Two weeks later
It's been two weeks since Nkosiyabo went missing and there has been no communication between me and the ancestors. Siphosihle also went missing but I was told that she went to the caves and might return when they decide to return her. I am close to giving up because I am very angry at his selfish self. I wouldn't be this stressed had not been for him.
I even have eye bags due to not getting enough sleep like I haven't been sleeping ever since Nkosiyabo went missing. So I took a bath around 5 am since my eyes have been open and wore my usual attire which is a white dress and a white head wrap.
I prayed before going out only for me to meet the shock of my life. Busisiwe was standing next to me and I couldn't believe it , it's been a while since I saw her especially after she suddenly ghosted me.
" Wele ( Twin) " she said
Busisiwe looked different, she had lost weight and had eye bags but words failed me I didn't know what to say. A part of me is angry but also a part of me thinks there's a valid reason for her disappearance.
Busisiwe : "Hlelo I know you are really angry but everything that I did was for you but for I came here to help you get Nkosiyabo. I know where he is but I can only take you to him if you promise to cleanse me of all the bad things I did. "
Me : "Busisiwe why now? I thought you were my sister from another mother as much as our friendship was not that long but I bonded with you and at least a heads up was going to be much appreciated. "
Busisiwe : " Hlelo there's a lot that you don't know about me and I will tell you everything later on after Nkosiyabo is home. I am very sorry for everything but I don't regret it because I was protecting you and if I had to do it all over again, I would do it within a wink of an eye. "
When I look at her eyes, I saw a reflection of myself in terms of the emotional pain that we are undergoing.
Me : " Busi mntase khuluma angingeke ngikwazi ukucenda uma ungasho ukuthi kwezakaleni. (Busi my sister speak, I can't help you if you say what's going on. )
Busi : " Hlelo I only have 5 days left to prepare you guys please I will explain later. For now please call your grandma and the lady that is hiding herself from me. "
Me : " Thingo would never hide away from you, why would she hide. "
Busi :" like I said there's a lot you don't know now hurry up go and fetch them and where can I put my stuff. "
Me : " leave them here I will be back. "
I don't know how to feel about Busisiwe's return but like I thought, she said she has a reason for her disappearance but what scares me is the part where she said she left to protect me , what was she protecting me from.
I went to the room that MaDingiswayo and Thingo are using and asked them to follow me. MaDingiswayo was not really happy with me waking her up , she was pretty annoyed but I explained why and she understood shem she is just like me , loves her beauty sleep.
As soon as we appeared , I saw Busisiwe running to MaDingiswayo and kneeling down crying for forgiveness. I couldn't understand what was going on and why was she asking for forgiveness.
MaDingiswayo just looked at Busi with tears falling down. You could see how each tear carried pain. Thingolwezulu tried holding MaDingiswayo but she refused probably to not allow her grandchild to read the past.
Thingolwezulu : " Gogo kwezenjani ubani lo yini le enihlanganisayo. ( Granny what's going on, who is the this ? What business do you have with her ?)"
Busi : "Â [ Wailing] Ngiyaxolisa gogo, ngiyaxolisa kakhulu ngakho konke bengazi ukuthi bafuna ukwezani kodwa angikhulumanga.( I am sorry granny, I am very sorry for everything. I knew what they wanted to do but I kept quiet. )"
MaDingiswayo kept on looking at Busisiwe, she was not showing how she really felt the only thing that made us assume it was pain was the tears and shame they kept on flowing like the famous Nile river. Confusion is playing with both Thingo and I. We can see that between Busisiwe and MaDingiswayo, there's a lot of history and non of us knows about it.
" Thingo what's going on do you know who Busi is ? " I asked whispering to Thingo
" Hlelo I know nothing and I can't even use my gift to find out but this whole thing is stressing me. " She replied
" Ngicela nisishiya kancane sizonibiza. ( Can you please leave us for a moment we will call you. ) " MaDingiswayo said
Thingo wanted to say something but she was given the eye. You know the eye that makes you shiver and swallow your words yep that one. We left the two to talk and went in the main house to give them privacy only for MaDingiswayo and Busi to leave the yard going God knows where.
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It's been two hours since they left and I am starting to get worried especially because time is ticking. Thingo is also pacing up and down and not only is she adding on top of my stresses but she is also frustrating the hell out of me.
My mom and grandmother have no idea about what's going on and they are not even paying attention wherelse I'm panicking.
I decided to check my phone only to find a message from an unknown number and whoever who sent the message, sent me a picture of Nkosiyabo and Queen naked in bed. To think I am busy worrying over someone who is having the best time in his life Nx.
I went outside after receiving the image and I feel like going far away from everyone. I don't know where I'm going but I am letting my feet to do that walking. Well my feet took me to the river I guess the river is my solitude. I took off my shoes and went to my favorite rock. My heart is painful. I don't understand why did the ancestors have to put me in such a position.
I kept on sitting on the rock looking at the water flowing in the river. My hair suddenly shrinked and my heart started beating fast which means someone is here and obviously not someone who is alive like me but one of the ancestors. I looked around trying to see who is it only for my great grandmother to arrive in the most beautiful dress ever with her hair wrapped around a white head wrap. Her dress was pure white with pearls going from the collar to the bottom.
Me : "Gogo ngizamile ngihlulekile , gogo mina angingeke ngisakwazi ukuqhubeka ngomshado ngicela ningikhulule. Noma sengingafa kulungile ngizwile. ( Gogo I've tried and failed, gogo I can't continue with the marriage please free me. Even if I die it's okay I've had it. )"
Great grandmother : " Mntanam kodwa yini le eniyenzayo. ( But my child what are you doing? ) "
Me : " Gogo ngikhathele namanje ngithole isthombe sika Nkosiyabo nomzala wami bengaqokanga. Njalo mina ngiyahlukumezeka kodwa uNkosiyabo akahlukumezeki , angisakhoni. I was willing but he's not so let him suffer and not me but please gogo ngicela ungikhulule. ( Gogo I am tired even now I saw a picture of Nkosiyabo and my cousin naked. Everytime I am the one who is suffering but Nkosiyabo is not , I can't anymore. ..... please relief me )"
Great grandmother : " Kulungile mntanam kodwa kwamele wazi ukuthi wena no Nkosiyabo nidalelwene ( it's okay my child but you have to know that you and Nkosiyabo are meant for each other. ) "
Me : " if we are truly meant to be we will find our way to each other but okwamanje ngicela ukukhululeka futhi ngicela ningivumele ngihambe ngiye eCape Town ngizobuya uma sengiqeda ukufunda. ,( for now I am asking for freedom and can you guys also allow me to go to Cape town, I will return after I'm done with my studies. )"
Great grandmother : "Â If we agree for you to go , how long is it going to take for to come back ? "
Me : "I am only going to take 7 years and that's it. I want to be cardiologist just so that I can help my community I promise I will back in no time. "
Great grandmother : " kulungile hamba. ( It's okay go ) "
" Ngiyabonga gogo ngibonga kakhulu ( Thanks gogo, thank you very much) " I said and rushed in her arms
As much she is dead , she still lives in me and I can still interact with her. I am very grateful that she agreed the only people left to convince is my mom and grandmother.
I left the river feeling better and peaceful. I made peace and I decided to focus on my future. I walked home feeling the cold breeze hitting my face looking at how beautiful the nature is.
When I got home I found Busisiwe crying hysterically. Her screams are so painful which makes me wonder what really happened to her and who she is since it seems like I know nothing about her.
Me : " Busi what going on why are you crying? "
Busisiwe : " Hlelo I have ruined people lives. I have done things that I am not proud of. I am really sorry. "
Me : " Busi what did you do? "
Nerves kicked in
Busisiwe : " Hlelo please understand that I had no choice. So uhm my name is Busisiwe Maphumulo I am from eMsinga I knew about you a long time ago before we met. My parents made made a pact with the devil in fact they are devil angel's. Your father is part of the cult but my parents are the leaders. I was taught that no one should be above me , that I am meant to destroy people's lives from a young age and at that time I looked up to my parents. I didn't see anything wrong instead I was enjoying being a witch. So when I was 13 I was given my first assignment which was to destroy the most powerful healer in KwaNongoma. They took me there and left me alone. The plan was to make the healer love me like her child , get every single knowledge of how she does her stuff then strike. I had to mask myself so that she cannot sense and I was the perfect person because I was still pure. Luckily the healer couldn't see anything but she would always say there's danger approaching but she couldn't see from where. I lived with the healer for months and for the first time in my life I felt a mother's love something that I have never experienced ever since I was born. It was a foreign feeling since all I know is to never show any emotions. I loved the healer, she became my mom and from there I realized that I couldn't continue with the mission. [ Crying]
Me : " Busi but you didn't continue with the mission or did you? "
Busisiwe : " I tried telling my parents but they threatened to kill me. I knew that they were not joking so I had no choice. I was given two days to kill the healer and her family since her gift was a generational gift. On the day that I was supposed to kill the healer, I confessed to everything and the healer broke down , she was hurt at how I betrayed her. Her tears made it very difficult for me to kill her but my family had already planned to kill her. My family somehow managed to make the healer seem like a witch so that the community could kill her and her family. Everyone believed my family when they said the healer was the one who was killing all the virgins in the community. They burnt everything down and my family forcefully took me home unaware that I was trying to use my powers to safe the healer. Luckily I managed to safe the healer and her granddaughter but I couldn't save her child. When my family found out , I was punished severally, I was locked up in a room full of dead people for two years only eating once a year. I was only released two years ago and only because I was the perfect candidate for the mission. "
My head is spinning at this whole information.
Me : " What was the mission? Oh wait I met you two years ago and you said you knew about me for a long time please don't tell me I was next on your mission. "
Busisiwe : " Hlelo I was released on the condition that I kill and bring your blood to the cult to prove my loyalty. Your blood is very powerful and you are the only one who can bring them down. When I met you I expected you to be someone very disrespectful or something so that you can make my work easier but you were the opposite. They kept taps on how I handled the matter but what they didn't know was that I have the power to create a clone , someone to act like me. Being your friend made me realize that family is not everything, yes I had to make you a bit sick so that they can think that I am still on the mission and luckily your ancestors were calling you so I knew that you were going to be safe but I realized that killing people is not the life that I want to live. I don't know how but they were about to carry the mission themselves so I had to protect you. I didn't care whether I was going to die or not. I made sure that I protected you but they found out and I was again throw in the room full of dead people for a year. Being in the dead room gave me enough time to connect with my ancestors but I couldn't connect with them on a deeper level because I am dirty. I have to be cleansed and I can only be cleansed by you only. I am really sorry for coming to you under false pretenses. "
My ears can't believe what they are hearing. How could she do that
Me : " Busisiwe how could you ? Is that why suddenly left and how do I know that I am safe now that you are here ? And how do you know MaDingiswayo ? "
Busisiwe : " I am sorry , I had no choice but that's not why I am here. I am here to help you so that you can live your life freely and also I want to save my child. I don't want my child to live the life that I had to live and MaDingiswayo is the healer that I was talking about. "
I can't believe it. My trust just broke I don't even know if I should trust her again. I'm hurt I won't lie and now there's a baby that I didn't know about. I can't...
Me : " Busisiwe what baby are you talking about ? "
Busisiwe : " I'm three months pregnant with my father's child. He has been raping me for years but when my clone came alive he went on with it , he couldn't feel the difference and I am grateful for that. Ngiyaxolisa Hlelo I'm really sorry. Please believe me. I need to help you but I can't while I'm still dirty. I have spoken to MaDingiswayo and she has forgiven me I just need forgiveness from you. "
" Busisiwe I'm hurt, I can't believe that my existence would make people even want to kill me. I'm sorry that you had to go through that. I will cleanse you tomorrow morning and that's it. As soon as I am done, I am leaving. " I said crying and left
I am tired honestly, it seems like pain loves me. I just wish I hadn't returned from the dead , I would have been living a peaceful life unlike the one that I am living where my crime is to live.
I didn't even go to the main house I just went to my room and cried. I can't believe it.