do things my way.
" Mkhulu bengicela ukuhamba sengixolile futhi ngizimisela ukulungisa yonkinto. ( Grandfather can I please go. I have forgiven and I am prepared to fix everything) " I said
" Hamba ngane yam isoka lakho likulindile ( Go my child your boyfriend is waiting for you. ) " Mkhulu said
I chuckled and went out of the water feeling very relieved even though there's still a lot but yeah.
I saw his car and there was no one besides him I guess he didn't come with anyone. I went closer to him, opened the car and hugged him.
Me : " I'm sorry for everything you went through. "
Nkosiyabo pov
I cried reliving everything when someone suddenly opened the door. I don't even want to look at who it is. I should have not come here because here am I crying like a weakling.
I felt arms surrounding me.
" I am sorry for everything you went through. "
I know that voice. I opened my eyes only to find the shock of my life Hlelolwenkosi was here and instead of stopping the hug I continued but somehow I felt safe in her arms. I didn't even know what to say but I couldn't stop my tears.
We stayed in that position for a while until she spoke.
Hlelo: " can I get in the car. "
Her voice is still as sweet as ever. I feel like it's a dream that she is here even though I am ashamed of my actions. I can't even look her in the eyes.
........to be continued.........