Two years later
I have never been so nervous in my life. I am only left with two hours before I get my matric certificate from thee Angie Motsekga , the minister of education. Yes you heard me , I received a message two days ago from my school stating that I should come to school in my full school uniform mind you at that time I had no idea where my uniform was so yeah two days after I am here at ORT premier hotel waiting to receive my awards.
A lot has happened in the past three years. I deleted my all social accounts and blocked almost everyone. I also moved to a boarding school in Johannesburg just to be far away from everyone and of course my mom was not exactly happy with my decision but she understood why I had to leave. Nkosiyabo broke my heart, he left me broken inside yoh that guy , he took the last piece of confidence that I had. Not only did he send a letter on my special day but he posted my private pictures , pictures that were very dear to me on every social media platforms and humiliated me.
I was called names , got threatening messages, men old enough to be my father were promising me money only if I showed them what was underneath my clothes. I was really heartbroken, Nkosiyabo Zulu broke me into pieces, he took my self confidence and my self esteem. I am too conscious of what I wear. I don't think I will ever forgive him.
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My mom is here with me as my supporter and I couldn't have been more excited than that. My eyes are tired of the flashes of light and I am also tired of sitting down because it is not helping instead it is making me more anxious.
According to the invite the event was supposed to start at 13:00 but it has been over an hour and we are still waiting for the minister of education. Seeing that the event is not going to start anytime soon so I decided to call my friends. Yes you heard me right I now have friends Amahle, Anele and Karabo and truly speaking, they are the best people ever.
" Ntwana!!!!" They all screamed
" Haibo guys so vele you guys don't want me to hear my name when they call me since you are hurting my eardrums. " I said
" Uthini lo " Karabo said
" Hai oe phela she is rubbing shoulders with the big boys,so she has to speak English using the British accent ( faking the accent). " Anele said
" ( Laughing) Anele kodwa ngikuthathephi like what are saying my sister and what's with the 'british accent '. By the way what do you mean when you say I am rubbing shoulders with the big boys ? In other words I am only around males and not females ouch ngaze ngaba hurt. " I said
" No mahn I didn't mean like that I was just saying in other words that you are rubbing shoulders with celebrities speaking of celebs have you seen any hot guys lapho?" Anele said
Anele is the most craziest person and the most straight forward person in our group. She is loud compared to her twin Amahle. Amahle is quite reserved but crazy in a innocent way she is more like me and she is the mediator in our friendship. Ukarabo yena aka KB is the same like Anele but she is the violent one she is quick to beat the hell out of a person and that's what I like about her.
" Anele !!!" Amahle said
" Yini phela I'm done with high school manje. I made promise to never date until I'm officially done with high school. " Anele replied.
" Guys I thought we were called to cheer upon Hlelo but now you guys especially wena Anele ubusy ukhuluma ngabafana. " Karabo said
" Okay guys I have to love and leave you. Mrs Angie has arrived , time for me to go and do the honours. " I said
" Ungakhathazeki we are watching you just waiting for your entrance. " Amahle said
" Ncooo thanks " I said
" But don't you dare take forever because honestly speaking I don't have the patience. " Anele said
" Me too " Karabo said
" Okay sharp ke. " I said
( Dropping the call).
I made my way to my seat while waiting for the minister of education to begin her speech. Well I must say, Ms Angie has a lot to say because it is now 16:00 which means it has already been two plus hours since she started speaking. Pupils are starting to fall asleep and I think I am going to join them because wow all I keep on hearing is how hard the was , how many learners passed in each province and off course provinces with the highest pass rate and the province with the lowest pass rate.
When it was finally the time to announce the top learners I went to the bathroom just to refresh myself and to calm the nerves down. When I was done I checked my phone and I saw that I had three missed calls from Sphamandla my boyfriend. My mood was suddenly ruined but I decided to ignore him and get back to ceremony.
I was so astonished to hear that I got 7 distinctions in physics, maths, life sciences, geography, English, Afrikaans, and accounting. I got 90 percent in maths and physics then the rest was 80 percent and above. Everyone was clapping their hands for me like I was really happy and to top it all every universities in South Africa and in overseas were offering me a bursary all I had to do was to choose in which university do I want to study in.
As soon the ceremony was done which was around 19:00 my mom and I left. My mom was very excited, her eyes were glimmering with joy.
" Ngiyaziqhenya ngawe mntanam. Uyisibusiso sam. " My mom said with tears brimming in her eyes.
" Ngiyabonga ma kodwa eqinisweni kungexa yakho ukuthi ngibe la ngikhona namhlanje. Ngiyabonga ngokungeseka kwakho in everything. " I said
"It is my job nana. I am supposed to be your biggest supporter if I'm not who will be ? " My mom said
" No one mama. " I replied
" Exactly kodwa manje masiyekhaya ugogo wakho is waiting for us. "
" Ma can we please go tomorrow night I have a few things to take care of before I leave Jozi again. "
" Things like what? " My mom asked
" Mom I feel like I can't continue with my relationship with Sphamandla and that's why I took the decision to break up with him and also I want to spend the day with my friends. I know that they are going to UKZN but I am not sure if that where I am going. "
" Finally thank God I am so happy for you. You really have no idea how much have I been praying for you guys to break up. Do you need me there ?"
" No there's no need. "
" Ok I'll inform your grandma about the sudden changes. "
I just hope Sphamandla won't give me problems with breaking up with me. Sphamandla is my 15 months boyfriend that I met on my way home from school. At first he was a gentleman and it was my first time hearing a man say that he is in love with me. It was my first being asked out by a boy. I didn't believe him at first but he proved to me that he does love me. Well that's what I thought. It took him 8 months in the relationship for him to show me his true colours. It all started with with him being jealous over petty things like no one besides him was supposed to look at me. I thought okay maybe it's because he loves me but things escalated, I don't how or when did he found out about the whole social media thing but he made a point to always remind me of how lucky I am to be with him. He reminded me of how no one would want to be with me and that I should appreciate him. When I told my friends they were very angry at him and they advised me to break up with him. He didn't want to break up with me, he blantly refused to break up with me and told me to leave my friends they are not my friends. He even said that Anele wants him. I of course because I am stupid believed him. I almost ruined my friendship because of him. There was a time when he wanted to sleep with me , mind you before we went into the relationship I told him that him and I could never be intimate until I reach 21 and he told me that he understood. So that day he was drunk and I was alone in my mother's house , he came banging on the door luckily my mom had gone to a date with Mr Khumalo. I opened the door and he immediately kissed me harshly honestly he has never kissed me in a affectionate manner. I couldn't breathe so I pushed him. He got angry at the way I pushed him and said " it's because you are busy with your neighbor's son that's why you don't want to kiss me. "
I tried explaining and that's when I got my first slap. He pushed me on the floor and teared my shirt apart. I was crying and silently praying for God to help me. When he was about to enter me , he remembered that he had no condom on and that's when he got off me and went to his car. He told me to not go anywhere and wait for him but I couldn't let myself lose my virginity in a cruel manner like that so I ran into my room, locked the door and pressed the alarm button. Thankfully he got scared and left. That's was the last time I saw or spoke to him. No one besides Amahle knows about the incident not even my mom knows about it but I know that she is suspecting something.
I am only going to tell my friends and my mom tomorrow so that when I go to kzn , I go on a new clean slate.
Author's note
Hi guys sorry for the late updates. I am about to write my exams but when I get time I will update.