FROM THE SECOND I slid into the back seat of my parentsâ car, the silence was deafening. Neither of them said a word or even looked my way as we made the short drive from Astor to their penthouse on Madison Avenue. I almost wouldâve preferred for them to yell instead of filling the space with their icy disappointment, but I had a feeling that part would come soon enough.
I stared out the window, my mind replaying everything that had happened that morning, even though it was the last thing I wanted to think about. I didnât want to remember the insults and ugly looks aimed my way. I especially didnât want to think about the consequences Archer was dealing with right now, when all the two of us were guilty of was loving each other.
If I hadnât kept so much of my life secret for so long, this wouldnât be happening. Serena wouldnât be caught in the middle of something that wasnât her fault, and the only problem people would have with me and Archer was our age difference. Not what they all assumed because theyâd been led to: that we were having some sort of sick affair under Serenaâs nose.
My stomach twisted as the car stopped in front of my parentsâ building, and I waited for them to exit before climbing out after them.
The ride up to the penthouse was the same, deathly quiet, until we reached their floor.
âTake a seat in the parlor,â my father said, just before the elevator doors opened and he walked out, heading straight for the house manager. âLet the staff know they can all be excused.â
To his credit, the man didnât bat an eye, already used to the privacy my parents insisted upon.
More like they didnât want anything remotely embarrassing to come out about them, which was why they waited until everyone had left before laying in on me.
The parlor was pure whiteâthe couch, the armchairs, the curtains, the rug. It made you almost scared to sit for fear of leaving a mark, which was why Iâd never ventured in there much when I lived with them.
But marring their precious furniture was the last thing I was worried about at that moment, so I took a seat on the couch and waited for their lecture. I still wasnât sure how I would respond, leaving it up to what felt right in the moment. I knew I didnât want to hide anymore, that I needed to tell them everything, but what form that would takeâ¦who knew?
As the last of the staff departed, my father strolled into the parlor, a crystal tumbler half-full of amber liquid in his hand. Considering that it was still morning, his drinking was the only indication so far that something was bothering him.
He stayed standing by the fireplace while my mother took a seat in one of the armchairs, and after taking a sip from his glass, he cocked a bushy eyebrow at me.
âWell? What do you have to say for yourself?â
A lot, actually. But I knew my father enough to know he already had a path set for this conversation. Best to just give a general apology and let him kick things off.
âIâm sorry.â There. That could encompass all my perceived sins.
He grunted and stared down at me, all that judgment weighing heavily on my shoulders.
âIâd like to hear what exactly youâre sorry for, Preston. For bringing shame to our family? For lying? Cheating? Disregarding your future for a moment of pleasure? Please explain to your mother and me whatâs happening in that thick head of yours.â
I forced myself to breathe through my irritation as my temper began to rise.
âI apologize for hiding who I truly am for so long. Thatâs one of the few things Iâm sorry for.â
âAnd who is that? Enlighten us.â
My mother stayed silent, letting my father take the lead, which was par for the course. I didnât expect her to chime in at all, not when he was this worked up.
âWho am I?â I said. âIâm someone whoâs spent years being who I thought you wanted me to be, at least in public. But Iâm not that person. I donât want to go into politics. I donât want to hide that Iâm gay. And I donât want it to be a secret that Iâm in love with Archer Carrington.â
Holy shit, I couldnât believe Iâd just said all that out loud, but the words were true. Following in my fatherâs footsteps, being in government⦠That wasnât for me, and it was past time I acknowledged that. And if I didnât want that life, then I didnât have to hide. I didnât need the secrets that had overtaken my life up to this point.
Even as I felt like I could breathe again after putting it all out there, my fatherâs fury pushed back, suffocating everything in the room.
âHave you lost your mind?â he seethed. âHas that man brainwashed you into something you canât get out of?â
âNo,â I said quickly. The thought was absurd. âIâm the one who pursued him, not the other way around.â
My motherâs eyes were bugging out of her head as they darted between the two of us. âWh-what about Serena?â
âYes, what about my future daughter-in-law?â he said. âYouâd blindside that poor girl with her own father?â
I shook my head. âShe wasnât blindsided, and she was never going to be your daughter-in-law. Serenaâs my best friend, but thatâs all she is. Iâve never been a secret to her.â
My father finished off the rest of his drink and slammed the glass down, causing it to crack. Then he turned his back on me, resting his hand against the mantel. âYouâre saying she helped you in thisâ¦thisâ¦deception.â
âThereâs no one to blame in all of this except me. I take that on fully. Leave Serena and Archer out of this.â
A laugh bubbled out of him, low at first and then rising until it echoed off the walls. He faced me again, and his expression had alarm bells going off.
âLeave Archer out of this, you say. No, I wouldnât dream of such a thing. As a matter of fact, I should pay him a visitâ ââ
âNo,â I said, horrified. âI donât think thatâs a good idea.â
âWhy not? Iâd love to see the look on his face when I tell him heâs no longer the Elysium president because he couldnât keep his hands off my son.â
âWhat?â My mouth fell open. âYou canât do that.â
âI can do anything I damn well please, and effective immediately, Archer has been stripped of his position.â He smiled, but it was full of malice. âHeâs also been fired from the Astor school board, and I canât imagine many of his clients at CTA will be thrilled by his behavior.â
Shock and disgust had me clenching my fists as I stared up at him. âHe doesnât deserve that, and you know it. Youâre punishing him when you should be taking it out on me.â
âArenât I? Since you claim it was your actions that led to this chain of events, his dismissal is, in fact, your fault.â
The sinking feeling in the pit of my stomach was because he wasnât wrong.
My father crossed his arms over his barrel chest. âWhat, nothing to say now?â
âThere isnât anything I can say that would change your mind. Is there?â
He stared down at me, the answer clear in his expression. No.
âRight. So you brought me here just to tell me youâre going to punish him.â
âI brought you here to set you straight,â he said firmly. âSince you canât be trusted to make decisions for your own good, Iâll be taking over from here.â
I blinked up at him, not sure Iâd heard him right. His expression didnât change, and when I turned to my mother, she was looking everywhere but at me.
It was all so insane that I couldnât help my chuckle. Only once it started, I couldnât stop.
âYou find this amusing?â my father said.
âI do, actually. You want to take overâ¦what, exactly? Because you may have missed it, but Iâm not a kid anymore. Whatever you wanted me to do back then, I always jumped and asked how high, because I didnât think I had another choice. Now I know better. I have nothing but choices. So, no. You wonât be taking over anything.â
The red flush in his cheeks deepened. âYou expect me to sit back while you ruin your life making mistake after mistake? Do you even have a plan?â
âNo,â I said, shaking my head. âBut you know what? Thatâs okay. I donât have to know everything right this second. I can finally figure out what I want to do with my life.â
âPreston, we just want whatâs best for you,â my mom finally said as she worried her hands in her lap.
âI understand that, but maybe neither of you know whatâs best for me anymore. I have to figure that out on my own.â
âHave we not given you everything? Youâve never wanted for a damn thing in your life, and youâll never have toâ ââ
âLet me guess, if I give up Archer?â
My father grunted. âItâs a small price to pay, son. Trust me.â
What he was suggesting was madness. There was no way Iâd ever give up Archer. Not even if my father stripped away my inheritance or cut me off at the knees in any other way.
But the only way to get that through his head was to show him.
I stood up and relaxed my hands that had been tightly balled into fists for this whole conversation. âI donât have to listen to any more of this. My life is just thatâmine. So you can either choose to accept me and anyone I choose to be with, orâ¦â I hesitated, unable to say the alternative, because even though I loathed them in that moment, they were still my parents. I dropped my hands by my sides and shrugged. âOr you donât.â
âYou donât mean that.â My mother stood up, looking like she wanted to walk over to me, but only managed a couple of steps.
âYes, I do.â The stricken expression on her face had me softening a little. I didnât want to hurt anyone else today. âEverything will be okay, I promise. Youâve just got to give me the space and trust to figure it out.â
I turned on my heel and walked away, having said everything I wanted to.
âPreston,â my father called out as the elevator doors opened. âWeâre not finished with this conversation, young man.â
I stepped inside, and as the doors began to close, I met my fatherâs stare. âYes, sir. We are.â