"What am I going to do, Liam?" I asked. I was probably sitting in his car for 10 minutes after the phone call and actually heard a cop car go by.
That only made my anxiety worse. And I felt even more guilty.
"Ok um, remember I will go with any decision you decide to make...but are you sure you don't want to just tell them?" Liam asked.
I gave him an incredulous look. "Would you like to keep living?" I asked. There was a short moment of silence. "Yeah?" he said more like a question.
"I can't tell them, Liam. Not only will I get into soo much trouble, but I don't want to see the look on Jasons face when he finds out I have been lying to him for so long. "
"Ok but I don't want to see you keep beating yourself up about this, " he said. I looked away from him and looked out the window. He was right, but was I ready to tell them?
I could feel tears running down my face, and I couldn't stop them. Liam turned me around to face him and placed both of his hands on my face.
"I don't want to lose you, Liam. If I tell them, then I definitely won't be able to see you again, " I said through tears.
He wiped them away with his thumb and gave me a small smile. "You don't know that. And you can't get rid of me that easily, " he said.
He surprised me by kissing my forehead. "Whatever you choose is fine with me, just think about everything, " he said.
I knew what he wanted me to choose, but I wasn't sure if that's what I wanted to choose. Sure, I did want to stop lying to them and be able to be with Liam freely, but...it just wasn't that simple.
After a couple of silent minutes, I decided what to do. "I'll tell them, " I mumbled. I knew it wouldn't be easy, but Liam was right. The longer I hid it, the worse the outcome would get.
"Alright, then let's go, " he said starting the car again. I gave him a quizzical look. "What do you mean lets?" I asked.
"I'm coming with you, " he said looking at me. I shook my head and rest my hand on top of his. "You can't, Liam. That will only make everything worse. It would be best if it's just me. That way they won't go into the next galaxy, " I said.
He seemed hesitant but nodded slowly. "Are you sure?" he asked. I nodded. I would have loved for him to be there, but my brothers would not be happy to put it nicely.
He drove to the usual spot where he dropped me off. It was in our backroad. You could see my window from the street and he would stay there and wait till I snuck back into my room.
I had a ladder set up and everything. But this time I would just walk through the front door. Wouldn't make any sense otherwise.
"Well, if I text you tonight that means I am not dead, " I said looking towards Liam after he parked his car.
He gave me a sympathetic look. "Are you sure you don't want me to come? I don't mind at all even though I am a little intimidated by your brothers, " he said.
I smiled internally at the thought but I couldn't let him just come in with me like that. My brothers will already have a lot to process.
"It's okay. Seriously, " I said briefly glancing at him. If I looked at him long enough I would never leave the car.
He hesitated before nodding and giving me a small smile. I shakily got out of the car. I admired the grass, the stars, the sky. Who knows when I will see them again. I even smiled at the rocks.
I waved back at Liam as I walked back to my house. I already knew I was in deep cause there was a cop car in the driveway.
I wasn't even gone that long. I slowly, and I mean slowly, walked to the front door. I could hear talking from the inside and pretty much every light in the house was on.
I thought about turning around and running the same direction I came, but that would only postpone the problem and maybe make it worse.
I sucked in a deep breath and opened the door. Here goes nothing. All eyes immediately turned to me once I walked in.
It was like I was on a huge stage and they were the audience. I noticed that Jacob and Dylan were gone leaving only Jason, Justin and a cop that I recognized to be one of Jason's co-workers.
Jason seemed to have examined me before resting both of his hands on his head and breathing out a sigh of relief. I could see his entire posture change from what it was before.
"Ja-" I was about to apologize because that was the least I could do, but Jason cut me off. "Don't. Don't say anything. Just go to your room. I'm coming, " he said. The way he said it left no room for argument and if I didn't feel nervous before I was definitely on the brink of an attack now.
As I walked past them to go up the stairs I could see Justin shaking his head like a disappointed parent. But at the same time, he had a smirk on his face. "You're in so much trouble, " he said. Jason glared at him and he immediately stopped.
I practically sped walked the rest of the way to my room. I closed the door and just sat on the bed. That was all I could do. Just sit there. I couldn't focus on anything else. My heart was about to beat its way through my chest.
I swallowed thinking of what I could possibly say to soften the blow that was coming no matter what. I couldn't lie to them anymore. I just couldn't. It would be better to just get it over with now.
I heard the front door open and close, then more voices. I guess Jacob and Dylan were home now. Yay.
I waited and waited for what felt like an eternity, but was probably only 10 minutes. The footsteps coming up to my door made my heart beat faster with every step.
There were two different ones which meant I would only have to face half of them for the time being. I stared at the doorknob as it turned.
It opened revealing both Jacob and Jason. I don't even know how I am alive with how fast my heart is beating.
I didn't dare make eye contact with any of them as Jason closed the door and turned to face me.
"Where were you?" was the first thing Jason said. Straight to the point I see. "Um, I was, uh-"
"I swear to God Lisa. Now is not the time. You better come up with an explanation right now! Do you know how worried I was! How worried we all were? First, you weren't answering any of our calls and to top it off, when I finally get you to pick up the phone, you just hang up! I thought something happened to you! I thought you were kidnapped or something. So you better start talking right now!" Jason shouted.
I was definitely not used to Jason shouting at me. He rarely did. I wiped at the stray tears that were starting to fall. I know I brought this situation onto myself, but I couldn't help it.
"I'm sorry. I snuck out to meet with...to meet with Liam."
Jacob literally almost fell out of the chair he was sitting in. "As in the boy you were texting that I told you not to text anymore?" he asked looking at me.
I nodded refusing to make eye contact with either of them. "Are you kidding me? You snuck out to meet with a boy?" he asked.
Jacob rarely got mad. But tonight, he was very mad. "That is so irresponsible, Annalisa, " I winced when Jason used my full name.
"How long have you been doing this?" Jacob asked. That was the one question I didn't want them to ask. "At least a month, " I mumbled.
"What?" Jason questioned. I didn't know if it was because he couldn't hear me or he didn't want to believe it.
"At least a month, " I said a little louder. Jason turned away from me, drew in a breath and let it out slowly.
"I'm actually at a loss of words right now. I would have never in a million years expected this behavior from you. I mean, what were you actually thinking!" Jason said.
"You weren't thinking were you?" Jacob asked. "I-"
"-No. Don't say anything. Unless the next words out of your mouth are haha it was a prank, I don't wanna hear anything, " Jason said.
"You sneak out of the house and lie to our faces for at least a month," Jason mumbled to himself. I could tell he was trying to keep calm.
"Why would you do that, Lisa? Why?" Jacob asked looking at me. The disappointment in both he and Jasons face was pretty clear.
More tears fell down my face, but I quickly wiped them away. "Because I knew you guys wouldnt let me, " I said.
"Of course we wouldn't let you! You don't know what's out there. For all, we know this Liam could be a pedophile, but we wouldn't know that because you snuck out!"
"He's not, Jason. He is a really nice person and he cares about me, " I said gaining a little confidence.
"Are you kidding me!? How old is he?" Jason asked immediately tearing that confidence away. "He is sixteen, " I said. "Lisa, you're fourteen!" Jason shouted.
Jacob suddenly got up and went towards the door
"What does Liam look like?" he asked looking away from Jason and towards me. My eyes widened slightly. I couldn't just throw Liam under like that, but I couldn't continue to lie.
"And don't you dare lie, " Jason said. "I'm sorry. Please don't hurt him! He didn't do anything wrong. He didn't do anything to me!" I said raising my voice.
"Lisa, I don't care, give me a description or I will find him myself, " Jacob said. "If you don't give us one right now, you will be grounded for much longer than you already are, " Jason said.
I stared up at them not really knowing what to do. "Why can't you just see things from my point of view? I know sneaking out was wrong and I admit that, but can't you at least just let me be with him? why is that so wrong? " I asked.
"Because you are too young to date. What don't you understand about that?" Jason asked. I just looked away from Jason. They wouldn't understand. Jacob left leaving only Jason and I.
Jason sighed and ran a hand through his hair.
"It's getting late. We're gonna finish this conversation tomorrow. Get some sleep." He walked over to me, kissed my forehead, then left.
That's when all of the waterworks came. Now all of my brothers probably hate me for lying to them. And to top it off, I wouldn't be able to see Liam again.
I couldn't sneak out anymore. My brothers would be on high alert. I went to get my phone off my dresser until I realized it was gone.
I didn't even see who took it, or when they took it. Great, my prison life begins now. I situated myself on the bed, not even bothering to change into my PJs.
I was getting more and more used to the cast, so sleeping wasn't really a bother anymore. Thinking about tomorrow, I knew it was not going to be easy.
~Overprotective~
"WAKE UP, WAKE UP, WAKE UP, " someone screamed right near my ear. I jumped up and looked up to see Justin, giving me an evil smirk.
"Why do you have to wake me up so rudely?" I asked. "Because you deserve it. Now breakfast is almost ready downstairs. Jason told me to get you, " he said walking towards the door.
"Wait, Justin. Are they still mad?" I asked looking up at him just as he was about to leave. "No duh, our brothers are very mad. So I would hurry up," he said walking out of the door.
"By the way, you're going to need a miracle," he said poking his head in then leaving.
I sighed and flopped back onto my bed. I just wanted to hide up here all day and not do anything or face anyone.
I slowly got out of bed and went to the hall bathroom. I did my usual morning routine but skipped the shower.
I would just shower tonight. Once I was ready I peeked around the hall wall that looked into the kitchen.
Jason was flipping pancakes and Dylan and Jacob were talking. Meanwhile, Justin was on his phone. "What are you doing? Get down here, " Jason said looking up at me. I don't even know how he saw me.
I slowly walked down the stairs towards the kitchen. It smelled really good, but I didn't have the appetite to eat anything.
"Morning, " I said quietly. "Morning, Lisa, " Jason was the only one that responded.
I sat at the end of the table, which was only one seat away from Justin. Jason placed a plate of pancakes in front of me and then got his share.
"So how was everyone's night?"Justin asked looking around the table. I glared at him and so did everyone else. "ow! What the-" he exclaimed holding his leg from under the table.
I looked around the table to see Dylan angrily eating his pancakes. Jacobs' face was void of any emotion. The atmosphere was just too tense. I placed my fork down and looked up at everyone.
"Guys, I'm sorry. But please don't stay mad at me. I promise I won't do it again, " I said. I was on the verge of tears. I would rather them shout at me than not saying anything at all.
Jason sighed and looked towards me. "Just eat your breakfast, we will talk later," he said. I looked down at the delicious pancakes. But not even that could change my mood.
I only ate about two bites, before deciding not to eat anymore. As long as I had this feeling of guilt in me, I don't think I would be able to do anything else.
The front door suddenly opened revealing Grayson. "What up fam!" he said entering the kitchen. "Jay, did you leave me any food?" he asked snatching a piece of bacon off of Justin's plate.
"Dude, not now, " Dylan whispered to him. He seemed completely oblivious to the situation. I would have thought Dylan would have told him by now.
He furrowed his eyebrows. "Why does everyone look so....angry?" he asked looking around the room. Oh, how I wish I could just disappear right about now.
"Oh, that's because Lisa got caught sneaking out," Justin said smirking at me.
I glared at him. It's like he is getting a kick out of this. "What?" he asked innocently. "Wait, seriously?" Grayson asked looking at me.
"Yeah, and that's not even the best part. Apparently, she has a boyfriend too, " he said. "What are you the news?" I mumbled.
"CNN to be exact, " he said. I couldn't tell if he was being his usual sarcastic self or he was actually mad too. It was always hard to tell with him.
"Lisa, just tell us who he is!" Dylan said dropping his fork. "Dylan stop, you're not helping the situation, " Jacob said to him.
"What's there to help? Just tell us who he is, " Dylan said focusing the last part of his sentence towards me.
"Can you stop!? I'm not gonna tell you guys who he is, just so you can find him and beat him up, " I said. "No one is going to beat anyone up, " Jason said looking towards Dylan.
"We just want to know who it is that you decided to sneak out and lie to us for, " Jason said. The way he said it made me feel even more guilty than before if that was even possible.
"Can I have a moment with Lisa?" Jason asked looking at me. I shifted uncomfortably as everyone else reluctantly left the kitchen.
He sighed and came from his seat to sit next to me. "Talk to me, " he said. I looked up at him and he seemed to desperate to know.
He didn't deserve for me to keep things from him or to lie to him.
"I'm so sorry Jason, " I said just as the waterworks started to come.
"I wanted to tell you so badly. Every night I did, but I was scared because I knew you guys would react like this. And I didn't want to see the disappointment on your face when you find out I have been lying to you. I just...I really like Liam. He makes me feel happy and at peace and I knew once I told you I, I wouldn't have that anymore, " I said.
Jason gave me a sympathetic look and sighed. "Everything said I'm not sorry for the way I reacted. There were a lot of things that could have gone wrong and I would not have had a clue in the world. It's my job to protect you, Lisa, and if you sneak out like that I can't do that. "
"Where did you go anyway?" he asked. "The cafe. I walked, " I said looking down. "For heaven's sake Lisa. Do you know how dangerous that is?"
"I know. I'm sorry...I just..., " I trailed off.
"Look, the bottom line is, I don't like what you did and you shouldn't have done it. But at the same time, I get where you are coming from."
I looked up at him in shock. I was not expecting that. "But you still need to let me know who exactly Liam is," he said looking at me.
I broke eye contact with him and looked down at the bracelet on my wrist. I decided to give him Liams description. I trusted that he wouldn't do anything bad to him. It was really Dylan I was worried about.
"So how long am I grounded for?" I asked. I already knew I was grounded. How long was the part I was worried about. I didn't expect anything light at all.
"Oh a very long time, " he said. Knew it.
He got up from the chair and turned to face me. "I love you okay? Always remember that." With that, he got up and left the kitchen.
~Overprotective~
Here you guys go! I know it's late in the evening, but I was STRUGGLING with this chapter. Anyways hope you enjoyed it.
Also another thing. I have also been thinking of making a sequel to this book. Don't worry the book isnt going to end right now. I just wanted to know how the idea of that sounds to you guys. Whether you like the idea or not.
Maybe when they are all much older or you know...something like that. I am open to ideas.
AnYwAy, I hope to update on Thursday, June, 13th. I know it's quite far, but I might update earlier. That's just my deadline.
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