The Emotions
Again my brain didn't register the words before they flew right out of my stupid brainless mouth! I didn't actually want to become a Creature, she had just said she could do everything, so it was a general question. It didn't interpret that way once out my mouth, though.
"Please don't answer that. You don't have to. I didn't mean that question, honestly. Can I have something to drink?"
Why would I even say that, I mean, sure Alexander can be a prick but I don't not deserve a mate. I hadn't thought it would be a mass murderer but still, I deserved one and clearly the moon goddess thinks he deserves one too.
She nodded, "There should be something for you in the fridge."
I turned to walk towards the kitchen, opening the fridge I saw some orange juice. Pulling out the bottle I poured myself some juice before returning the bottle into the fridge. I took a sip, savouring the taste.
"Is it safe to go outside?"
"Yes," Aiah answered.
I quickly walked outside once I had received the go ahead. I breathed in the woodsy smell and smiled. I look out towards Nathaniel's territory and sighed. I wanted to go see him. I had grown so close to him that not being able to go and see him whenever I wanted was a little sad.
This isn't a life I want to live if I hadn't known earlier that this was a very irrational thing to do I sure as heck knew now. I probably won't even make it two days at this rate.
Sighing, I turned around ready to walk back into the cottage feeling fed up with myself. As soon as I had my back to the woods I heard a twig snap, gasping â afraid I might be seen â I quickly turned back around eyes as wide as saucers.
Nathaniel came out of the woods wearing basketball shorts. I stood still, scared that he actually could see me and Aiah didn't do the spell well.
However, Nate walked right past me, not even casting me a single glance not even stopping to make sure he smelt something. I made sure not to touch him as I ran past him through the door I had left open, afraid that he would shut me out if I let him go through it first.
A door 'opening itself' would be a dead giveaway.
Natalia smiled a big beaming smile when she saw him, her already radiant face lighting up at the sight of her son. I could feel the love she had for him. He was her blessing after all, without him I imagine she would have really lost it and gone after Nate's father. Probably have killed him and his mate before any Russo was even born.
He was her saving grace, the Moon gifted her Nathaniel with purpose. He was not an abomination like he thought â he was a gift.
"What's the matter?" She pulled him out of a hug, her arms still on his shoulders.
"Why does something have to be wrong for me to be here?" He muttered, moving out of her grasp to pour himself some water.
"Two visits in one day? We both know what that means." She says.
"Yeah. Yeah," He waves his hand dismissively.
Natalia looked at him expectantly, clearly waiting for him to vent to her as I assume he always does when he visits twice in one day.
"Elijah left," He sighed, "I've never seen Alex so distraught."
"What about you?"
"Me? What about me? She's not my mate."
"Yes, but she's your friend."
I scoffed, I see what you're doing lady. The guilt trip won't work I'm staying put, Nathaniel's a big boy, he won't die from a little sadness.
"I'm angry. I can't believe she actually did it. When she asked for my help, I thought she wouldn't go through with it. How could she actually be so..." He shook his head.
"It's barely been a day and you look distraught." Natalia chimes.
"Sad, maybe. Distraught, definitely not. I just wish she would realise how much Alex actually cares about her."
"From what you've told me he doesn't really show it."
Told her? So she didn't really read my thoughts, Nate has already told her my whole life story. Guess I should have expected it.
"Oh, come on. Alex never shows his affection for anyone. And when he does it's not in the typical I love you kind of way."
"How is she to know that? She barely knows him. She knows you more than she knows him."
I officially love Natalia. Her responses were spot on and probably what I would've answered. She was getting the whole story not just listening to her son sob.
"I guess so. Well, what does it matter now? She's not here."
"Or is she?"
She clicked her fingers and what do you know? Nathaniel's head snapped right to me, he opened his mouth then closed it. He looked over at his mother and threw his hands up in disbelief.
"Really?" I looked at Natalia not believing she really just did that.
My goodness, I knew she wasn't to be trusted. I just didn't think it would take one visit and a half-ass sob rant to get her to zap me back.
"This is your grand hiding spot? Unbelievable." He looked at his mother, "Why were you hiding her?"
"Oh, I didn't. He did." She pointed at Isaiah.
"Of course. Big brother to the rescue." He rolled his eyes.
"I'm not coming back." I cross my arms.
"Fine. Cloak her again, Ma."
* * *
At first, I couldn't believe it was that easy to get my way. When I had said I'm leaving he was so uncooperative I wanted to shoot him. Half a day later and he's all for me being cloaked and away from his brother? Should've known it was too good to be true.
Natalia happily cloaked Isaiah and I again once Nate explained himself, he was taking me to his house. He claimed once I saw how distraught his brother was I'll come to my senses and see how much this is hurting him. Therefore showcasing that Alexander Russo does indeed have feelings.
I had no choice but to agree, it was the only way to not have Nate snitch so here we were, on the way to his home. I still wanted to shoot him because every damn second he would say, I just need you to see him. You will understand how much he cares when you see him.
At this point, I just wanted to return just so he could shut the hell up.
When we finally arrived Nathaniel opened the door to his house, Alexander was standing there awaiting his arrival. I'm not quite sure what was happening with him. He was shaking but it wasn't out of anger.
"Does she know where she is? Can she locate her?"
Nate sighed, "No."
"Fuck," Alexander ran a shaky hand through his hair, "I'm just going to have to go and find her. Maybe her sister can help. Maybe there's someplace she's always wanted to go, y'know? Chances are she'd go there."
"Spain," Nate muttered.
"What?"
"That's a place she has always wanted to go. I doubt she'd go that far though, she's probably right under our noses."
Alexander was staring at Nate and I could see the regret in his eyes, "I don't know a damn thing about her. Just her fucking name. I'm pathetic. I wasted so much time pushing her away now I have no time with her. I don't get to touch her, see her smile, nothing. I should know where she'd run off to. I shouldn't have let her go. I shouldn't have pushed her away. Fuck, I'm so stupid." He sat on a step, his hands grabbing his head, elbows on his knees.
I know I shouldn't have but I went to go sit next to him and placed my head on his shoulder. I felt him stiffen as though feeling the pressure but he quickly relaxed realising nothing happened.
He looked so bad, helpless even I hated seeing him like this. I need to undo the cloak. I can't see him like this. Not when I'm the reason.
"Alex, don't be stupid. How were you to know she'd freaking run away? Plus, you're not the reason why she left."
"I am! If I weren't her mate, her parents would know and they'd approve of her mate and she'd happy. I can feel her sadness. I can feel her, almost as if she were here."
I felt his body shake again before he stood, I jerked my head back into position. When he was at his full length he moved with a changed aura. The sadness a thing of the past.
Determination filled his now pitch black eyes and his posture, as if something got triggered inside of him, "I can't be doing this. I'm Alexander Russo the most powerful Alpha on the continent. My Pack needs me, Elijah can play someone else's damsel in distress. I don't have time for this, I'll have a few men look for her. Either way. She'll back. If not on her own, her wolf will bring her back. I'm not going to stress over her anymore." He spoke in a voice that was laced with something different, something dark.
He walked off leaving Nate utterly disappointed.
And just like that I was convinced I should stay cloaked and the hell away from Alexander stupid Russo. If he won't care, so won't I.