Chapter 44: Chapter 44

Ye Jing An can’t tell what he is feeling right now.

If he hadn’t turned on this phone and went on this Weibo, then would he never find this secret?

If he didn’t turn on that phone and discovered the secret on this Weibo, would he and Du Yu Shu be like those other people in the world who fell in love but missed the chance to be together, separate and marry other people?

There are too many regrets in the world and too little satisfaction. Every pair of happiness is a gift bestowed by God.

Ye Jing An tightly held the phone.

So is this god’s last gift to him?

Pink bunny avatar, “My Family’s An An is the Best” ID.

This is a very familiar combination.

Ye Jing An thought of the past events, those drifting memories floated by him. He longed for that girl even more.

Whether it is that weeping girl on the plane that year who smiled beautifully because of a milk candy,

Or that crying girl on the rainy streets who reached out her hands toward him with a confused and relieved expression,

He really longs for her.

He saw himself being locked up in the grocery store by his father for being noisy, immersing himself in crying from exhaustion.

He saw the cowardly and frightened teenager who wasn’t brave enough to say that he liked that bunny and weakly cried after his father killed the bunny.

He saw himself who is already used to hiding, used to disguising himself, used to being indifferent, used to keeping a distance from others. He saw himself, again and again, saying those unreasonable words and again and again feel uncomfortable with it. But he still lied to himself she would understand.

Who would dare trust someone who can’t even express their own sincerity or their true feelings? Who would understand?

If you try to figure it out, it only will only be tiring.

Not to mention, he and Du Yu Shu had been hostile to each other and have never been friendly.

Even the so-called confession seem like child’s play.

He had never once seriously told her he likes her and wants to be with her forever.

He had never clearly and honestly try to win over her or fawn over her, let alone express his love and care.

Why would she trust this type of him?

But in a deep corner, he did not know that she has liked him for as long as he liked her.

In this world, what could be happier than knowing the person you like also like you back?

He carefully his own feelings and used his sarcastic and mocking words to cover it up. When he was sad and dispirited, has he ever wondered how much the other person is hurting?

Why couldn’t he be more honest?

Ye Jing An asked himself, why couldn’t he be more honest about his feelings?

Why must he use mockery and ridicule to express his feelings?

With this type of expression, even if one is a god, would they even fully understand?

Just now, he still quarreled with Du Yu Shu over a trivial matter.

If she doesn’t want to publicize it, then they won’t publicize it. Besides, they are still going to get a marriage certificate anyway, by then they could publicize it whenever they want.

Why must they fuss over who likes who more? Maybe, before you were even aware, she loves you more than you love her.

You love her more than she loves you. It really is a shame to cover it up with insults and ridicule.

Do you really want to count who is more invested in the relationship?

Ye Jing An asked himself over and over. Because it is a lot day and he is running, there is some sweat on his body but he had no time to worry about it.

He wants to find her and apologize for what he did in the past. He wants to tell her he really loves her and wants to spend a lifetime together with her.

Life is so short, they have already wasted so many years. In a blink of an eye, he is almost thirty. He had already wasted more than half of the best years of his life, what other reason is there to continue to waste it?

Pink bunny avatar, “My Family’s An An is the Best” ID.

This pair had accompanied him for so many years, having been with him since the very beginning when he created his Weibo account. This familiar avatar and ID would appear again and again on his blog.

Whether it was when he only had a few dozen fans or when he had tens of millions of fans now, below each of his posts, this familiar avatar and ID would appear in the comment, giving him encouragement and support.

During the time when he would only get a few hundred comments, this ID would always appear at the very top of the comments section.

Commenting over and over–––”An An, you are the best!” “An An, remember to rest!” “An An, I love you!” “An An, you will always be the best!”

Their feeling for each other is the same after all.

He used an alternate sockpuppet account, “Quiet Also Quiet,” from the time when Du Yu Shu debuted and had always been accompanying her. She used an alternate sockpuppet account, “My An An is the Best,” from the time when he debuted and had always been accompanying her.

Why did he pick the name “Quiet Also Quiet?”

“Also Quiet” backward is Ye Jing An.*

“Quiet Also Quiet” is discreet Ye Jing An.

The Ye Jing An who would always silently stay by Du Yu Shu’s side.

The reason for this name is very simple even though he had never been able to do it in real life.

Is that part of him that wants to protect her already gone?

“Yu Shu.”

“Ye Jing An.”

Their meeting was simple but unexpected.

On the stairs, he was going up, she was going down and suddenly encountered one another.

After a brief silence, Ye Jing An smiled. His eyes no longer had the mockery and ridicule from before but instead is replaced with gentleness, “Let’s talk, shall we?”

“Okay.”

The panic she felt earlier when they bumped into one another instantly disappeared. They stared at each other as her heart calmed down.

What do you want to say, Ye Jing An?

Du Yu Shu faintly smiled and followed Ye Jing An upstairs in silence. Ye Jing An slowed down so they could walk shoulder to shoulder on the empty stairs.n/o/vel/b//in dot c//om

Calm and peaceful, this is the atmosphere that they have not felt for a long time.

Ye Jing An’s room.

Du Yu Shu sat on a chair. Ye Jing An handed her a glass of water and then took out a phone from under the pillow. He opened Weibo and handed the phone to Du Yu Shu and softly said, “This is what I have hidden for many years. I have always wanted to say these things to you but couldn't."

Du Yu Shu took the phone and recognized that avatar and ID at a glance.

“Quiet Also Quiet”

What a familiar ID.

From the day Du Yu Shu created her Weibo account, the first person who sent her blessings was him.

Du Yu Shu was, for a moment, lost in a trance.

As if carrying this phone and seeing this Weibo account, she is brought back to the time when she was cautiously and secretly hiding her feelings.

What is she feeling at this moment?

Happy and amused.

They have always been stubbornly fighting as if only one of them could live. In the virtual world, they showed each other love and care as sweet as syrup.

But in the real world, she wasn’t willing to expose even a little of those feelings.

Why is the corner of her eyes misting over?

“Yu Shu.”

Du Yu Shu looked up at him and met his eyes filled with sincerity. She heard him slowly and firmly say, “I like you.”

“Can I give my life to you?”

Can I?

Du Yu Shu’s nose turned red. How can she refuse?

She had been looking forward to this day when Ye Jing An would like her.

In this world, what could be happier than knowing the person you like also like you back?

They stared at each other.

Du Yu Shu clenched the phone and whispered, “Why the sudden confession?”

Having been hurt and abused by him so long, Du Yu Shu is clearly familiar with Ye Jing An, but why did he suddenly confess?

“Because of this.” After hesitating for a while, Ye Jing An stretched out his hand, revealing a black phone.

A look of understanding crossed her eyes.

No wonder Ye Jing An suddenly chose to confess to her.

“Ye Jing An,” Du Yu Shu took a deep breath, “Don’t you remember what I said a few days ago. We broke up.”

The air was so silent that a pin drop could be heard.

Du Yu Shu didn’t bother with Ye Jing An’s expression. She slowly laughed, “I don’t want to answer your question.”

“Honestly speaking, you’ve never pursued me before right? If I let you succeed without doing anything, wouldn’t it be cheap?”

“I’m waiting for you to pursue me, Mr. Ye.”

Smiling, Du Yu Shu opened the door and left.

Ye Jing An looked after her and reveal a slight smile.

Since you want me to pursue you, then you must not regret it, Yu Shu.

They finished two episodes of the reality show. Because the program does not have enough time, they spent an entire day filming short video clips and photos with each and every one of the cast members. After filming three episodes, 《VHA》is preparing to air the show.

After the filming of the third episode, Du Yu Shu felt like she is living in despair.

She really felt like Ye Jing An ate the wrong medicine, she wants to kick him away every time she sees him.

These days, he has been too pampering. The crew members would always cast them unusual looks. Wang Jie would pull her away a couple of times to have a long chat with her. Fortunately, all her scenes were done filming yesterday so she was able to escape from the judging eyes of the crew members.

When she saw Song Chen yesterday, she was happily talking about Ye Jing An’s gossip.

Du Yu Shu gritted her teeth and narrowed her eyes. Ye Jing An’s recent suitors are really amazing, should she give them some rewards?

Friday, August 28, 8:30 p.m., Orange TV presents《VHA》’s first episode, hope to see you all there.

Du Yu Shu turned off her phone and hid in her house, ready to watch the premiere when the doorbell rang.

Could it be Song Chen? Du Yu Shu yawned and went to open the door.

Anyway, it can’t be Ye Jing An, he is still filming.