(POV Kaito)
I was diligently working at my desk, focusing on my tasks. Recently, I had been busy with planning and organizing events like the annual Tokorozawa Festival in October. Despite the workload, I made sure to finish my own work at the minimum and leave work on time.
Today, once again, I finished work on time.
âAlright then, Iâm off,â I said, bidding farewell to Sasaki.
âSee ya,â he replied.
After bidding farewell to Sasaki, I left the office and slid into my car, ready to head back home. It was dusk, and to my surprise, the road was bustling with quite a few cars. I wondered if there were other working adults who, like me, had managed to leave work on time. With my foot on the accelerator, I made my way towards my house, keeping a vigilant eye on my surroundings as I drove.
Along the way, I couldnât help but think about the sisters. What would they like to have for dinner? Were they facing any troubles at school?
I knew that these girls had their own struggles. It was the same in the game. But in the game, because you were playing as the protagonist, you could solve their problems andchange things towards the end. Consequently, If I meddled carelessly, it would probably make them uncomfortable.
I did feel like I wanted to become an ideal father, but I knew I could only do the bare minimum. However, I also believed that there must be something that only I could do and that we had no choice but to live together.
Lost in embarrassing thoughts, I arrived at my home. As I unlocked the door and entered, Chiaki, who usually greets me enthusiastically, had a dark expression on her face, with tears welling up at the corners of her eyes.
âWhatâs, whatâs wrong!? Are you feeling pain somewhere?â
âK-Kaitoâ¦â
âC-Calm down! Um, first, please calm down and tell me what happened.â
âUh, yeah, Chifuyu, Chifuyu⦠She seemed down and locked herself in her room on the second floor. Chiharu is also feeling down, and Chinatsu who doesnât whatâs happening is crying, and I, Iâm just so sad, so sadâ¦â
So Chifuyu is hiding in her room!? Did something happen at school? But if thatâs the case, why isnât Chiharu doing anything? Usually, Chiharu takes care of everything. Sheâs always meddling, overprotective, and she prioritizes her sisters above all else⦠Even in the game, she was a girl who prioritizes her sisters over anything..
âWhat is Chiharu doing now?â
âUm, sheâs sitting on the sofa in the living room, hiding her face and sitting in a hunched positionâ¦â
âDid she say anything?â
âI donât knowâ¦â
Chiharu was known for her proactive nature, always taking action and going to great lengths for the sake of her sisters, sometimes even going overboard. Therefore, if she ever seemed inactive, it wasnât because she didnât want to take action but rather because she was unable to do so.
â¦Then, the current situation is actually quite a serious issue, isnât it!?
I need to ask for more details about what happened.
âChiaki, tell me what happened today.â
âIn the morning, we all took the bus together and separated in our classes⦠Uuu.â
âAre you okay? Take your time.â
âY-Yeahâ¦â
I urged her to continue as I wiped her nose and tears with a pocket tissue. This morning, when I saw Chifuyu, she appeared to be acting normally, and Chiharu was as affectionate towards her sisters as usual. There didnât seem to be anything wrong at that point.
âSo, I was studying at school, got seconds for lunch, dozed off in afternoon classes, and then I got scolded by the teacher, and then, while the four of us were chatting on the bus, Chifuyu started acting strangelyâ¦â
âWhat were you talking about on the bus?â
âWell, we were talking about the test resultsâ¦â
âAnd what was Chifuyuâs score?â
â98â¦â
âAnd what about Chiharu?â
â100⦠Thatâs why I thought both of them were amazing. Chiharu always gets perfect scores, and Chifuyu studies diligently at home, so I thought her efforts paid off in the endâ¦â
Chifuyu rarely ventures out of her room, but Chiaki accidentally revealed to me once that she occasionally spends long hours studying there. Perhaps she was exerting immense effort to excel in the recent test, determined to achieve victory at any cost, and that could explain her current despondency or even self-loathing. Itâs possible that sheâs disgusted with herself for harboring negative feelings towards her sisters or frustrated with her own perceived inadequacy.
Chiharu, in contrast, not only studies but also takes care of Chiaki and her other sisters. However, despite Chifuyuâs putting in all her effort, she ended up losingâ¦..which has left her feeling like sheâs losing herself as well.
This event took place during the game, where the sisters, who had become high school students, met the protagonist, and the event unfolded from there.
There were several types of events, but Chifuyu had been harboring jealousy and various emotions towards Chiharu, Chinatsu, and Chiaki, which finally exploded. She expressed her feelings to the protagonist, talking about the discrimination she felt and how she had suffered despite not having any special abilities. She confessed that she wanted to be special.
This event likely only occurred if the protagonist had a certain level of favorability with Chifuyu. Without enough favorability, the event itself may not have resolved anything.
Chifuyu tearfully confessed, âI want to be specialâ¦â In response, the protagonist told her that she was a special being to them. They praised her for her efforts and told her that she looked dazzling, even if she couldnât be the best.
âIs that so? Is Chifuyu special to you, XX-san?â
âHehe, Iâm glad I could talk to you, XX-san. Youâre an interesting person⦠âThank you.â
With interactions like that, the intimacy between them grew stronger. It might have sounded like mere nonsense if it hadnât been for the fact that the protagonist, who had a good favorable impression, called Chifuyu special. But because it was coming from someone she liked, it deeply moved her, more so than if it had been from her sisters.
Because with sisters, Chifuyu would inevitably think there is some extra care in their words.
What can I doâ¦? Iâm not the protagonist; I donât have enough favorability; and weâre also far apart in age. We donât have many things in common⦠This is⦠something I might not be able to do anything about.
ââ¦.Chiaki, letâs head inside the living room for now.â
âY-Yeahâ¦â
Once again, I wiped away her tears and stood up, heading towards the living room. Inside the room, Chiharu was sitting on the sofa with Chinatsu sleeping on her lap, and her eyes were swollen. She must have been crying.
âWelcome back, Onii-san.â
âIâm homeâ¦â
âIâm sorry, Onii-san. Youâve been working hard, and yet weâre just lounging around at home. It must be unpleasant⦠But for now, please let Chinatsu sleep.â
âAh, yeah, itâs fineâ¦â
âThank you very muchâ¦â
Chiharu absentmindedly continued to stroke Chinatsuâs head as if her mind was elsewhere. They had been spending time in this silent space without even turning on the TV even when I came back.
âChiharu⦠Why is Chifuyu so down like this? I donât know what to say; even when I talk to her in front of her room, she doesnât respond. Hey, what should I do!?â
Chiharu embraced Chiaki, who was once again overflowing with tears, and gently stroked her head.
âItâs okay. Onee-chan will try to figure something out. Iâll do my best, so donât worry about it, okay?â
âReally?â
âYeah, really. So, just relax. You must be tired, right? Come here.â
âOkayâ¦â
Chiharu gently guided Chiaki to sit beside her, carefully adjusting Chinatsuâs head as she placed Chiakiâs head on her thigh. With a warm smile, she began to softly stroke Chiakiâs head, emanating a comforting presence as she soothed her with her gentle touch.
As Chiaki continued to cry, eventually she drifted off into a peaceful sleep, comforted by the sense of security that her older sister provided.
ââ¦Onii-san⦠Can you please make dinner?â
ââ¦.I understand.â
I didnât know what to say or how to act. I simply did as requested and went to the kitchen, taking out ingredients from the refrigerator and moving my hands almost mechanically.
Suddenly, I became curious about Chiharu. She was just gently caressing the heads of her two sisters. Without crying or changing her expression, she just kept stroking.
If it were in the game, I could easily skip over such scenes. It wasnât pleasant to see Chiharu and the sisters growing distant, with their words falling on deaf ears. I skipped over the parts where Chiharu expressed her emotions and the sistersâ strained relationship. I didnât want to see much of it . I only extracted the happy ending scenes.
But now I couldnât do that anymore.
âDinner is ready⦠Will you eat?â
âNo⦠Iâm okay⦠But please give dinner to the others when they wake up.â
âUnderstoodâ¦â
âSorry for taking up the sofaâ¦â
âDonât worry about itâ¦â
I couldnât do anything, so I sat down near Chiharu. Sitting on the ground made my eye level lower than Chiharuâs sitting on the sofa. I could see her face clearly as she looked down.
She wasnât crying. Her expression was blank, but she definitely seemed sad. We sat in silence as time passed without saying anything. I donât know how many seconds went by, but after a while, Chiharu spoke up.
âWhen Onii-san came back, where was Chiaki?â
âShe was sitting at the entranceâ¦â
âI seeâ¦â
âIs there something wrong with that?â
âMaybe Chiaki had expectations of Oniisan⦠Sheâs a bit more straightforward and childish than the other kids, but sheâs also more mature than we think. Thatâs why she already knew⦠none of us sistersâ words would resonate with Chifuyu.â
ââ¦â
âI really wanted to do everything for her. Give her everything. Take away all her worries. But I knew that was impossible⦠I didnât have the emotional capacity for it until now. We could only cling to each other and survive in our cramped world. Thatâs why I couldnât look at other things with an open mind. But when you appeared, Oniisan, and our heart found some peace, we were able to see the world around us⦠And Chifuyu started comparing herself with her sistersâ¦â
ââ¦â
âI donât think you can understand what Iâm trying to say. And even if I could tell you my specific worries, Iâm not sure you could solve them. Still, Iâm asking you. Please, reach out to Chifuyu. Care for her. Thatâs all I ask, even if it doesnât lead to any specific outcome. Because what Chifuyu needs is something other than her sisters.â
Chiharu lowered her head, her face obscured by her flowing hair. However, the palpable waves of frustration, anger, and sadness emanating from her could not be hidden.
ââ¦Okay, I understand. Iâll do what I can.â
âThank you.â
I left the living room without looking back and climbed the stairs. What should I say? I wondered if anything I said would even matter. But since I had agreed to Chiharuâs request, I had a responsibility to fulfill it.
I stood in front of the sistersâ room and knocked.
âThis is Kaito⦠I want to talk⦠Are you okay?â I called, but there was no response.
Did she fall asleep, or was she deliberately ignoring me? I tried turning the doorknob and pushing, but the door wouldnât budge. Was something heavy blocking it?
ââ¦.Chifuyu, if youâre awake, can you please move whateverâs blocking the door?â
ââ¦â
Maybe she really wasnât awake. But somehow, I had a feeling that she was. Just a hunchâ¦
âWell, if youâre awake, would you mind talking for a bit? We havenât had much chance to talk since you came to this house, right? It might be a good distraction, tooâ¦â
ââ¦â
I spoke to her again, and this time the door to the room creaked open. It was dark inside, and I could hardly see. But the faint light from the hallway revealed Chiharu sitting by the door in a hunched position.
Maybe itâs better not to turn on the lights. She might not want me to see her tear-streaked face.
âThank you, Chifuyuâ¦â
ââ¦â
I sat down near the entrance, finding a spot on the floor, before I began talking to her.
âHow have you been lately?â I asked.
âNormal⦠just like always,â she replied in a monotonous tone.
Just like always⦠those words revealed how much she had been struggling day in and day out. At the same time, her tone of voice made it clear that I still hadnât been able to truly connect with her.
âIs that so?â
âDid Haru-nee say something to you?â she asked.
She said so while sitting on the floor. I couldnât bring myself to lie to her, even though I doubted she would have noticed. It just felt like a lump would be lodged in my throat, if I were to lie.
âYeah. She asked me to look out for you because youâve been troubled,â I replied.
ââ¦..i see,â she said again.
âPlease, can you tell me about your troubles?â I asked.
ââ¦â
âI know it might seem strange for an adult to suddenly talk to you like this, and Iâm sorry, but Iâm not good at beating around the bush,â I said.
âWhy do you even care about Chifuyu and the others? Weâre not family, weâre not even relatives. Weâre just strangers, so you could just leave us alone, right?â
âI have a responsibility now that Iâve taken you in. And I canât just leave Chifuyu alone either. Please, tell me anything within your comfort zone,â
âItâs a boring story,â she said.
âEven so, let me hear it.â
ââ¦â
After I said that, there was a pause for a while. Without turning her face towards me, she started speaking with her face buried in the darkness.
âChifuyu and the others⦠have always been kept apart and at distance from the world. Because weâre different from normal⦠howver, only my sisters are special. Chifuyu isnât special, and I hated that. So I wanted to at least excel in my studies and catch up to my sisters.â
ââ¦â
âBut I knew it was impossible. Chifuyu had nothing, and what my sisters had, Chifuyu didnât. Thatâs what made it so hardâto experience suffering despite not being special and to hate myself for thinking that wayâ¦â
Hearing her trembling voice, I regretted interfering without thinking. There was nothing I could do. I felt like I had nothing to say.
Despite her lifelong suffering due to her lack of superpowers, she found it difficult to accept that there was no apparent reason for her anguish. While her sisters possessed special abilities, she felt a sense of loneliness for not sharing in their uniqueness. The concept of having superpowers seemed to be something only her sisters could comprehend, and it made her feel like an outsider within her own family.
In the end, she ended up feeling lonely.
I couldnât say anything. I couldnât even console her like the protagonist did in the game. As the âyouâre special to meâ words would make no sense from my part.
But Chiharu asked me for help. I promised to do whatever I could. Even if it didnât make sense, I would try to say something.
ââ¦Iâm sorry, I probably canât say anything that would help Chifuyu⦠But maybe, I think Chifuyu is specialâ¦â
âWhat makes you say that?â
ââ¦Thereâs no one in the world who isnât special. Itâs like one in trillions⦠I donât know what criteria Chifuyu uses to define herself as special, but just by existing, isnât she special?â
ââ¦â
âAh, sorry, I was being idealistic⦠Itâs probably meaninglessâ¦â
âOh, no, itâs not like thatâ¦â
Inadvertently, I made Chifuyu worry for my sake. Idealistic words donât really move people. But thatâs all I could sayâ¦
ââ¦Anyway, to me, Chiharu, Chinatsu, Chiaki, and Chifuyu all seem special. Regardless of what burdens they carried or what they possessed, those are just elements that make up one person.â
ââ¦â
âChifuyu has really beautiful chestnut brown hair, and your eyes are also stunning with double eyelids and a charming way of speaking. Oh, Iâm not hitting on you or anything. On the other hand, I have black hair, black eyes, and a face that would have probably been popular in the Heian period.â
ââ¦..The Heian period?â
âYeah, well, I heard that beauty standards were different in the past, so sorry, I was trying to make you laugh⦠In modern times, Iâd just be an average guy.â
The joke fell flat. It would have been great if a lighthearted remark had come to mind to change the moodâ¦
âIn other words, to me, everyone looks special, so I want you to cheer up a bit. Itâs a given that there might be jealousy or rivalry among sisters, but you donât need to worry about that. In fact, it would be weirder if this didnât exist.â
âI seeâ¦â
I had a feeling that my words didnât really resonate with her. She seemed to react more compared to earlier, though.
âIâve said it multiple times⦠I truly think Chifuyu is special. Thatâs what I wanted to say the most. Can you try to believe me, even if you think Iâm trying to deceive you?â
ââ¦.Are you trying to deceive me?â
âIâm not. But even if you canât believe in yourself, Iâll believe in you. Remember that. There will come a day when you can truly believe that youâre special, so keep hoping for the future.â
With those words,, she revealed her concealed face for the first time during our conversation. Her eyes were swollen with tears, and even now, teardrops glistened at the edges of her eyes.
âThank youâ¦â she said, bowing her head. I hoped that even a little bit of encouragement would help lift her spirits. Maybe my cheap, empty words didnât mean much after all. My words alone might not be enough to move her.
I couldnât do much else except try to bring her a slight sense of happiness with dinner.
âIâm sorry⦠I couldnât say much to help you.â
âNo, itâs okay⦠I think Iâm feeling a little better,â
âReally?â
âYes⦠really.â
âAre you sure youâre not forcing it? Is there anything else you want to say?â
âIâm fine, thank you,â she said.
âI see⦠well, if thatâs the case⦠should I bring you dinner?â
âYes, please. Thank you,â she said.
âGot it. Iâll bring you a bigger portion than usual! Please eat a lot,â I said, leaving the room.
I couldnât tell if she was truly feeling better or not. But if she did experience even a tiny bit of improvement, I would be glad. There wasnât much I could do to help her after all.
However, I resolved to keep doing my best, no matter how small my efforts were. For now, I would bring her dinner.
ââ
(POV Chifuyu)
In the end, Chifuyu was ultimately defeated by her own weakness. I had become fed up with my relationship with my sisters and locked myself in my room. Haru-nee, Natsu-nee, and Aki-nee all showed concern for me, but their words did not resonate with me.
I couldnât help but see everything through the filter of being pitied. I lost track of what was what and just cried uncontrollably.
Then, that person came. I knew he had appeared because Haru-nee must have said something. But I wanted him to listen to me. I didnât know why I felt that way. Maybe I just didnât want to be alone.
I thought he would use difficult words of persuasion and encouragement like the other adults, but surprisingly, his words were simple and straightforward.
This could have been the very first time I received such heartfelt words from someone who wasnât one of my sisters. Haru-nee, Natsu-nee, and Aki-nee have always shown care and exchanged words with me, which also made me feel happy.
But the happiness I felt from that personâs words was something I had never experienced before. The person in front of me was just an ordinary person. Maybe it resonated with me because he used ordinary words to tell me that I was special.
It made me happy. He complimented my hair and told me multiple times that I was special.
He told me straight out that he believed in Chifuyu, which even I couldnât do myself.
I was extremely happy. It was the first time I tasted love from the outside world. I was confused and didnât know how to react, but I couldnât help but smile a little. Maybe that person didnât notice because it was dark.
I was incredibly, incredibly, incredibly happy.
It was peculiar how someone who wasnât even one of Chifuyuâs sisters could recognize and acknowledge that I was special in a way. Despite knowing that I might still grapple with comparing myself to my sisters in the future, his words made me feel like I could give it another shot. Thatâs how he made me feel.
That person is interestingâ¦
I felt a little curious to know more about that person.
But before that⦠I have to apologize for causing them to worry. Haru-nee must have been really worried. I also made Natsu-nee and Aki-nee cry.
I have to say sorry⦠I got up and headed straight to the living room.