eese trained with Ulric in one of the empty castle rooms they used for swordplay. Weapons hung on the walls, and large gashes marred the floor where targets had been missed and the ground had paid the price. There was no padding in the room, no sweat cloths, or any other luxury afforded by New Kingdomâs posh exercise room, but it worked. And throughout the training, Reese let out her pent-up aggression.
Keen had said goodbye. Whatever they had or didnât have, it was over. She needed to accept it and move on.
Somehow her heart and body hadnât gotten the memo.
Her chest ached and her throat was constantly dry and stinging, as though sheâd been crying. She would not cry over Keen. Okay, sheâd cried a little, but sheâd quickly wiped away those tears and sternly told herself that he was just another guy who didnât care enough to stick around.
Only that wasnât true. Heâd done so much to protect her. Sheâd felt how he cared, even if heâd never voiced it. Even if she couldnât read his emotions like she could everyone elseâs. She knew it was there. And that was the part her head and heart couldnât reconcile. But they would. Sheâd train until she wiped the memory of him from her mind. Or at least, until sheâd pushed it toward the back.
So far, no luck.
Reese lunged at Ulric. He was actually sweating and appeared to defend himself for real, rather than casually blocking her blows.
âYouâre looking a little peaked,â she teased.
Determination filled his eyes and he made a counterattack Reese quickly blocked with a parry and a kick to his stomach.
Ulric grunted and fell back.
One good thing came from drinking the tea of the Ancient Allon. Reese hadnât only grown in height, sheâd become exponentially stronger and faster.
Keen had asked her to stay out of any fighting, but Reese had never agreed to it. She was here to help her friends, and that was what she would do.
âAm I disturbing you?â
Reese turned to find Illa at the entrance to the room. âNot at all,â she said, and relaxed her stance.
Illa grinned and stepped forward. She wore the Fae black uniformâthe stretchy pants and top Reese had grown fond of. Fae battle clothes were formfitting but really comfortable, and they could hold about fifty weapons, which was just cool.
âDo you want to join us?â Reese asked.
Illaâs face brightened. âIâd love to.â
Ulric groaned. âI believe we learned our lesson the last time.â
He was referring to when heâd accidentally cut Illa while showing Reese sword maneuvers.
Illa chose a blade from the wall. âDonât be silly. Iâm in battle gear now. The court dress and shoes would have made anyone slip.â
She made a couple of practice moves, then went into position against Reese.
Reese was in love with Keen, whether she wanted to be or not. Anyone paying attention knew it. But Illa hadnât once taken it out on her. In fact, sheâd remained the devoted sister. Something Reese never thought she would have.
âIf you go to battle, donât underestimate the Newlander queen,â Illa said.
âI would never underestimate Portia. That bitch is crazy.â
Illa feinted to the right, then struck on the leftâcrashing into Reeseâs waiting sword. âYes, exactly. Crazy. And now grieving over the loss of her only daughter. Stay away from her if you can.â
Illa knew Reese better than Reese gave her credit for, because Reese had no intention of staying away from Portia. Not when the oppression Portia inflicted stood between freedom for Reeseâs friends and this land.
âWhat about you?â Reese lunged forward with her sword, but Illa quickly dodged the move. âPortia could just as easily turn on you.â
Her sisterâs sadness struck Reeseâs chest like a punch. âUnlikely. The queen needs me⦠She wonât harm me while Iâm able to give her what she wantsâor, at least, the means to get what she wants.â
Reese swallowed. âAnd after the marriage?â Once Illa and Keen married, Reese would never go near Keen again. Sheâd never commit adultery the way her parents had. And sheâd never betray her sister. âWill you be safe?â
Illaâs gaze lifted to Reeseâs, compassion in her eyes. âDo not worry about me, sister, when it is I who am worried for you. We will figure out a way to make everything right.â
Reese nodded tightly, not certain she knew what Illa meant, but afraid she really did. She needed to work on her poker face.
No wonder Fae were expressionless. They had such acute senses that their most telling weaknessâtheir emotionsâhad to be kept under lock and key.
Reese and Illa practiced several more battle tactics, and much to Reeseâs relief, they were evenly matched. With Reeseâs improved strength and agility, she even found herself holding back, where she hadnât needed to with Ulric.
âThatâs enough for now,â Ulric said, his body tense as he watched them. His feelings for Illa had grown passionately stronger, and Reese could do nothing but commiserate. They were in the same situation, loving someone who wasnât free to love them back.
Illa grinned at Reese, her chest rising and falling lightly on winded breath. She moved across the room to return the sword to the wall, and Ulric joined her. He said something too softly for Reese to hear, but she caught Illaâs surprised expression and felt the jumble of excitement and fear that coursed through her sister.
Illa closed her eyes and let out a breath. âI cannot. This is the only course.â
Ulric sheathed his sword at his back and turned, storming toward the door. He was furious, his anger, pain, and frustration pelting Reese like hail.
Illa approached hesitantly, glancing nervously at Ulric, who stood near the doorway, his back to them. âI must go. There is a fitting. For the gownâ¦â She glanced away. âI am sorry. For the marriage. It isnât a choice for him. You understand that, donât you? Keen would not marry me if there was another way.â
Reese swallowed and plastered on a smile. âHeâd marry eventually. He may be an ass at times, but heâs a good man. Iâm happy heâs found a woman he might actually deserve.â Her words were playful, but in her heart, she was dying.
Illa glanced one last time at Ulric, then turned to leave.
Reese grabbed her arm. âWhat about you? Are you happy with the marriage? It seems that your affections might lie elsewhere.â
Illa pressed her mouth into a tight smile. âWe do what we must, but if I had a choice, I would not marry the man my sister loves.â
Reeseâs head notched back. âLoves? Noâ¦â
âYou might read emotions as you read a book, but your feelings are transparent as well. As are Keenâs. He loves you too.â
Reese shook her head, prepared to argue. Fae were only marginally beginning to tolerate Halven. Yes, sheâd made love to Keen, but that was because they had crazy physical chemistry; the universe could be cruel sometimes. But Keen could neverâ¦
âYou know it is true if you search your heart,â Illa said. âHis feelings for you were clear the moment I saw the two of you in the same room.â This time her smile was sincere.
Keen was attracted to her, sheâd admit that. He wanted to protect her. He cared about her, or he wouldnât have been upset when she was ill, but love? âIs love the same for Fae as it is for humans?â
âNoâ¦â Illa said sadly, and walked toward the door. She passed Ulric and his back tensed. âIt runs deeper,â she said before exiting the room.
Ulric gripped the doorâto close it or rip it off the hinges, she wasnât sure. âLetâs find food,â he said. âI no longer have the desire to train.â
Reese scurried after him, following down stairs and past twists and turns until they made it to a large room where a fireplace that could roast a deer took up one wall. The place sheâd found on her own, and where sheâd often grabbed bits of food from Theresa, must have been an antechamber. This room was the kitchen.
There were multiple prep tables along the walls and a large cutting board in the center. Wheels of cheese hung from nets, colorful fruits from baskets, and a somewhat modern stove stood in the corner.
Ulric glanced around searchingly. Only two servants scurried about, and he walked right past them toward a closet in the back. He opened the door and stepped inside, pulling out bowls and bags of foodstuffâscavenging the way Elenaâs cousin Mateo did when he visited them at their college apartment.
Food scavenging must be inherent.
Which Reese could now appreciate. Ever since sheâd regained her strength, sheâd become ravenous. The ample meals sent to her room no longer filled her up.
Ulric slapped a loaf of bread onto one of the tables, and what looked to be a slab of ham, but shit, it could be anything. They didnât have pigs in Tirnan, which made Reese question some of the food in front of her.
She walked over and peered into the pantry. âYou got anything vegetarian in here?â
Ulric crossed the room and grabbed a wheel of cheese, along with a giant knife, then proceeded to cut thick slices of cheese, bread, and the mysterious Fae meat. He set out two plates and stacked a sandwich onto his own, with what looked like allon leaves instead of lettuce.
âYouâre eating the leaves?â
He grunted and handed her some.
She stared at them, her lip curling back. âThey arenât from the Ancient Allon, are they?â
âNo more Ancient Allon for you. These are regular allon leaves. Healthy, but not so magical that they would harm you.â
Reese made a sandwich with cheese and leaves and sat at the table across from him. âWhy wonât you fight for her?â Might as well throw it out there. âIs it against Fae soldiering duty to put oneâs woman ahead of the kingdom?â
He looked up and scowled.
She took a bite of her sandwich, studying him. He was pissed. Really pissed, which sheâd noted from his angry-man glare. The stuff she sensed beneath the surface was more complicated.
Ulric felt desperate but resigned, as though he were trappedâor maybe Illa wasnât cooperating? That would be the more likely scenario. Reeseâs sister was too self-sacrificing. Sheâd agreed to marry for kingdom, not for love.
âSo, Illa,â Reese said around another mouthful of food. The sandwich wasnât half bad, and this darn Tirnan cheese was heavenly, though she still didnât want to know which animal it came from. Ignorance was bliss. She chewed and swallowed before continuing. âYouâre in love with her, right? I wasnât sure at first, because your emotions were more of the angry sort when she was around. Then I figured out it wasnât exactly â¦more like frustration. Of the sexual variety. Youâd be surprised how similar the two senses can come across.â
He shifted his jaw. âI am a Newlander and she is an Oldlander. I am a soldier and she would be a princess if Derekâs father hadnât fought Hakon Radnor and won the throne. Illa is not for me. And she is to marry another.â He snarled at his sandwich like it tasted foul.
Reese nodded. âAll good points. Except for one thing. She doesnât love Keen, she loves you.â
His head shot up and he stared. Then his gaze wandered to the side. Ulric knew just as well as anyone about Reeseâs ability to sense emotion.
Joy filled the burly soldierâs body, then deflated just as quickly. âIt is of no matter. She must do her duty.â
Reese dropped her food on the plate. âWhat is wrong with you people? Portia is
and she has everyone tied up in knots. Why do all of you obey her every word?â
His jaw firmed. âYou donât understand honor. Once a promise is madeâlike Illaâs to Keen Albrechtâit cannot be undone. And the threat of a second disease has everyone on edge after the first one nearly consumed my kind. Illa told the queen she would marry Keen, and she will.â
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thereâs another disease. The possibility of one is a good enough reason to move swiftly before Portia can make good on her threat. But as far as Illa goes, people change their minds all the time. Illa hasnât made an oath to anyone. Not until her wedding day, when sheâll pledge herself to Keen.â Reeseâs chest tightened just saying the words, but she continued. She had to, because Ulric and Illa seemed to have given up. âIlla change her mind. Shoot, I change mine all the time. You might not believe this, but when I first met Keen, I hated him. Well, I thought he was hot, then he spoke, and I hated him.â
Ulric rolled his eyes. âEveryone knows that.â
Reese sat back, shoulders slumping. âReally?â She thought sheâd hidden her feelings pretty well in the beginning. âWell, anyway, the point is, Illa thought she wanted to marry Keenâfor whatever reasons she deemed important at the timeâand now sheâs changed her mind. Itâs as simple as that.â
He seemed to consider her words, then shook his head. âIt is not that easy. She cannot undo what has been put into motion. They are to be married in two days.â
It couldnât be that soon. She wasnât readyâshe . âHow will we amass an army before then?â
She hadnât realized that stopping the wedding was something sheâd considered until the words had left her mouth. There had to be a way to get her sister and Keen out of Portiaâs clutches. Preferably unmarried.
Ulric set down his sandwich. âYouâve answered your own question. We build an army that quickly. The marriage will take place, and you and I must live with it.â
But that was the problem. She didnât think she could.