âNo, nothingâs wrong!â
The most suspicious phrase in the world: âNothingâs wrong.â
Even though I meant it, my sisterâs brow furrowed deeper.
âSure, nothingâs wrong.â
â...â
âWith your chin trembling like that? No problems at all, huh?â
âWait, sis! Donât grab my chin! Iâll tell you the truth!â
She stopped her hand, but my brain was already spinning.
Should I really be honest about this?
âMy fiancé creates all these perfect moments, only to make it clear he has no feelings for me.â
If I say that, wonât she just laugh at me?
But as I hesitated, her hand pressed firmly on my chin again.
âWell? Arenât you going to answer?â
âUh, um, itâs just thatâ!â
Do I have the right to remain silent?
In 21st-century Korea, maybe. Here? Especially not in front of Natalie.
In the end, I decided to share an abridged version of the story, starting from the hunting competition.
I told her how the mood had been so nice one evening that I felt a little flutter, only for that moment to shatter when even holding hands with him felt devoid of any genuine emotion.
âAnd then, when he sent me the monster he hunted, I started to hope again... but when I visited him during his recovery, he treated me with nothing but cold politeness, like I was just some acquaintance. Itâs... confusing.â
â...â
âNow that Iâve said it out loud, I sound ridiculous. I knew this engagement was devoid of feelings from the start.â
Hearing it made me feel embarrassed all over again.
Iâve always known his only redeeming quality is his face. I also know he has someone else he likes. What was I even expecting?
âWell, thatâs it! Nothing too serious, right?â
I tried to laugh it off, cheeks flushing red as I tried to salvage the situation.
Natalie would probably mock me for this, wouldnât she?
Sheâs someone who gets a dopamine rush from a manâs face, money, or charm. To her, me yearning for something as intangible as affection must seem hilarious.
As expected, she bowed her head, pressing both hands against her forehead.
â¦But when she slowly looked up, her expression wasnât mockingâit was furious.
Why?
A long sigh escaped her lips, like a volcano releasing steam just before an eruption.
âDoris. Are you saying, you... you actually like him?â
â...â
No! Absolutely not!
The words surged to the tip of my tongue, but I swallowed them just in time.
Iâm Doris Redfield, the dutiful fiancée whoâs devoted to her betrothed. Thatâs who Iâm supposed to be.
âI, uh... wellâ¦â
I just had to say one line.
âI love Prince Tristan.â
...But that lie wouldnât come out.
Love? If anything, every time I see him, I feel like committing treason.
So I opted for a more diplomatic response.
âWell, isnât that obvious? Iâve always been consistent about my feelings.â
â...â
âIf you absolutely need an answerââ
âNo, no, no!â
Natalie flinched like a cat startled by a cucumber, shaking her head furiously.
âI donât want to hear anything thatâll ruin my appetite. You donât have to say another word.â
âYes, sis.â
Thank goodness. I avoided a forced confession.
I really donât like him. I was just a little bitter and disappointed, thatâs all.
The conversation circled back. Natalie tilted her head and remarked, âIâve always known that guy was insufferable.â
âCan you stick to one title? I wonât report you.â
âHe was unbearable at the hunting competition, but from what you said about how he treated you during his recovery, heâs worse than I thought.â
âHow many times are you going to say âthat guyâ?â
âDonât you agree? Even enemies treat a visiting guest with courtesy. But a fiancé acting like a stranger? Thatâs too much.â
I didnât respond, but my silence spoke volumes.
âFor the past few months, he visited you, sent you gifts... I thought he was finally starting to act human. But then he suddenly goes cold? Ah!â
Natalie clapped her hands, as if the answer had hit her.
âHe must be sulking!â
âSulking? I didnât do anything wrong, though.â
âRemember that light blue dress he gave you? Have you worn it yet?â
âNo, not once.â
âWhen you receive a gift from a romantic partner, itâs polite to wear it at least once. But you didnât wear it to the hunting competition or his recovery visit. He might see that as you rejecting his gift.â
Natalie made... a logical point.
If thatâs the reason, then I can understand Tristanâs behavior. Even a normal person would feel slighted, let alone a prince with a sky-high ego.
Butâ
âItâs not like I deliberately avoided wearing it...â
âI know it didnât fit. But do you think Tristan would understand if you explained that?â
â...No.â
Thereâs nothing wrong with gaining a little weight. I know that in my head. But whether society accepts that is another story entirely.
And if I told Tristan the whole truth, could I expect him to react kindly?
Not a chance. Knowing his preference for willow-thin beauties, heâd probably say something horrible.
Natalie sighed again and said, âDoris, I hate to say this to my own sister, but... do you want to try dieting?â
â...â
I couldnât answer immediately.
Since reincarnating, the one joy Iâve had is eating desserts without worrying about money.
Itâs been wonderful these past few months.
But it seems my carefree eating habits need to come to an end.
â...Iâll do it. Between Motherâs glares and the fact that I should wear that dress at least once, I guess I have no choice.â
âGood. Iâll do everything I can to help, so trust me.â
Natalie pulled me into a hug, patting my shoulder. Then, in a low, growling voice, she muttered, âForcing my sister to starve... Tristan will pay for this someday.â
I didnât say I was starving, though.
There were plenty of things I could nitpick about her comment, but instinct told me there were more important things to focus on.
So instead, I silently reached for another snack on the table and stuffed my mouth with it.
***
July is peaceful compared to the adrenaline- and dopamine-filled frenzy of Juneâs hunting competition.
Friends and lovers gather in the shade to share tea or wine. Those longing for lively events can browse flyers to decide between summer festivals, charity concerts, or the usual options like theater or horse racing.
If it were up to me? Iâd spend my time reading a book in the shade, overlooking a beautiful garden, with a soft breeze keeping me company. Itâs the perfect chance to enjoy the European-style vacation I couldnât afford in my previous life!
â¦Thatâs what I should be doing.
Instead, Iâm in the palace. Specifically, in a music room with a lovely view of a garden.@@novelbin@@
The hired music instructorâs voice rings out, still annoyingly full of energy.
âAlright, ladies, one more time! Just hold your notes for four beats on the 34th measure!â
Easy to say.
But for ladies like me, who have absolutely no relationship with singing, holding a note is a fantasy. We manage the first pitch, but after that, itâs a cacophony of sounds that donât resemble âmiâ or âsolâ but some unholy middle ground instead.
The song wandered aimlessly before collapsing into an unsalvageable heap.
Iâve already lost count of how many times weâve failed. The middle-aged instructor, her hair styled like soft-serve ice cream, rubbed her forehead.
âLadies... youâve all learned piano, havenât you?â
Everyone nodded. Piano is a basic skill for noblewomen.
âSinging isnât that hard. Itâs just like playing the piano, except you use your own body as the instrument.â
We said we learned piano; we never said it was easy.
Judging by the sour expressions around me, everyone was thinking the same thing.
The instructor looked genuinely puzzled, like a professor wondering why their students canât solve calculus after learning basic addition.
âAlright, one more time. Just one last time!â
This was the third time sheâd told that particular lie.
Thankfully, the palaceâs enchanted stone walls kept the temperature cool. Otherwise, this much practice on a hot summer day might have led to a full-blown rebellion.
It wasnât until several ladies were utterly drained that the instructor finally called it a day, shaking her head as she did.
âThere are less than three weeks left until the charity concert. I sincerely hope none of you disgrace your families... though I know most of you didnât volunteer for this.â
Exactly. None of us were here by choice. Nobility doesnât grant immunity from being drafted into this nonsense.
A few days ago, Percival sent letters to every noble family, announcing his plans for a charity concert and requesting names of participating ladies.
Normally, events like this are organized by the Crown Princess, so the moment the Second Prince sent those letters, the veterans of high society mustâve sensed the red flags. Clearly, this event wasnât a high-priority affair.
But ignoring a princeâs request was out of the question.
So, each household sent their most docile daughtersâthe youngest, in most cases.
When we first arrived, these girls had eyes as wide and innocent as Shih Tzus. Now, as the instructor left, they leaned against the walls, their exhausted expressions a far cry from their earlier naivety.
âThis is so hard. My sister said charity concert songs were supposed to be simpleâ¦â
âRight? And yet here we are, singing something as complicated as operaâ¦â
Their breathless complaints were almost pitiful.
Quietly slipping out, I called over a passing maid.
âIs there no refreshment prepared for the music room?â
If someone gathers a group of people, even in a commonerâs home, the least theyâd do is serve water. In the palace, such courtesy should be mandatory.
But clearly, that kind of common sense was beyond Percivalâs grasp.
The maid blushed, lowering her head. âNo, miss... there isnât.â
You donât need to feel embarrassed; itâs not your fault.
Internally cursing Percival a hundred times over, I pressed a silver coin into her hand.
âThereâs no other reservation for the music room next, is there? If not, could you prepare simple refreshments for everyone here?â
âOh, of course! Thank you so much!â The maidâs eyes sparkled as she took the coin.
Before long, a trolley loaded with refreshments rolled into the music room.
The sight of dewy lemonade glasses made the ladies gasp.
âOh my, did His Highness Percival send these?â
Let them think that. It doesnât bother me.
But the maid, clearly unwilling to let that jerk take the credit, shot me a pleading look.